April 4, 2011

清明*


*清明是追思先人的日子,但也提醒在世者要懂得及时感恩及报恩。

阿姐:阿公,开心点!

阿公:老了就这样,不是等吃饭,睡觉,就是看天花板~

阿姐:可以看电视,出门走走找朋友啊!

阿公:**每个月给的零用钱都不够买几包烟跟几瓶酒,你知道现在一样少少要十多块吗?人在世要尽孝要趁早,人走了才来拜祭只是一个意思罢了。

阿姐:多念佛号---阿弥陀佛!

阿公:平时存好心,做善事,不念不拜也会保佑;坏事做尽,哪来神明的庇佑?做人最重要是心正,做事光明磊落!


**阿公喝酒当喝水,另外双腿活动能力已大不如前,为了健康与安全着想,老爸每个月除了两百块,偶尔会另买酒给阿公。老爸其实几孝顺一下。要多学习~


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April 3, 2011

Lesson learnt from Laptop


Introduction:
I got my research presentation on 28th morning, just as I was praising my F80S Asus being tough enough to stand by me for 32months, and yes, it died  at that midnight, together with my presentation ppt, without any prior signs or symptoms.

Details:
It suddenly became very slow when I finishing my presentation at 12am and I only managed to save the final version at desktop, before its last shout: bee....and died off, similarly to the patient with last breath. I tried to resuscitate, but I couldn't recover the files from my C'drive.

 I refused to accept the fact at first, and was trying to recover it, but I could only access to recovery system which required me to format my hardisk T_T Normally, I'd save the file in my pendrive and backup at desktop, but not this time, so sh*t thing just happened when I overlooked to prevent it.

My housemate's sister whose owns a pc shop was my last hope. She suggested to turn my internal hardisk to external one by breaking down the external hardisk owned by my housemate. So we tried. Luckily, the precious photos in D'drive still around; but Unfortunately, C'drive was shown to be corrupted-- indicating my ppt was GONE~

It was about 1.30am already, and I was scheduled to present my research on 10.30am, I borrowed my housemate's laptop, starting from scratch. Frankly, the feeling was so so so desperate and disappointed and so many reluctance and unwillingness within, while still hoping there'd be some miracles that my ppt could be recovered.

Last solution was offered, and recovery & repair tool cd was used to recover the file. After first long test, it showed a lot of errors and I knew I could hardly get it back already. I told myself to be focus and do it seriously to opt for maximum score, it was really no point to cry to the spilled milk, and what's more I really short of time and lack of rest/ sleep! I couldn't waste more time & energy dwelling on the past and I must focus!

It was 2a.m., I decicated my sleep to the 30% of my 4 credit research module, from stratch....It was terrible but time spent actually was lesser as I roughly know what and where the info I should look for. My housemate was still working on the hardisk I already given up to. Run and re-run the tests again till 4a.m. and I requested him to stop and rest as it was meaningless to do anything to the hardisk.

4.30a.m, my body signalled me to take some rest, I reluctantly lied on bed for awhile, closing my eyes and I knew I would never fall asleep as my presentation was still half way through. Body wanted to rest, but the mind refused. I was exhausted physically, but I told myself I must be mentally strong to face & overcome this crisis-- I must present & I want to graduate smoothly & uneventfully! "Hang on there~" the voice kept flashing through, I knew I could.

9a.m, I finally finished the ppt and handout, but not the design. It wasn't easy to me as a particular person to design thing at a short time, I was kinda fussy & choosy, what's more I hadn't practiced the presentation for once! Only God know how much adrenaline had been released since then. I got my stuff ready and double check, I glutted a cup of drink and changed my clothes without bathing, I RAN to uni!!!!!!!!!!!!

But when I reached uni, there were still 3 more people to present before my turn, probably due to some delays. I caught my breath back and started to memorize. But, nothing absorbed. When it was my turn, I could hardly remember anything I need to say, but just read the slides without thinking. It was kinda worse, and I got commented my conclusion getting from noway. Luckily, I still managed to answer the questions shot by the panels. Overall, there was much to be improved compared to last well-prepared presentation.


Lesson 1:
Backup anything especially those important files at additional pendrive, skydrive, gmail doc, i-drive, or whatever to play safe. Though the management & update of files could be kinda troublesome.

Lesson2:
Treasure everything surrounding us, be it items or people, because we don't know when are they/ we leaving, probably may just be gone without any prior notice.

Lesson3:
For everything to happen, there must be a reason, instead of dwelling on the negative thoughts-- complaining, blaming, condemning, whining, cursing, we should quickly ride it off with positive energy-- being grateful, preseverant, focus, strong-minded, & dedicated, things may turn out to be unexpectedly well.

Lesson4:
Be good and thankful to anyone surrounding us, even for those we might not feel liking them much, because they might just turn out to be our saviours in our desperate moments in life.

Lesson5:
Be well-prepared always! Opportunity knocks but once, we might just lose a great chance to explore a great, new experince in life due to unreadiness and laziness accumulating in daily life.

