茫茫
真不知道為何過了兩天
這偏網誌可以跟上一篇心情差這麼多
也不完全啦....
不知道自己到底要什麼 想往哪前進
就像當小女孩的自己嚮往長大
長大後卻頻頻回顧
Wish I never been there
明天就滿三個月了 在這間所謂的上市公司
我討厭做助理的雜事 但也不太有熱情馬上接下國外業務
I want to take control, but hate facing pressure of sales...
很煩吧我 我也很厭煩這樣的自己 能否多一點勇氣與樂觀勇往直前?
如同小舅說的 業務經驗是最快能讓人成長的 但我也該有一個自己未來的方向
所以我很想一試 可是今天主管找我小聊 卻有點卻步
才三個月耶...會不會太快呀 @@
看過了很多事 只想平靜的生活與幸福
我失去了一點銳氣 或是在國外念書生活時那樣的勇氣
想回高雄生活 再幾年以後
這只是個選擇 我是可以這樣選的 但需要勇氣
想到哥哥他們以後也會回去就覺得孤獨吧
越想越不開心...
wish I have never been there before.
昨天一整天遊玩的終點是基隆吃晚餐
好吧我真的一直以來都不喜歡廟口
昨天更是熱爆了 那邊又有施工
基隆好歹也是去過不少次 一直有回憶湧上心頭
記性太好了...也想像力豐富
如果 我就這樣出現他家門口呢?
I always try to convince myself, there must be a reason for putting me here and there,
to be in any location or charactor.
That everything happened for its own truth and unforcable way.
If I worked here because of him, then I should have go back last year.
It was painful staying here, but I didn't go back.
Now if I go back, what is the reason? Not even sure if it will be correct for me.
On the other hand, I must admit that it is difficult to leave him gradually.
How can I clear all the doubts and heading toward without fear, no matter to any destination.

Sealed (Jul 22)