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I wonder what we will become when I am observing the high-ranked people around us.
They are supposed to be ideal role models.
They have power and fame.
I respect that they are smart, working hard, self-driven, efficient, and productive.
By any means, they are successful.
We don't, however, 100% want to become like them.  Why?
Is it because they are arrogant?  Stubborn?  Self-centered (and they are god)?  Control freak?  Slave driver?
To me, I look for a mentor who not only teaches me what I need to know for my career but also is willing to assist me to become what I want to become.
The latter is very important to me because I don't like to work with someone who simply wants me to become like he/ she or who just wants me to follow orders.
I am very lucky that I have met two great mentors at Wash U in St. Louis.

I think I can dedicate this song to me.
He is not talking to me, but maybe this song is what he is thinking?
It is really difficult to meet someone's standard when he/she does not tell you exactly what he/she likes and wants.
Can we just open up and say what we want?

前天晚上去了 Coldplay Viva 演唱會，超讚的！ 當晚有種死而無憾的快感 （後來馬上想到我還沒去過陳琦貞, Cat Power 和 Snow Patrol 現場演唱，也還沒看到 Miss Saigon 音樂劇 ，所以還不能死）

Yellow 前奏開始的時候，舞台下方突然蹦出好多巨型黃色氣球，真的很大顆很大顆的氣球！
遠遠看很像有很多圓滾滾的月亮，讓我想起幾米的 "月亮忘記了" 裡的畫面。
黃氣球們從天上掉下來，人們接力地一個一個把它們又彈回天空，從舞台前方跳跳跳到整個草地席的最後排。
大家都好開心好開心，大人們背著小孩追氣球，全都玩在一塊了！

快到中場的時候，舞台燈熄了，我們正準備去排隊上廁所，突然聽到觀眾席的尖叫聲。
順著聲音望過去，原來 Coldplay 全組四人竟然走下舞台，穿過 VIP 席，往我們貧民區，喔不，是草地席走來！
他們登上一個大概一張桌子那麼大的小舞台，不插電的又唱了起來。

整整四個月沒有更新我的部落格和相簿
大概是有史以來我最 "安靜" 的時候
其實也不竟然完全安靜, 因為我還是出沒在 Facebook, 也和台灣的家人朋友用 MSN 保持聯繫, 最近還開始了 Plurk
沒有在這 "出聲" 的原因是綜合的...
    沒有時間寫完整的文章
    過去九個月發生的事情衝擊太大, 太私人
    不想讓自己再也不喜歡的人誤以為我們還有 "對話"
    .
    .
    .

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/gachua/7405638

這裡就是世界的終點，世界的終點不通往任何地方。
在這裡世界將終息，將靜靜地停留著。
村上春樹"世界末日與冷酷異境"

後來，他在大賣場買了一包奶精給你。喜孜孜的在賣場
晃了幾圈，東抓西找塞了滿車，看到奶精眼睛睜的大亮，
拿了就走，他說「那，這包給你喝咖啡時加」。

"Many", our beloved dog, passed away around 3 am this morning. She was 15 year old. She was the first dog in our family and had gone through a lot of difficult time with us. Time passed so fast. I still remembered the day I brought her home. She was a good dog. We miss her so much. My dad told me that Many stood the whole night before she left. We wondered if she knew she would not wake up again. I wish I could be there to see her for the last time. Hope she is safe in heaven now.

The past two weeks, I set this song "Love" by John Lennon as my alarm. Every morning I would wake up with a smile and feel grateful that someone also appreciates love in a simple way.




This week I have been woken up by another love song "Sea of love" by Cat Power.


Ever since I started to use love songs as my alarm, I feel more energetic to get off of my bed in the early morning.