Quote to be shared:
I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by conscious endeavor. - Henry David Thoreau

 


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March 3, 2011

无独有偶


妈:爱她就要连她的缺点也爱!如果不爱就不要娶她!娶了她就要好好对待她、疼她!不然就不娶!

爸:世上没有完美的人,每个人一定有他的缺点,有缘分的就做夫妻,生活上一定有摩擦、争吵,睁只眼闭只眼、包容下得了呗~

我:(我先学爱自己吧,得空与否都会孝敬您老 ^___^ )


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February 8, 2011

恭贺新禧

恭贺新禧!新的一年,愿自己多些善念、自律与行愿!愿人们心中有大爱,无论大小贫富,常与善心相应!

今年除夕夜,八点半就累得睡着了,还没跟堂姐弟聊够,只怪半夜三点半才睡。今年没去神庙,十多年来,头次除夕跨年没在神庙的人潮中度过。还有,难得见到爸 开心地与小表弟玩声声响“----霹雳啪啦~。更特别的是陪我度过跨年的书----槲寄生。槲念hu第二声,英文mistletoe,圣诞夜挂在门口的青色植 物,拥有爱、和平与宽恕的含义,也象征着好运。

花了四个小时认真得看完了,是第五遍了吗?不是很记得了。印象较深刻的是考spm时期的某周末凌晨,放下参考书,很感性地 回味书的某章节,结果一看就四小时,从头到尾。虽然同是有个人,但那感觉却已不一样了。一个是些许迷惑、亢奋夹杂期许,另一个是清醒、平静 中夹杂唏嘘。心情来自感觉吗?如果说感觉不一样但心情是雷同的呢?这应该是矛盾的吧!当下心情同是沉重的,随着故事情节而百转千回,心中免不了要问现实中会 发生吗?就算会,能抵得住现实的种种考验吗?答案,因缘而异。

今年很特别,两个别具意义的东西回到了我的身边----一件冷衣与一本书,尤在我欲无所求的时候,来自两个在生命中与我有特别机遇的人。它们让我想起了 过去那段青涩时光和共有的美好回忆。共有?也许;美好?未必。冷衣让我想起了温度,厚实的冷衣在冷冽的气温中,带来了温暖,就像人的拥抱一样,唯一不同的 是,人所给予的温度能透进心里,让长期冰冻的心,也能遇热而融化,倾时变得柔软与富有生命力。暖洋洋的感觉不会像冷衣脱掉了,就感受不到了,而是能久久地 停留在心中,不断地为自己添加能量。

书带回的是思念的感觉。作者用了很多唯美的比喻来形容很深刻的思念,不禁让我掉入了这个故事中。也许会有人说那些东西很巴拉、肉麻,可是对于体会过的人,是比较容易产生共鸣的。突然发现已蛮久没思念人了,除了家人外。刹那的感觉很奇怪,记忆系统会自动翻搅,尝试搜索久违的思念,对于放在心上或心里的某人。突然间觉得为了所有众生的利益,能舍下自己对世间一般的眷恋、尝试跳脱自己内心情欲执着的出家法师很伟大。试问世间还有比自身对情欲的执着还要难断的东西吗?不要误会哦,是断除执着,不是断除情欲,人是有情众生,离情就无爱可言,无爱哪来大慈大悲啊?

不难发现人天生下来就具有寻找配偶的能力,尤其那种迫切想要找到自己灵魂另一半的感觉是不假的,只差自觉有多少。可是多数往往总是在得不到、已失去中徘徊,少数懂得把握的人总能体会何谓平淡是幸福的道理,而且很懂得处理自己的情绪,耐得住寂寞。偶尔把音乐关掉,开始听听自己内在的寂寞,只因为:此曲只应心中有,寻觅无处求。


       李商隐的《锦瑟》

       锦瑟无端五十弦,一弦一柱思华年。

      庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶,望帝春心托杜鹃。

  沧海月明珠有泪,蓝田日暖玉生烟。

此情可待成追忆,只是当时已惘然。

 



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December 12, 2010

家人。爱

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December 11, 2010

婚礼昏理(一)

看了看之前的post才发现这blog废弃蛮久的,换个角度来说该是我大概半年post一次吧!近来有好多思绪一直涌现,无 奈没真正抽出一段时间来整理、做个记录,所以今天算是给自己一个交代吧!(以往在假期参加营队都会有心得报告的嘛!)好想写回之前的东西,但先写写最近的 事。╮(﹀_﹀")╭

