妍妍

Wow, it's been almost a whole month since I last blogged. Semester 2 at Uni has come off to a great start, with the odd 4 assessments per week since week 3. I'm learning to use Flash, making my own films, dreaming in Jap (no, not really), still writing crappy essays at 3AM, keeping off the caffeine even when I am writing crappy essays at 3AM (this feat I regard with pride) and yeah, just hanging in there, trying to make the most of this episode of my life.

For those who know me well (or think you do), it might shock you to hear that I'm studying Philosophy as my 4th subject, considering how passionately I dislike it. But like they say, every black and non-fluffy cloud has a silver lining. Philosophy for me, is no study + easy marks, considering how much of the stuff we've done previously in highschool Extension Latin, Extension English and Extension History. Plus, the course deals with arguments and 'thinking about reasoning.' That's probably why I'm still alive. Barely.

I'd have liked to head this entry with a photo of all my notes and textbooks, just so you can all share my pain. But alas, I am lazy.

Recently, I have broken my glasses again, this time thanks to the tatoms (atoms with a 't' to keep my alliteration going). And, I feel too sleep-deprived and brain-dead to think of anything else.

This week, of course, is APEC (yay) so Sydney, Australia is undeniably the best place to be right now. I had a great laugh from the Herald yesterday morning, and my belief in the Chasers' greatness has been affirmed yet again. They're like the Harry Potters of this dull, homogenized place. I aspire to be like them one day. Bringing hope to the world through law-breaking and mocking people I don't like whilst being paid for it sounds like the perfect career for me.

Next week, is my Film pitch. And I haven't got any ideas as to what kind of Film I want to make. I'm all for bluffing (again) but my damn pride refuses to let me be eaten alive by those Film nerds. I will make my mark on the world! I will shock and astound them with my bullet speech, and ... and - and yeah ...

Ok, I'm a goner.

But I will struggle till the end! MAC COMPUTERS, THOU SHALT NOT DEFEAT ME SO EASILY! Even if you destroyed my first relatively simpler assessment, I can still get my marks back in the next two 10-billion-times-harder-and-worth-double assessments! HA! Film pitch ... T.T Some-one shoot me. Or else give me a good idea, inspire me! (Might be the better, though not simpler, option)

This return to blogging is turning into a 'REVENGE ON MACS' session, which tells me I should probably stop procrastinating and get back to brainstorming that Film pitch. That way, my dream might be taken a step closer to completion. But please, until Wednesday 12:59PM I'm very open to ideas!! Anything you want to see made? Do tell me and I just might pitch it for you using my oh-so-great pitching skills!

For now, ciao, I'm off. But never fear, for I shall be back! =]

- Mon

今天是一年少见 「十三号」的星期五
很多超出意料的事情 迫不及待 等着发生
想必大家都有发现 在任何超出想象事情发生后 仔细思考时 会不知不觉笑起来
或者是其他强烈感受也有可能

今天发生了一件满有趣的事情 之后我笑的原因不只一个
故事很长 让我来长话短说

It truly is ironic that the very last entry I made was on Paraskavedekatriaphobia. For today, Friday, July 13th, 2007, something rather unanticipated occurred. To cut a long story short, a leisurely afternoon stroll turned into a frantic fight for survival, as my sister and I were closely pursued by none other than a ... stalker cat!

It came out of nowhere ... seemingly appeared out of the bushes. When we approached, it didn't even move. And when we finally managed to evade it, it was gone as suddenly as it had come. Strange, to be sure.

Anyway, we spent around half-an-hour frantically scrambling up near vertical boulders in the vain hope that it would not follow. Then we battled the undergrowth and raced through thorn bushes and wild, clustered greenery which evidently hadn't seen human life for a considerable period of time. And well, 'twas a rather fine way to spend Friday afternoon ... don't you think?

Paraskavedekatriaphobia. Does anyone know this word? Does anyone have this fear? Perhaps unconsciously, this is one of the most predominant fears to have secured its roots. Built upon centuries of superstition, 'paraskavedekatriaphobia' simply refers to the fear of 'Friday 13th.'

Ridiculous, you may think, how triskaidekaphobia evolved into paraskavedekatriaphobia ... but the true power of superstition-invoked fear is, well, powerful. The term itself is made up of several Greek words, and I do believe that in the olden days, it used to be 'Tuesday the 13th' in countries such as Greece, when bad luck and all manner of accursed things would run riot. How it changed to Friday is a mystery. Well, to me anyway.

