活得,要珍惜
我們總是以為,我們會找到一個自己很愛很愛的人。
可是當我們回首,才發覺自己曾經多麼天真。
假如從來沒有開始,你怎麼知道自己會不會很愛很愛那個人呢?
Quite a long time didn't share my days here, I have nothing to share doesn't means nothing happen. Indeed they happened every day. Since I have to face them again and again every day, so it means nothing to me anymore either sadness or anger, somehow they not really remarkable.
Cases to share: - since they still play in me mind
- I’m continue day dreaming these days, sometimes I think of my future ( not satisfied with my current 'progress' ), and sometimes recall back my memory ( for the things I've wrong last time ). Even though, always recall back our memory wasn't a try, but it had been my daily routine.
Well, when you drive to a place that you not familiar and come to a T-junction, where should you turn? to your left? or right.. Both side seems to be the same at the entrence, while you don't know where would it bring you after you go through. Will you face another junction after that? what you gonna do with it?
There's a word in Chinese ' every road can reach Rom ', I have no doubt with that, but the problem is which is the best way. Will I go through the whole world to reach Rom after I take the left turn, while it just on my right.. To avoid these problem, mankind had found the solutions, they design the campus, radar.. This facilities not only benefit for those who used on the road, eventhough used onto the sky and sea. With the help of these facilities, we not only save our time to reach our destination, furthurmore we can use it to find a faster way to reach our destination.
Now we had the campus, satelite, and map.. But can it show us the direction to our mind? Perhaps not. There's a person told me before, ' when you need to take a decisions in your life, you don't care which is the best way, you shall choose the way that you like the most, and be your best to make it the great one'.
If I’m right, I have been more than 1 weeks’ time didn't update this page.. Not because I have nothing to say, where I have lot actually; not because Im not happy either, Im fine I think I have adapt myself to this life style but there still a very long way to go..
In this few day, there lot things playing in my mind and there no peace at all. Actually it just a few cases, it shouldn’t even be a matter at all, it just really tiny problem that I might just face it after 10 mth or maybe later and may not happened at all.. But I’m just can't stop myself to think about that stupid thing, it keep bordering me, make myself really in blu..
For real, I really have few things that I want to share in this blog, but I’m just don't make up my mind to do it, cause of blu.. Im started day dreaming again this few days, thinking some nonsense. However, it do chill my days haha.. You know what Im bordering me? I tell you what, Im thinking what PC should I buy later, it really a later, well I means maybe 1 year later, but Im started thinking of it now. I'm worry about what model of h'phone that I should buy in future, and what specification it should have, where I don't even have one now. I'm thinking where should I go for a holiday after I went back to KL, where I’m just here for first few month. I'm thinking about what should I do after I’m back.. Am I too excited for it? But I’m now more relaxed than before, not that tension anymore.. I think I've be more dummer than before, really stupid to think all of that, which was too much!!!
Before I went to sleep last night, I feel that my balcony is unusual light source. And the shadow of the metal bar was telling me that the light was facing toward my room, even though the house opposite me using spotlight also can't make this scene, if so how is it happened? I step out to the balcony and look upward, then I realise it was from the moon, even though it wasn't full moon last night, but because of the clear sky last night the moon looks extremely bright and very beautiful. Suddenly, I told myself if I’m not that busybody look seek for the light source I might missed up this beautiful scene, where I was about to get to sleep at first.
We all are really too busy with our own business maybe, we used to look down and look forward to seek for what we want, and seldom to look up or look aside to see what actually happened around us. We keep look down to seek for the thing that we want might cause by our intelligent, that the gravity of Earth will usually pull everything down to stick with itself, but yet to forget that human also using their intelligent to bring them away from the gravity. And so, we might not forget to bring up our head to look up to get what we need, to avoid we miss up something.
Actually, we really can’t avoid ourselves from missing something. When we looking upward, we maybe miss out something at the side, when we look aside, we maybe miss out what happened down there. When Im writing this, I was miss out my opportunities to watch the TV show too. This element is inevitable, it will keep carry on.
It was quite frustrated when you have something interesting in you and you really wish to share it with others, but after you told them they just don't know what reaction should give you beside a 'simple' smile.. You somehow will feel like - am I dumb or they are?!! After all, you'll rather choose to forget than speak, unless you really can't stop you mouth to move..
It is crazy, when you tell them something and they don't really believe in you, and rather find out themself. It most probability because of their life experience told them, never trust others! - human word are last thing to be trust!!What to say, Im almost the same now, don't trust too much, find out yourself!! This had been my daily routine for now too.. Maybe this is what others ppl call self-defence..haha
Actually what I want to say is, after moving here I've less place to place my thought my idea, although it's less.., less ppl to share my joy and tears. This might help to gain a little bit for my independent if being positive..