回到家已有一个星期多了,但从回到家的那刻起都在忙老哥的婚礼,因为夫妇俩人都在国外,婚礼却在家乡这儿办。起初以为没啥事儿让我做,就帮忙用电脑整理喜 帖名单、写喜帖(老爸要求的,电脑打印比手写整齐)。朋友还容易写:先生、女士、夫妇、Mr&Mrs/Mdm,只要姓名对就没问题了,但要写亲戚 的称谓就让我头疼了!因为之前我不在,老豆又不懂怎么写,所以他就干脆把没写上称谓的喜帖发给所有住得比较远的亲戚(强!)。不过写给亲戚的喜贴还真是一 门大学问,而且这时候可小心了,因为用错称谓比完全不写还来的糟糕!起初老爸叫我直接copy四姨丈派过给他的喜帖上的称谓---贤襟弟,但我想我妈是排 第五,照顺序理应认四姨丈为,就傻傻的印了贤襟兄。可是看来看去还是怪怪的,最后找、看了一遍:亲戚称谓大全家族亲戚称谓表,看到满头星之 后,最后的最后终于找到了比较简单易用的请柬称呼大全 发现对长辈应该用,不是!幸好最后google帮我省事不少,不然可闹笑话了!网络上其实有很多不同的版本,主要是以不同发帖人的身份(e.g.新郎或他的父母)去写,所以找资 料的时候要特别小心、眼睛要放的特大!在用老爸的身份写了一连窜的称谓---‘尊内兄贤内侄婿’尊姻嫂“后感觉好像比较懂了,但其实只是照本宣科罢了,希望别摆乌龙!(不过老爸说通常大伙都不在意的,别写错名字就好!)

在我打印了不少爸妈朋友(占宴席的80%)的帖后,老爸突然对我说要在称呼的后面加个字,我晴天霹雳啊!ε( ̄□ ̄)3||因为当初我看到喜帖信封设计有敬呈台启(对平辈的信封開啟語,請對方打開的意思)的字样,所以我就觉得不需再加任何字了。过后我花了一个上午的时间在找关于在喜帖的意思与应用,发现中国 台湾都好像都不用,但马来西亚网站、论坛却比较能找得到,并说"一定要加个'字!",搞得我头特大!囧RZ 最后还是回到原点,想想应该问下印喜帖的负责人,他们应 该比较懂吧!结果,我对了!哈哈!漲( ̄︶ ̄)↗

老爸宴开六十席,他的朋友少说都占了70%,老妈说是他是有头有脸的生意人,所以门面功夫要做足;反观老哥的朋友说不准还坐不满两桌!分散全世界(英美加 俄澳中港台新)的朋友,谁会傻得特地花一大笔机票钱在佳节时期吃你一餐喜宴呢?╮(﹀_﹀")╭这可可怜了才打拼不久的老哥,原本身为长子、长孙的他因为要让父母开心,答 应办场简单的婚礼,谁知会搞得这么大?幸好他看得开,并早有心理准备,称此次是回来是办Party让家里热闹热闹、让家人开心一下!(不过这六百人的 Party也未免太大了吧?@.@

没想到的事,在后头儿却逐个冒出来---婚纱拍摄、租借事宜、酒店安排、交通安排、婚礼过程安排、人事安排、节目安排,连旅游行程也得一并帮忙安排…(⊙_⊙;)… ○圭~○列~怎麼醬?我的妈!做这儿婚礼协调员(帮头帮尾,所以自不认是策划人!但老哥觉得是!)可真吃力不讨好!人在华盛顿的他们,时差24小时,这白天,那黑夜,但这不成问题,比较麻烦的是当老爸跟老哥的传话筒!这事儿可不是开玩笑!内容、意思、语气没抓准,表达错误就准备吃瘪!毕竟这是喜事一桩,由始至终我都毕恭毕敬、鞠躬尽瘁地付出一己之力,希望整个策划的行程、婚礼顺利进行!(该要多拜神了!)不求什么,希望做到大家都开心,尤其是新人及双方的父母啦!<( ̄︶ ̄)/<( ̄︶ ̄)/<( ̄︶ ̄)/









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August 3, 2010

Obsession


Whenever I start to obsess with someone or something, I start losing my mind, but this time around is much better.
Perhaps it is under the physiological effect e.g. the hormone or the psychological effect e.g. wild imagination
Most of the time the situation shall be the combination of both....just exactly like what make up a man
as mind & body are always functioning as a group...life or death, it always is....as the origin of a sentient being...
I am being rebellious recently, I lag back in my every part of my life....most of the time....
I procrastinate my work, I stop practicing sitting meditation & chanting,....
I start to 'hate'....my life getting tougher with this hatred around....
I hate to be someone who has better outlook than his inner world...

Looking at his face, full of grace; Thinking of her, full of compassion,...
I start to look back & reflect....why oh why?
Yes, I am just simply being lazy!
I realize I'm just human...
normal human full of greed, hatred & ignorance,
who dislike suffering yet doing things that attracting suffering which is ironic enough!
That's why I need to continue....practicing!!!

Bro in the Dharma in FB: Why every1 is always being controlled by his/her own emotion?
aren't we supposed to learn to control it?
The path of awakening needs a lot of determination, perseverance, discipline which I lack most....
I made countless vows....but I have forgotten most of them....but not this:
" I vow to practice Buddhism diligently with perseverance, uphold & spread the Dharma, ensuring the continuity of Buddhism!"

Belief is the basis to a religion....when someone starts to slack in practicing, he is meant to lose his faith eventually....
Until the last moment of the his life, coming to the last breath, with unclear conscious...
He suddenly thinks of the Triple Gem, he feels so regretful, but it is just too late for this life,
the Karma has to run its duty, the Universe has its own regularity...

