luckily i didnt delete you away...
Haha, on many occasions, i always tried to delete this blog away. well, i've deleting too many things, luckily i was never successful in deleting you away.
16/8/2013~
about 6 weeks into the new job.
phhoooofff... tiring.
not the load, the humans involved. they are not difficult and it's not that i dislike them or what not. I'm trying to get used to having people around and working as a team! during my pmu days i always wished for a team. haha, to only realise now, that i'm a pretty lousy team player. there are things to take care of lah...
to note the weather, not to do stupid things to disgrace the department, to take care of partner's feelings etc.
PMU never teach leh. HAHAHA.
it feels like..... im back to circulation. the then-claire, is almost the same as a janet teo now... just that claire throws away her temper fast. this jt, holds on to it! haha. but ok lah, can only prove myself with actions lor. she no take bullshit. and i dont like to bs my way through...
cheez said there's more to expect when jt flares for more major and deadly causes. hmm. i pray i will never come close to that.
and hooray~ everyone is back on track. my job is done, and i should get on to my stuff. this project has surprised me with a miscellaneous and im trying to swim out of my own current.
the big jj has good EQ. she will be able to sustain herself.
the shou zi jj seems happier now. because their relationship got better, i guess? and maybe God has finally led her to HIS light. and hopefully she will still be in HIS light in any moments of darkness.
and me, im no longer feeling jealousy anyhow liao~~! a great leap forward. and i've been testing for a week liao. the disappointment level has been dropping when i got rejected for the nitty gritty offers i made. and today marked another milestone. i felt nothing and could still smile it off.
it's more about time that one pulls oneself together again, and embrace the forthcoming.
as for me, feels so much lighter casting this one side. the other technical stuff that i'm facing, should be able to be settled with hard work. so im not that worry. money issues will not last. it's the heart that is weary. but it's ok. i'll hurdle it through. been through worse. i guess i have rested and lepak for too long, time to work it all out again. i just want to provide enough for mum...
should really get real work done. sign up for a part time degree course. was browsing through the programmes unisim is offering, nothing interests me leh. but well, beggars cant be choosers. so, hmm. i guess that's the only available practical option left.
Dear God, I pray to you to seek for the wisdom to sort things out at home, the courage to face the upcoming, the patience to wait for the fruit of labour to bear, the ability to help others out, in a way or another. I also pray for the discipline in my life, so that i can follow the plan accordingly and eventually get things done. Amen.

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