Missing
心里面的光亮如果一点一点地熄灭
黑暗就占据了整颗心
不知名的恐惧逐渐入侵
马太福音6：23
你里头的光若黑暗了，那黑暗是何等大呢！
It is so ridiculous to tell someone that I couldn’t find God when I am in the darkness
It is very ridiculous for a leader to say that I couldn’t find God
Pray and pray and pray keep praying as I was panic
For my past experience, God will give me strength or direction by the words from bible
Or a touch and even whisper in my heart
But I couldn’t get one of these signals from God
The bible did say that “seek and you will find”
That is also how I teach my sheep
I tell them with confidence and faith as I experienced it
However, I had fallen into a deep hole where I couldn’t find God
At that time, I was very weak, like a dying people in spirituality for whole week and I couldn’t find any cause
Because of the terrible moment I had ，I realized that the most terrible thing in the world is
I couldn’t find and reach my heavenly father
BUT
this is not the ending of the story
as he is in the end, waiting for me and give me a hug.
有一个小孩与妈妈走失了
小孩怎么也找不到妈妈
看不到妈妈的身影
周围都是陌生人
突然间，小孩感到很害怕
那一刻，单纯的小孩觉得他再也见不到妈妈了
无助地蹲在角落哭泣
哭了很久很久很久
他开始后悔自己一直都不乖没有听妈妈的话
突然，听到一把熟悉的声音叫着自己的名字
抬头看，竟然是妈妈
投进妈妈的怀里大哭
妈妈又气又好笑地轻轻责备“跑去哪里了？找你找到半死。”
孩子边哭边告诉妈妈“我以后一定会乖乖听你的话，妈妈不要再不见了。”
以前小时候我和妈妈走失就是有这种感觉
现在就是这种感觉
因为曾经失去这种同在的感觉
所以现在懂得珍惜懂得追求
谁看见
Sealed (Oct 12)