I am confused...with what I want to be? I only know that I need a life that is simple with less vexation...
Yet again, I start looking outward to search for such life...I thought that is what it supposed to be...
The graceful man in front of me with full-lotus sitting posture smiling...
indicating I am just being foolish & forgetful...of what he had taught me countless life times ago....


一切恩爱会,无常难得久。生世多畏惧,命危于晨露。由爱故生忧,由爱故生怖。若离于爱者,无忧亦无怖。

坐亦禅,行亦禅,一花一世界,一叶一如来,春来花自青,秋至叶飘零,无穷般若心自在,语默动静体自然。



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February 27, 2010

莫名

昨夜当她们离去时,心里突然莫名的空洞,可以说是空虚或寂寞?
妄想太玩味,还是老实点、知道了就放下吧!还有一堆功课等着我啊~
有可能是太累了、病昏了所致也说不一定!阿弥陀佛!
晚上睡前在床上翻来覆去间,傍晚奇怪的感觉又突然来袭!
感觉有比傍晚更强劲,念佛不成,呼吸不见,但随妄念睡去~

今天上脸书看到她昨天提的歌--之前有看到~
一开不久,完了,X感觉像抗药性细菌办般来向我讨债了
幸好只是在眼窟子里打了几圈!
可是按了链接在你管里一听的时候,竟然泪海不止?
不止只是夸张比喻,两下两下吧了!
你看!你看!不是不是!没有没有!
那为什么?为什么啊?

歌继续播着
我起身坐在地上,不忍了大哭起来,也不知为何!
无奈,就莫名地悲伤着,任由沧海桑田~
边哭我就边耐着性子看这场戏
风扇吹着,泪水蛮快风干的,但鼻涕都快进嘴了,有点咸的是啥?

对了,是之前留下的窟窿!!!
那时也是哭两下,然后就不理了!
过了一段时间,触人景物,回忆如涨潮般慢慢掩盖而来...
欲盖弥彰往往后续又是一段莫名歌~

我真的没好好处理,哪来的放下?
圣严师父教的是:面对、接受、处理,才给放下!
放下。。。放下。。。放下!
嘿,先处理啦!

来者何人?报上名来!
回大人:小人行不改名,坐不改姓,姓莫为名,莫。名也!
哈哈~

[无事忙中老,空里有苦笑;本来没有我,生死皆可抛。] 圣严法师末偈





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December 24, 2009

Timelessness and Meditation


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Written by : Piya Tan

One of the most mysterious aspects of the Dharma is that it is "timeless" (akaalika). This interesting quality can be experienced "here and now" (sa.n.di.t.thika), and we are to" come and see" (ehi passika) it for ourselves.

When we are troubled by things we do not like, we wish time would move faster. When we are enjoying something, we feel as if it is too short a time. But when we are really enjoying something, especially when we are joyful, it feels like forever. This is because we have touched the present moment.

Present-moment awareness can be cultivated. All we need to do is close our eyes and focus on something going on in the body, say, the breath. The first thing we might notice is that some thoughts are dancing in our minds.

Some of these thoughts are from the past: What I did today? I should have done that ages ago. Why did I not do this thing? And so on. Other thoughts are about the future: What will I do after this? I will do this and this later. This person has not returned my call. And so on. We are not in the present moment at all.

We need to return to the present moment where we really are: we need to return to the breath. We can begin by simply noting the "in" and "out" of the breath with these two words. As we become more focused on the breath, simply know it is coming in, simply know it is going out.

If we hear a sound, know it, let it go. Do not comment on it, do not add anything. Let it come, let it go. If a thought arises, know it, let it come, let it go in the same manner.

Pain and discomfort can be a wonderful teacher. Pain is a natural thing because we have a body. Physical pain can be removed by a small adjustment in the way we sit. So if we assume a good posture right from the start, we need not move at all right through the meditation.

How does bodily pain become mental pain? When we "own" it: we complain "I" am feeling the pain; it is hurting "me";"my" body is suffering. We are thinking, not meditating.

How do we learn from pain? First acknowledge it: this is pain (numbness, discomfort, a tic). Observe it for what it is: it rises, peaks, and falls away. It may go on for a while, but it will sooner or later stop. Pain is impermanent.

If we can do this, then we are experiencing inner peace for ourselves. No one can do this for us. Wisdom arises through the persistence in watching impermanence in all our actions. As such, true reality arises to the wise (paccatta.m veditabbo vi~n~nuuhi), without any help from others.

This wisdom gives us access (opanayika) to inner peace that frees us from the ideas of evil, sin, fear, anger, and other negative emoticons. The most wonderful things about such a spiritual exercise is that we are in charge. No dogma, no belief, no worship, no religion: just the present moment of stillness.

Meditation shows us how thoughts (both ours and others) control us, and how to let go of them. We begin to truly feel, and then we let go of that feeling, too. We begin to know directly a sense of profound peace. There is nothing more to know, but this blissful peace that is energizing, empowering and liberating.

Thus the Buddha Dharma is well taught (svaakkhaata). It is up to us to seek within ourselves that true peace and joy. (You might like to read this from the start again so that you know what to do, if not already.)