I was standing at the balcony and stare at the fullmoon few days ago, suddently I figure out something. As we all know, moon are actually reflecting the sun's light and make itself seems like shining by itself.. Most of the people nowadays already known bout this fact, but I dare says that there still have lot people still stay in the dark and thought that moonlight is from the moon itself..
Why am I talking bout the moon this time? Make it simple, do you feel that humans get to know moon because of the sunlight, otherwise people won't even get an eye on it, because itself have nothing ..
When Im still a little, Im staying in a double stories terrace, it was very spacious in front of my house, can place up to 4 or 5 cars.. Inside the house, got lot of beautiful decorations, antique.. my mom used to let us wear the beautiful, cleanest, and tidies clothes. But actually thats all not belong to me, the house we rent, the antique belong to my g.pa, and some of the shirt are actually is a gift from others peoples.. But who knows, those outsider sees like we are really own it all...
I was teaching my cousin for his complicated maths question just now. I remember, when my first time to do that, I was thinking 'why 'S' education department created such a complicate question for primary student and not even teach them any maths formula before, except '' plus, deduct, multiple, & devide ''. Isn't it better to used formula, and its much more easier! '
After several time I teach him, me myself also learn from it. Without any formula, we still able to work out the answer, the main point is the basic. We have to understand the question, without the help of formula, the question seems to be more easier. What I means by complicated is, exp:
#Gill and Lee had total 65 sweet. Gill sold a third of her share where Lee sold 23 of his. After that, Lee had twise as much as Gill. How many more that Lee had then Gill at first?#
It's not that easy to stay with others family, no matter who they are..
Actually, I face this problems before, but that time is other ppl come over to stay with my family. But now Im in the other hand.
Let talk bout the person that live with my family before, is a she. She is my relative too. Before she move to my house, I mustn't say we are very close, but atless we can still talk, laugh and share things among my family. After she move in, she start to being strainge, keep away from us, less talk, don't border when we call and propose her, even sometimes cry silently at the corner. She really looks pity that time, but we can do nothing to help after trying in so many ways, untill her folks come to bring her back.
What a day off today, I think this was the meaningfull day I having here in s'pore, since I come over by last Dec.. Everyday that I spent my time at this place was just working, eating then sleeping, even my previous day off I just went down to the swimming at lobby.
Today i went to shopping to buy myself some new clothes for CNY, actually I really enjoy shopping( especially looking some branded stuff). What makes me to ignore this kind of lifestyle, MONEY did it of course.. If money really a problems for me, then what make me enjoy shopping for today?
How about i say like this, humans is actually sensitive in numbers. What I say is ' only sensitive in number' but not counting. In M'sia, there some brand like Braun Buffel, Renoma, Esprit and many-many more, they really looks expensive for me before, but here in S'pore things are different. It’s because the price has turn from 3 digit into 2 digit, this really help to make you believe that it was cheap, cheaper then what they have in M'sia. And this is what I want to say, human are more sensitive in number then counting..
Im suppose to post this by last night, but since the PCis not in the room anymore, n I need to work yesterday.. so.. Im just manage to make it today.. Anyway, Happy New Year to everybody who read this, no matter when u read this, just wish u guys all the best!!
This is the 2nd yr where I celebrate my New year at Singapore. Shall I use the word 'celebrate'? I rather call it 'spend'! Its same as last year, I work for that day, although lot of ppl are same as me.. And Im just stay at home and looking forward the clock - the second pointer pointing to the 12 and cross, all jz in a sudden and there are nothing different at all, just like everyday. The only different perhaps is that, I have to reminding myself to end up the calender by 8 instead of 7 when I write it onto my customer's warranty card.
Stop talking nonsence.. What bout myself, for the last year?
" COUNTDOWN " word that ppl nowdays used a lot..
New Year Countdown- A day that full of celebrations, among friends, among family, between government n nationality...Beautiful fireworks, cheers from each others, joy at the street..
Independent Days Countdown- A meaningfull day for every resident in that country, gov set it as a public holiday for their nationality to joy this wonderfull day..
Unfair!! Unfair!! Unfair!!
I sick bout it, why are my off day keep on changing. Isn't it already in schedule? If its not, Im still can accept, but it did, they should used to it!!
Am I so usefull for you guys, need to rearrange my schedule to monitoring yours' job?( I don't think so ) Is that you would have an important things to do on my rest day every weeks? Or maybe because Im really that fool, that speak nothing with no objection for my off day ones a week that I waiting so hard, had been postpone times to times without any notice!
17022007 - DAY 1, Day before CNY (SAT)
This day begin where im still working, this was the longest working days i ever had. Im continuesly working from 6am yesteday till 4am today, and I gone home bout 4.30am. Today was a special day for me, cause Im going home( KL ). After working for 2 month at S'pore, Im started feel tired and missed my family, my pet and my friends of course..
I didn't went to sleep right after bath, moreover I bring my tired body and soul sit infront the pc, checking all my mails and messages from my friends. Cause I don't want to feel any gap between us when we meet up..
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