Dear dairy, Dear God, dear darling pink angel,
i wanted to cry out loud... i am sad that i fall in love again... because all the time love brings harm to my heart, and when love comes, it hurts me so much...
i am asking myself, worth it? i will definitely said, worth it... because i feel so safe and comfort when shes around... i dont know why i have been poisened...
that day in the bar, tot of just side by side, but what had actually happened is the hug, its a hug from heart... i felt its sincere... dear god, is it the angel you bless to me? i will not do one thing, i will remain as it is, because i am comfortable these way...
no matter how tired, no matter how far, to see her once, is worth every single second i spend during the journey.
i would like to express more, but my tears is coming down so much... i feel loved and i am glad... so glad... and so happy.
what should i do...
but seriously i love that picture so much, because its a real one in the heart.
hehe, i wish nothing more, keep the love and i will cherish it every single love that i receive.
im so grateful, thank you, lord, amen.
but still, i wipe my tears, and i smile, because it happen. thank you for loving me. i may not returning your love officially at the moment, but i had accepted it in my heart... when im ready, i will try again, with all my courage bet on it, just for you. because i trust you. for the last time.
yea, this feeling of first love... when i see her i feel so happy, when im alone, i will miss her and wonder whats she doing... is she eating right, working too hectic, or being stressed... how nice, these feeling of love, is so wonderful... but it flourish only when i sees her... when im not, i will only miss her and the only thing i can do is miss her... from a distant.... and dare not going near...
i am a bad guy, thats why girls dont like me and ditch me... although im behaving right... dear god, please no joke on me... im trying to be serious... two more month it will be my 24 already... kind of worry already... please, no more game please... i beg...
i shall focus, work is the matter, and money is the main focus. ganbatte !! venus, you can do it, carrying the name of goddess of love, venus !! u r mighty, you can do it, you are superb, you are a good boy, you behave right, good boy...
time to bed, oyasumi...
babyvenus