As with all things, I am of course full of personal anecdotes. But I, most thankfully, do not possess this fear. The 'Friday 13th' which stands firmly in my memory was in 2004. Year 10 camp. Canberra.

Split up into cabins of four, Gab, Cat, Jen and I shared a cabin. Gab and Jen took the double bed, Cat took both bunks and I was left with the single, oddly positioned bed beneath the TV, by the window. More about this later. After lights out, and everyone had eaten about as much as they could without throwing up, we wondered how to spend the night. Someone, I forgot who, decided we were going to watch TV. So we did. Then, one by one, they all fell asleep. So I, all alone, finished watching that moderately violent episode of Alias at around 1AM and then went about making sure everyone was asleep. I cleaned up the area a little, turned off Gab and Jen's bedside lights and finally stumbled into my isolated bed. That year, year 10 camp, turned out to be the only camp in which I slept more than 2 hours. I slept 3.

Some time before 5AM, I was awoken by something. When I got up, the room felt somewhat ... different, but disregarding that, I set about washing up and stuffing bags as best I could. At 5, Cat's alarm rang. And everyone tried to keep sleeping. But at 5:30, I was adamant. So by 6AM on the morning of Friday 13th, 2004, we were all up and packing.

Now, to the real point of the anecdote and its link to the topic at hand. My bed, foot right below the TV, directly facing the door on one side and right beside the window on the other, was not in an entirely desirable position. Why? Well, let us just say that I slept 3 hours on Friday 13th right beside the window, with my head directly in line with a pole just outside the window, where someone had quite recently died. Hmm ...

I think by now everyone knows why no-one else chose that particular bed to sleep on ... but hey, I'm me, and what do I fear?! Answer: rarely what others fear ... their fear is my strength, you might say! Coming from someone who barely hesitated before jumping onto the railway tracks in chase of her escaped English homework in 9th grade ... remember that guys?! Well that's another story, for another rainy day.

Anyway, what made me think of this? What made me write about it? Well, on Wednesday, June 13th, 2007, my luck was 500% rotten. Too embarrassed to write of it, even on my blog. Yes, it was that bad. But it’s over now, and as with all things, time turns even the worst of things into mere memories. Only memories.

终于18了
感觉一切和以前一样
似乎什么都没变

早上还是早早起床
照样坐在电脑前面
听歌 下载 写文章

不过我的世界已经改变了
就算多么难接受
18岁已经不是小孩了

个性会有因此改变吗？
我想不会
矮小 爱笑的我 永远都不会变

无论未来如何
我想我不会再变了
真实也好 伪装也行 这就是我

不管18对我来说是好 是坏
人生 命运 以把我带到今天
所以我也会默默接受

每个人都应该用最乐观的态度面对人生
因此我也会
我18了!! =]

Do you ever get that nagging feeling of helplessness?

When you're leaving something important undone, fully aware that you'll regret it later, and yet there's nothing you can do about it? When you're evenly torn between two or more sides and no decision seems just right? When everyone and everything passes you by as you stand at the junction and watch them go? When the world revolves as it always does, completely oblivious to the troubles of one person? When you watch your loved ones leave one by one, until you are all alone? When you sit in a dark room, shrouded in your own misery, knowing that fate has stripped you of everything you care about? When joy is a past delusion and all that's left are bitter memories? When no-one seems to understand anything you're trying to say? When being yourself isn't quite good enough?

When an eternity has passed,
The world has changed,
Yet you remain stranded
On the island of uncertainty.

Sad, but true.

Whenever you have a bad day and nothing seems right,
You question life.
Whenever you lose a loved one and the world seems forlorn,
You question existence.
Whenever you find yourself alone against the world,
You question justice.
Whenever you find your dreams shattered,
You question reality.
Whenever life serves you all that you desire,
You forget to question.

Perhaps you should learn to question the good and the bad.
Perhaps you should learn to accept all that is given to you.
Perhaps that, is the meaning of life you seek?

When you cry, let your tears ease the pain.
When you bleed, let the past numb the present.
When you suffer, know that you are not alone.

Life was not meant to be easy,
Grief was not meant to be concealed.
Love was not meant to be painful,
And you, are not meant to be anyone but you.

