When Life Gets So So… Hard
前些時候,收到Mangatepopo河事件中另一位罹難者Anthony的妹妹 Lauren Mulder來信,告知我們她目前正在建制一個紀念這個事件的網站,懇請我們能提供一些Tom的相片和生活上的想法與感觸給她,我們於是mail了此篇文章供她參酌使用,標題為『When Life Gets So So… Hard』,希望外國朋友們,能看懂此篇文章,亦能瞭解我們內心的煎熬。
《When Life Gets So So… Hard 》
It became tough to know what to say or do when our loved one –Tom gone form our lives, but not form our hearts, we'll keep him there always. It's lonesome here without Tom, we miss him so so.. much each day, our lives aren't the same, since he went away.
Since 15 April 2008 till now, we have been suffering from the pain of the loss, and we are can't take away the pain. We cannot afford to leave this issue, but also we don't know how to survive our loss and grief. We are trying moving forward and learn to live and enjoy our life again, but we are devastated beside the pain, anger and confusion was the embarrassment. Yes, of course, anyone would be embarrassed but ours seemed worse (at least to us) - Why? We still no got answer: why Tom and six lives are gone? When we meet new groups who are frequently asked us questions such as "How many children do you have?" “How old is he? What's he major subject? ” “What happened? Why? Why?” "Couldn't you could done something about it?" Those queries are never stopping. We just felt numb, awkward, helpless, and unsure; our family dreams shattered, nightmare scenario around our daily living.
Until now (July 2010) we are trying to face and speak up the true, just like human being going through a painful life crisis. We told people our special fighter big boy - ‘he went abroad study leads him into Heaven’. Tom was a heritor of only boy of family tree that concern about the whole family lifeblood. We loss Tom likewise we lost one of our part of bodies. We are dealing with the grief so difficult all the time and feel like it is just too hard to bear, ever 2 years later. For members of our family still couldn't accepted it's true, the lost can never be replaced – That Tom is gone.
Time spent with Tom was so very precious, even if only for a very short time, we hold a special memory that much more than words can say and we'll always love and remember him day and night. God take care of Tom in Heaven, he looking down on us with pride. We keeping thoughts of our precious son, we often lie awake and cry with tears in our eyes, we know he are always at our side. He is too precious, never to be forgotten. Each time we see Tom's picture, he seem to smile and say, "Don't cry, I'm in God's keeping, we'll meet again someday." Yes, we'll meet again someday, Tom only takes the rest, he is a thousand winds that gentle blow to us and people, and he is warm sunlight on people face that makes them happy.
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Charity老師:
在小弟莫名奇妙渡過慌亂的七月之後、在您準備再次出國的空檔之際、也在我房東
合作的親戚廠商荒繆到過了一個月都還沒辦法把我電話處理好的情況之下,先祝福
您接下來這趟歐洲行一切順利喔。
上週在靜宜的英語研習班上來了兩位 貴校的英文老師,英文都頗有程度,加上整
個班整體上下來算是程度最整齊的一次研習課,連續五天的課程(還不包括其他學
校的課以及晚上備課的時間)幾乎把我給累壞了。不過那種疲累感和課後那種征服
了新系列的充實感,想想或許跟你們在義大利縱走時那種「美景薰陶配合體力極
限」的混雜感覺,差不了太多吧!哈!
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When deeply pain in the heart there’s grief bleeds inwardly
The tears flow so often it seem never run dry
And heart [life] gets so afflictive [tough] that you were rest
in Heaven
If I could have a chance to substitute you, I would like do.
I never want memory, but a thousand words can’t bring you back.
How my heart aches as I have to find a way out......
Without grief, there’s no healing.
It’s a grief journey I must take.
But I am never alone, you help me and your parents stand by me
Just let my tears come, I miss you so each day, it’s a big hole
here without you...
My life isn’t the same since you went away........
I hold a special memory; I will keep you in my heart always....
I will always love and remember you;
In my heart you hold a place; no one else will ever fill
And now.....
I close my eyes to say good bye,
And watch you fly away to sky
You didn’t go alone; part of me went with you....
You are much in my thought....I miss you so so much......
Vicky
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