You have also reflected on the six qualities of the Buddha Dharma.

Piya Tan ©2009; rev


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December 23, 2009

普贤菩萨警众偈

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是日已過,命亦隨減,如少水魚,斯有何樂?
大眾!當勤精進,如救頭然,但念無常,慎勿放逸!

是日已過,命亦隨減」,就是說這一天已經過去了,我們生命的力量就減少一天,生命的時間減少一天。

如少水魚」,魚以水為牠的生命。有水魚就有命:水若乾了,魚就會死了。各位想一想,魚在水裏,水漸漸沒有了,那魚還會活著嗎?人也是這樣子,我們生命減少了,也就好像魚在水裏,水漸漸少了一樣。

斯有何樂?」想到這地方,我們人生究竟有什麼值得快樂?我們怎可不真正發菩提心、不真正痛念生死?但就因為我們還覺這世界是很值得留戀,一切的享受,一 切的環境,都覺非常好。如果你能覺得人如魚在水中,水一天比一天少,那究竟有什麼樂趣呢?有什麼值你留戀?有什麼值得你那麼貪著?有什麼值得你放不下?有 什麼值得你那執著?因為這個,故說:「大眾!當勤精進」,一切眾生應該要趕快修行用功,不要把光陰都空過了,不要再等了。應該時時刻刻把「死」字掛到眉梢 上,不要在這世界貪玩耍了。

如救頭然」,要把修行當做有人要把我的頭割去,我們要想法子來保護頭那麼要緊,如果不保護,就有人要來割去此頭;這裏也可以解釋是被火燒著了,一定要想法子刻不容緩熄滅這火。

你應該時時把「死」字掛到自己眉毛梢上,睜眼也看見這「死」字,閉眼也看見這「死」字,睡覺也看見自己眉毛梢上掛著「死」字,作夢時也看見「死」字當頭。 你要是時時不忘生死,你怎麼還有時間去旅行?去找娛樂?去做吃喝等不正當的行為?你要真能把「死」字記得,你就應該修行。

但念無常」,你應當天天不忘記無常鬼不知什麼時候來請客。

慎勿放逸」,你不要那麼圖安逸、圖假的快樂,打婬欲的妄想、打吃的妄想、打貪的妄想、打爭的妄想、打殺的妄想、打偷盜的妄想、打飲酒的妄想;為什麼你打 這麼多妄想?因為你把「死」忘了,你不覺得將來會死。所以在生時,糊裏糊塗活著,等到老時,又糊裏糊塗死了;死的時候,你的愛情跑到什麼地方?你的愛也找 不著了,你的情也看不見了;你的貪吃,也吃不下去了;你的貪玩,也沒有什麼好玩的,所以不要懈怠,不要放逸,要認真、腳踏實地去修行。

這是普賢菩薩發十大願王的原因,因為他知道一切眾生的生死未了;他雖然覺悟,他也不忍看你我現在一切眾生這麼沉迷不悟、醉生夢死,所以他間接地要我們覺悟,要我們也趕快發修道的心,所以不要躲懶偷安,把光陰都空過了。


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December 20, 2009

致吾妹:

 感叹!

现在的青少年怎么了?是快餐吃太多还是上网、看戏太多?头壳都坏掉了?脑袋都生菇长草了?连对父母的基本尊重都没了!十六岁的你叛逆行啊,但起码有个底线吧?小学道德教育--尊敬,孝敬,爱护长辈应该学过吧?自我保护也应该懂吧?晚上十点自己走夜路去找朋友喝茶这个叫什么啊?逞匹夫之勇啊?运气衰的时候给人捉去轮奸叫自找!好点还能带四肢回来,运气差点就给人强奸后灭口,性命都没啦!被强奸后,心里被蒙上一辈子都抹不去的阴影,觉得自己身体被人奸污,很肮脏!一堆的后遗症尤其是忧郁症,身心煎熬,痛苦不堪!家人整天担心受怕,不知道哪天会出事或自杀,家人也跟着痛苦活受罪!所以不要把自己一时贪图的快乐建立在自己亲人的痛苦上!想太多?告诉你戏里演的都是现实人生里所发生的事,只是不知到自己几时是主角罢了!

身体发肤受之父母,父母对我们的恩泽,七世都报答不完啊~!!!你竟然让你五十多岁的母亲晚上十点站在大路边,吹着冷风,流着泪,哭着求你回家,你是哪门子的野蛮叛逆?你是智障的啊? 你是十六岁身心健全饱受父母呵护眷养的中四生!你做事怎么那么不经大脑?你是自私自利,自我为中心,不为他人着想,把至亲的爱心当狗屁,狼心狗肺的家伙吗?我心在老妈流泪的时候都淌血了,你竟然可以视若无睹,继续固执地蹲在路边当阿飞女!我是想把事情化小,不然我会先给你两巴掌给你醒一下!你以为你是谁啊?告诉你自由不是这样子滥用的!如果不危险,疼爱关护你的母亲会那么紧张你吗?别人的妈不管是他家的事,你是你妈生的宝,把你当掌上明珠般爱护,你视之为粪土!你没真正见识过管教甚严的家教,家里给足你自由你竟然当狗屁