For although we dwell in a world of uncertainty,
Where all are reserved for fear of injury,
We cannot ignore the persistent call of humanity,
To drown in deep pools of helplessness and misery.
But even so, you need not despair unto eternity,
No need to ever fear the feeling of uncertainty,
Because remember, you’ll always, always have me.

- Mon

词如诗 曲动听 栋梁哥哥新专辑的主打歌曲 "王子" 真的是天下无双

专辑六月1号发行 经典歌曲包括: "陌路" "如果" 和从未试过的新风格 "游戏"
如果可以，大家一定要支持！

但如同往次 由于精心创造 每首歌都是无话可说的好

以下是栋梁哥哥的 "王子"
但愿大家喜欢！




谈到 "王子" 这个话题 我又想到一些可聊的点子
虽然和这首歌毫无联系 但我知道它迟早会出现
十七岁的我 早已超越相信童话的境界 早已看清真实的世界
因此我不会抱着童话实现的期待度一生

为什么有神奇的童话故事？ 为什么有美妙的结局？
美丽，善良的公主与英俊，勇敢的王子共度一日之交便拼死拼活的相爱
打败所有恶魔后 在对方父母和两国人民的祝福下诚心诚意的成婚
这种美满的结局是我们又喜欢又讨厌的故事情节
我们喜欢它 因为它是我们每个人内心深处渴望的未来
同时 我们讨厌它 因为它所代表的一切只是一时的梦幻

今天的公主 美丽的不多 真正心地善良的更少
现在的王子 有几个不是宠坏的野蛮色鬼？
有几个值得继承王位？
有几个拥有带领一个国家的能力和决心？

看来 还是莎士比亚的 "咯密噢与朱丽叶" 比较有现实感

What does it mean to be alive?
Does everyone deserve to live?
What constitutes a good life?

Why do people fear death?
When are we ready to die?
Are we ever?

Why do some who die deserve life,
Whilst others who remain alive deserve death?

Who can answer these questions?
Can anyone?

I wonder.

As imperfect, sinful humans, do we have the right to impose our own judgement upon those around us? Do we have the power to condemn others? Do we have the ability to determine true good and evil?

I think not.

Without good, there would be no evil.
A world without either would not be complete.
A life like that, would hardly be worth living.
Or would it?

Since the beginning of time, we humans have pondered these questions in vain. For indeed, who are we to question the will of God? Given the power, should we eliminate those who oppose us? Should we kill those we deem unworthy of life? If we do, then what does that make us?

一圈一圈 地球不停在转 人类盘桓
还会有多久?

曾经 回想宇宙诞生之时 美丽无比
谁能猜到会有今天的局面?

现在 眼看人类互相残杀 暴力为生
谁能怀疑我们不幸的宿命?

往后 等待世界末日到来 地球毁灭
谁能妄想解救或挽回从前?

回想美丽的曾经
等待毁灭的往后
为什么人类仍然如此固执 执迷不悟?

为什么要欺骗?
为什么要作恶?
为什么要夺权?
难道会因此得到短占的快乐?

不顾后果 以气行事之人
必成锁定人类灭亡之祸
此乃古人之言

现在还有一丝时间
可是已经太晚
古人理智多端 说的好
万山以改 本性难移

不求教诲之人
才是终竟后悔者

若不吸取教训 历史的价值就会重重下降
记载的曾经 入录的现在
会不会被失意的往后一网打尽?
还有没有期待的未来?

My heart goes out to all those affected by the tragedy at Virginia Tech. There are no condolences I can offer that would ease the pain and nothing I say can change reality, but I do want everyone at Virginia Tech to know that all over the world, there are people grieving with you and praying for you.

It would be too much to ask for you to forget the incident and continue with life as if nothing had happened ... for indeed such a task would surely prove impossible. This day shall never be forgotten. Rest in peace, all those who fell victim to one man's wrath on society.

Life is often more painful for survivors, and I pray for your deliverance. God Bless you all.

We will never forget Virgina Tech, 16/04/07.

如果可以 真ㄉ好想飞 自由の感觉 天下无比 值得珍惜

不想被人世间の点点滴滴淹没 不想一人流浪消失ㄉ未来

好想飞 好想张开翅膀 拥抱无边ㄉ天空 寻找生命ㄉ意义