March:
3/6/09 Dance/Music I (http://www.slso.org/concert/index.htm#030609)
"In the first of two deliciously different concerts, Hubbard Street Dance Chicago adds the grace and power of the human form to works by Bach, Stravinsky and Bernstein, as played by the SLSO. Then a purely orchestral finale as the musicians unleash the sensual sounds of Ravel's Boléro."
David Robertson, conductor
Scott Andrews, clarinet
Hubbard Street Dance Chicago (Whitaker Guest Artist)
(Performing Bach, Stravinsky and Bernstein)
Jim Vincent, artistic director

BACH Movements from Brandenburg Concertos Nos. 3 & 1

11 pm Hot shower, the best part of the day

11:30 pm Novel, magazine, or TV

12 am Pass out

7 am Waking up

8 am Finally get up, get ready

昨天 E 帶我去聽 Preservation Hall Jazz Band (PHJB) 現場
他們是從紐奧良來的聽說很有名的 Jazz band, 可惜我對 Jazz 不熟, 也沒做功課就去了
很驚喜地昨天現場氣氛超 high 的!
St. Louis 跟紐奧良都慶祝 Mardi Gras, 好多人應景穿 Mardi Gras 顏色: 綠, 黃, 紫 (Mardi Gras 由來: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mardi_Gras)
Jazz Band 不但從舞台上丟串珠給觀眾, 還跑下台來邊演奏邊跟大家跳舞, 後來一群人乾脆跳到台上去熱舞了起來!
就跟我在 Youtube 上找到這段他們在紐約的歡樂情形一樣!

Preservation Hall Jazz Band 的風格是現場即興演奏

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

作曲:李泉, 編曲:
監製:, 填詞:李泉

風遠遠地吹著我的臉我的手我的髮我的心我的眼睛
你遠遠地呆在那個城那個路那個房那個燈那扇窗口
我靜靜地放著你給我的CD音樂當作背景
怎麼唱　都不再煽情

[Honesty] Billy Joel

If you search for tenderness
it isn't hard to find.
You can have the love you need to live.
But if you look for truthfulness
You might just as well be blind.
It always seems to be so hard to give.

都是從台灣回美國的時候感覺比較辛苦
時差比較明顯, 又想家人和朋友
而且食不知味中, 嘴和胃又得再次適應美國食物的油膩和單調...唉...

這次旅程有好多故事, 好多感動, 就讓我慢慢回味, 一邊複習記下來, 一邊當作在這 "沙漠" 的消遣吧

Taipei
捷運 公車
7-11 美而美
政大書城 誠品書店
有果汁和漂亮甜點的星巴克
路上撿到一隻貓就可以開門的咖啡館

St. Louis
空間
研究

Dear DJ:

謝~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~謝!

謝謝你的傾聽
謝謝你的善良和正直

You have saved my upside down stomach.
Once again I am glad I did not give up the value and faith that I have held for my whole life.
All I can say is "Thank you".

親愛的白芷 阿谷娃娜

錯過妳的人, 不知道是因為他們害怕太陽的溫度 , 還是影子的深度?

希望我還未謀面的勇士, 真正懂得妳對生命的熱情和善意

從初戀, 到幻滅
從愛情, 到成長
從搖滾樂, 到憂鬱症
從家庭, 到弱勢族群

像是響應美國總統大選, 前兩天有80度的晴天, 但這兩天天氣變冷了, 是冬天了
除了選舉熱呼呼之外, 兩個好朋友的小孩們也熱呼呼得出生囉!
我也算是水深火熱吧, 月底要提 thesis proposal, 最近就是一直寫寫寫, 改改改, 讀 papers, 這邊討論那邊討論, 然後看見 competitors 的新 publication, 都快要得心臟病的感覺
我熱切想回台灣的心情, 支持著我忍耐度過這段壓力高峰期

希望大家都有一個心情溫暖的冬天!

One day, I may let you know how much I had loved you.
Not today, because I can barely look at you the same way as before.

Am I running away from the past? I might.
Are you willing to move on then?

Who sang that? "I may be a fool, but I am not the only one."
I thought you could treasure the very child with me, but you betrayed her.
Yes, I rather be a fool believing in faith, values, and love, than becoming a smart and attractive feature.
What you told was a dream, but you don't dare to die hard for.