被人伤害的感觉不好受吧?没有亲身感受也时常听闻吧?皮肤不小心被针扎一下,很痛噢!那如果你的心整天被无形的针扎啊扎,那痛苦的感受是锥心刺骨,难以形容的吧?因果循环,天理不坏!伤害家人尤其是十月辛苦怀你的母亲,将来的苦报将自己去承受!劝你千万不要再伤害人,尤其是你的至亲!所有宗教都强调做善事,不伤害人!你自己想想自己的所作所为,是真的理所当然得没有错吗?早点反省,忏悔自己的过错,痛改自己的行为吧!我能理解你把朋友看得比家人重要,肯为朋友两肋插刀!但是有必要自私得为见朋友而因此伤害家人吗?这不是借口!你看清楚了吗?是你错误的知识和见解!!!你最好的朋友跟你普通的朋友陷害你诬蔑你,谁给的伤害比较大?你自己最亲的人给的伤害是最深的!像用刀在已经结痂的伤口上画上几刀再撒点粗盐上去!妈生你都痛死了,长大了你还不孝地用无形的刀一直捅老妈的心!你到底是喝过你妈的奶,怎么行为都像野蛮的牛一样?喝太多牛奶了是吗?动物都懂得报答父母恩、得反哺啊!

做好自己的本分让父母对自己安心放心就已经在尽孝道了!有很难吗?一定要做一些很威水的事让家人担心受怕吗?除了家人,有谁肯让你这样一而再再而三地伤害自己?有谁会酱傻?超级麻吉?男朋友?是正常人早就掉头就走,睬你都傻!家人是对我们一辈子不离不弃的资产,只要有需要,家人都会站在你这边,关爱守护你一世!你的好朋友们做得到吗?没有人敢拍胸口保证!到头来你会发现家是最温暖最可靠的避风港,在外头再也找不到第二个了!

  妈对你的关爱程度已经很饱和了,不要再测试她的极限好吗?真不想五六十岁年老的爸妈被你气得爆血管脑中风瘫痪!恻隐之心人皆有之!做女儿的不希望自己的父母健康长寿吗?那可以安守本分显示一个十六岁该有的成熟吗?你以为妈妈偷偷跟踪你很好玩吗?她怕你误交损友自毁前程!你妈看她身边朋友的例子多了也怕啊!想防范未然啊!有谁不这样想:既然能够阻止不幸或悲剧发生,她当然会去想保护你啊!虽然已经败坏你,她毕竟是充满着母性母爱的慈母!!反观老爸的态度是放纵你,让你自生自灭。我觉得要不是妈妈不放弃你,老豆哪里要管你?爸爸觉得你要受点苦头才会收敛,可是如果真的发生不幸,痛苦的不只你自己,家人也会跟着受苦!

你享受快乐、追求幸福对吧?你希望永远开心快乐,家人何尝不是?己所不欲勿施于人!自己好好地反省,痛改前非吧!


切盼你能以此警惕自省!

 

二哥

20091220

凌晨1258

《跪羊图》


词曲:李子恒

演唱:萧蔓瑄 谢文德
制作:侯裕盛
古圣先贤孝为宗,万善之门孝为基。
礼敬尊亲如圣贤,成就生命大意义。
父母恩德重如山,知恩报恩不忘本。
做人饮水要思源,才不愧对父母恩。
小羊跪哺,闭目吮母液;
感念母恩,受乳恭身体。
膝落地,姿态如敬礼;
小羊儿,天性有道理。
人间孝道,及时莫迟疑。
一朝羽丰,反哺莫遗弃。
父身病,是为子劳成疾;
母心忧,是忧儿未成器。
多少浮云游子梦,奔波前程远乡裏,
父母倚窗扉,苦盼子女的消息。
多少风霜的累积,双亲容颜已渐老,
莫到忏悔时,未能报答父母恩。
为人子女,饮水要思源;
圆满生命,尽孝无愧意。
儿女心,无论在何地,
给双亲一声感恩您。


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July 26, 2009

You Raised Me Up

Dedicated to my parents, siblings, relatives, friends, society, country, world, other beings, universe & myself...


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February 27, 2009

Lethargy

“人生难得今已得,
佛法难闻今已闻,
今生不向此身渡,
更待何生渡此身”

inspiration & motivation
of my life...





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February 22, 2009

Life like this...

I'm back again after months disappearing from here :D
I think I nid to post smth over here to record d things happened around me
treat it as memory to b flashed back in my future
apparently I'm in sem2 week5, overloaded with practicals, revision, pbl and short essay writings...
smtimes these things jus pissed me off, coz like it nvr come to an end, n things can nvr b done...
it jus comes one after one... perhaps it's jus life, n I am jus over-reacting towards it...
actually nth to be fussed abt studying life, every undergrad do d same things, dont they?
ystrdy chatted v my ns best friend, he's in UPM medic faculty now,
2months in ns was like way back d time wen I was jus 17+
but now I'm 21 oredy...time flies ya~? bcm matured d...(hopefully both physical & mental...hah)
really hope tat I'm inspired n motivated to move on ALL the time...
but smtimes nid to admit that high tide comes b4 the low one...
once reached the max, nid to come down again
tat's called life cycle
which reflects human physio that will meet sick, aging &death eventually
b4 I concluded my life (not suicide but dying), would I be able to testify my life hypothesis?
think every1 will hope so...eventhough it's a negative results...
nth to worry abt wen I typed tis k? I'm neither stressed nor depressing...lolz
sukhihontu~

*always push ourselves to move forward,
 coz we nvr know our limits...


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September 13, 2008

Mid-autumn~ Home Coming~

Hi~Currently at Kluang hometown (Johor)...
paise to every1 tat visited n wished 2 know my latest news..
that I din update frequently...
Once I got d broadband service at my KL's house
I'll try post more articles to everybody..
It's been a month since d last time I back to Kluang
quite exciting actualy
COZ got mooncake EAT~wahahah~~

I think more or less I ady used to my Uni's life
1thing tat I hv2b mindful is that
hv2b more consistent in revising
From Mon to Fri,
I hv 2 wake up around 7am n get ready by 9am
in order to catch my lectures o practical.
Sometimes d lecture is as early as 8am
so I ady kicked off my late sleep habit...
(actualy cant stay late coz very Exhausted)
normally whole day will b in uni
till evening around 5/6pm
den go home
bath + wash clothes
AND cook dinner~
(nt realy gud at cookin, jus cincai put all d things inside 1~hah)
sometimes dabao oso lah...
Recently quite lazy2cook...
coz cooking nids mood 1...
So luckily got 2housemates help out
*Sheng Song & *Eng Chun (STPM clas/schmates)
Cook tghtr during uni life is fun
somehow a bit time-wasting
coz hor...lotz things to revise daily...
den hor practical reports....
den hor class tests.....
den hor exam....
huah....
~~~~SIAO LAH~~~
paise...abit go off track
Anyway,
I wish tat every1 is doin gud
n pls take gud care of ursef ya~
 Suki hontu
(May u b well~))


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June 27, 2008

Life like this

 I
quit on 14 June
n been sicked 4 weeks plus
I wonder how  this got to me
no matters how
 I have2 take d pain my own
Doctor gave panadol
to resist fever
*I din take
Doctor oso gave painkiller
to reduce d pain
*I din take
 coz I know
I shud take d pain
so I do rmbr d pain
so next time I b grateful
to my healthy life

I got offered by UTM
computer sc
but
I'm goin IMU
4 biomed sc
hopefuly it wil b d 1...
blessed...

*dun wory, those things I didnt take
but I did take antibiotic as doctor prescribed : )


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April 11, 2008

IG.KP

Sory tat I din keep my promise to update my blog oftenly...
coz I've found a new job under my mom's pressure on d 31st of Mar
I currently workin in IG mobile which  has 2 braches
1 is beside Mcdonald, d othr 1 is at d ground floor of Kluang Parade (KP)
me workin in KP tat 1~
Mother said 做生不如做熟 so I chose 2work in a field
which I ady much famiiarize since I got d workin experience
IG is a systematic company which emphasizes on company's image
so d service provided is important
n d attitude of d workers too...
I'm happily workin thr coz my boss n supervisor
n d fellow colleagues are friendly n open-minded 1
they joke, laugh, work tghtr...
I tink it's affinity n my luck2 to work over thr
so lucky tat I asked on 31st  yet started workin on 1st ady...
new environmetn new system
At 1st nid to adapt a more systematic environment
but I think I prefer tat way coz everythin is under-controlled
guess I work thr 4 anther few months...
who interested changin a new hp can find me at KP branch
haha...
Goin to genting tml n KL after tml with frens...
quite excited coz can finally rest for 2dys
after 12th dys continuous workin
So c y guys ya~ : )

p/s: Sorry, d author is 西 邦雄.
Popular, Harris, Kinokuniya, MPH, etc...big book stores can find...


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March 29, 2008

Hi To Myself

I resigned 1weeks b4 d results wer released ady..
n tis time I realy got to brave myself to update my blog more oftenly ady.
HAHA~it's a bit exaggeratin tat I left my blog alone for 2months,
I think I  been thru quite alotz of things during these months.
  Most importantly is I got my result ady...
n it's time to decide my future now...
Confusing with d sucky result I got due2 my procrastination n laziness
I hv 2 think n plan d next step to further my studies...
Ya, I managed to pass all my subjects in d end...
u may feel surprised I saying this, but it's true tat I failed 2subs in my trial
so this time I did some soul-searchings
n found out tat I NEVER think in d rite way wen I study...
tats d most crucial part wen come to study...
but I only realized this after I read a book
named  <<读书的王道>> by 西 彦雄
haha...u may say tat I realy wasted my 13yrs of studying liao...
but it's never too late to change into smth good to us rite...?
So this time realy got to pull my socks high up in order to save some faces
for myself, parents n relatives...

After 2months' working in a quite complex environment (so-called Society),
I realized I am a person who is easily influenced by others
no matter wat is it...I'll learn up 'unconsciously'
haha...geng leh? but bad things pick up much more faster lah..hehehe
I'm sory tat I neglected some of ur concernin SMSes..
n in fact I realy appreciate ur concerns n consolation..
jus tat it's my bad habit of delaying, til d end din reply at all..
 I'll mend my way for a better, more effective communication
so please dun get infuriated with me ok?
haha...take care ya friends~ : )


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January 8, 2008

Working Boy (打工仔)

halo~~I've been workin in 'My Mobile' for 7dys liao...
haha...it's quite new experience for me as I realy know nth abt sales...
Workin in mobile shop is diff frm workin in cafe/restaurant...
 D current boss I hv is generous type...
He is a...gud guidance/model/salesman to me...
Though selling hp is kind of service too but it nids gud presentation to the customers...
Dealers r required to equip d skill of selling things agilely...
They nid 2know some psychology n hv2play some mental games wif d customers...
 Some common effective words r used oftenly to 'lurk' d customers to decide on buyin d hp they wantin
Sweet talk + gud price & service + 1yr warranty (only d hp transceiver n antenna)
so normaly ppl r willin to spend their money...wat's more d hp nowadys r really cheap compared to d old dys...
For d 1st few dys...d boss was outstation in China for business matter...
later moving house to Lian Seng...so most of d time was stayin wif my colleagues..
they r realy gud...coz they r so confident wif d way of selling hp...
they been workin in this field more than 2yrs I think...
I can only sell top-up cards, record d hp(1st/2nd),clean up d shop n help out 4watever...
Selling hp...? Not yet I think...
wenever d customers ask4 d prices...I nid ask my colleagues back...
D prices r changin almost daily...so they got d prices list in their hp...
somehow they can rmbr 4most of d hp
B'coz there r 2many things I hvnt learnt up...
ex: wat hp wif wat price,come wif wat size of memory card..special features/functions..
if increase d size of MC how muc nid added...way of sellin 2nd-hand hp...
...service hp de thingy...blablabla~~
too many liao...so I can only pick up a little by a little,day by day...
But sometime I feel like I'm bein tied down by tat job...
coz I lose my freedom as I hv to stay in d shop frm 10.30am to 10pm daily...
Anywy, I only got 1dy rest per week...
Workin mah...IT'S like tat one...can't help too...rite?hah...

(classics~~workers muz hear!!!)
许冠杰-半斤八两 (1976)


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December 25, 2007

Merry X'mas

        Merry Christmas to all my beloved friends~~Hope u guys be joyous n blissful always...
        Recently I got a part time job in La Cafe,just 1dys b4 X'mas Eve..I had been huntin 4 job in d town for long,asked over 10shops ady,got photoshops lah, mobile shops lah, diff kind of restaurants lah but all of them asked 4my hp no. n to wait at home 4their calls, but jus2shops called after 4/5dys..
        B4 their calls, I accepted d job out of desperation n wantin to gain some workin experience.I work as a waiter thr from 6pm to 1am daily...but frankly speakin, over thr, such big cafe, it's only got 2workers includin me. B4 this most of d workers thr leave 4 their studies liao. Rest of d helpers thr wer d boss's family members n 2 indonesian maids who in charge of d preparin of drinks n food. D table numberin over thr is weird n confusin,got T,A,C,N,S,P....each alphabet followed by 1,2,3,4,5.However it's not tat confusin as organice chem 4me,hah..so after few hours workin thr,i ady can get used to it. 1st time workin,quite nervous actly,coz afraid of makin mistakes over thr.
       I cud choose to start work at 6 or 8pm. Difference are at 6pm,need help to carry all d tables n chairs from d shop n d store 'upstair' n I can earn extra RM 6 .I admit lah, d 2maids over thr actualy more masculine than me,carryin d damn heavy table jus piece of cake 4 them,n their biceps muscles wer greater than mine..haha...Sound like very tough earning tat RM6 rite?
        Thruout d day,I only got 1word to conclude my workin thr - exhaustin....Luckily ystrdy, d crowded Christmas Eve got 4 extra ppl helpin out thr,though so,my legs were no longer belong to me while once I reached home...it's full of lactic acid i think. N my gastric rehabs again...damn painful when ppl wer countdowning...but d orders kept goin,I cudn't expect d boss thr to show some concern n ask me to rest bah?so just bear wif it. At 1am, I called my father to fetch (actly is "Help" )me. D kitchen auntie vry nice oh, treat me eatin those extra d food. Haha..started experience (NOT 'knowing') d hardship of makin money.
       I think this is a very nice experience loh...no regrets workin thr though very buzy / tiring n thr is always full of smokers..hah,over thr oso got alotz beauties lah,but jus realy got no time to take 2nd glance at them loh,n they r oways accompanied by males.hah.
       My mom dun like me workin till late midnight over thr. Naggin non-stop from d moment aware of my job. Such coincidence 1 of d mobile shops I asked, called me 4 interview ystrdy aftrnn. I went n got d job, but I wil only start workin thr at 1st of Jan.
       Still got 7dys to go in La Cafe, hopefully can hv wonderful workin time over thr...


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