Just Dance n Smile=)

i dreamt of father this afternoon....
i cried after i woke up....
i miss my parents so much....really so much...
it is always at moments like this....tat i really jus wanna get a ticket n fly bk to the place where i belong....


Home...
the place that keeps me safe....no matter how tough life is / could be....


thanks dear for the ponyo pics...
it did give me strength....i love u...

IT MUST BE being tgt wif my retarded and paranoid boyfriend tgt for too long le
i am becoming more n more KUA ZHANG n PARANOID...
yes i am....
but its ok...i love you ahboy haha=)

i am very sleepy now but i dun feel like sleeping -_-
n this is v weird....

Michael Jackson
My childhood idol
My 1st english idol

He is truely a Legend & inspiration



somehow after watching finish this movie...
i am emo again -_-
recently have been pretty emotional...

jj....pls take care....we love u....
life is short and fragile...
treasure your loved ones...

i love my family....i love my friends n my one and only boyfriend...
and i really miss my parents alot recently...really really alot...
pls pls pls pls stay healthy...and happy...
i love you...


side note:
i cant wait for tmr to come...
date date date..food food food.
=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)

Lessons learned.

there is one thing abt me is that...
i really dun like to keep my words / thoughts in the heart...
i always chose to express it out...
(tats why i always chose to confess to the guys i like even though i knew i would get rejected lolol)

however, being stupid-ly helpful always turned things worse...yes...ALWAYS...
finally...i learned...or at least i will try to learn=)
after so many times of wondering "WHY the hell do i have to put myself in such shitty situation..."
of course...with my typical suay / dai sai face...lol
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=)

pls be happy...

side note:
i cant wait to see my boy later...cant wait for thurs to come...last paper...
then is our WONDERFUL DATE DATE DATE=)=)=)
and its all abt FOOD FOOD FOOD=)=)=)

=)

ok last week had been really reallly crazy...stressful and mentally draining....
im glad i finished 3 papers....now only left HRM...which i will start studying on sunday....i need a rest today....
too mentally drained....

TMR (i mean today) is holloweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnn
we cant celebrate again cause we gt yumyum prac=(
but its ok...we will train hard for our 4000 cash=)
$$$$$$$
lololol

just come bk from movie "jennifer's body"
suprisingly it is not a lame show as i thought hahaha
it is not that bad...
n the "jennifer" is seriously tooooooo pretty...i hope she was not a man (as the rumous)
n i wan to watch THIS IS IT n MY SISTER'S KEEPER
sooooooon!=)

ok i blog is kinda jus for the sake of blogging lolol
because i am very very sleepy now~
so bye~lol

to make me smile...=)

saw this on my super outdated friendster profile:
"Never explain yourself to anyone, because the person who likes you doesnt need it..n the person who hates you wunt believe it..."
how true=)

I LOST MY WALLET LAST NIGHT
ON THE BLOODY BUS.....

i seriously kinda hate myself for being so careless...but this is the 1st time i LOST a wallet...
ok actually this is the 2nd time....but at least tat time i nv lost any important stuff inside....
this time ard...my IC student card...atm card n my 400 bucks cheque all inside....
n the lovely pic of me n ahboy...=((((((

SOME BLOODY ASSHOLE TOOK IT.....
n......he TOOK EVERYTHING AND THREW MY CARDS INTO DUSTBIN!!!!
DUST BIN!!!!
luckily...someone found it n really kindly enough to send it back to me...
BUT I AM STILL VERY ANGRY TAT HOW COME PPL JUS THROW SOMEONE ELSE IC INTO A DUSTBIN!!!!
FUCKER.

but im glad i get back my student card...monday is my 1st paper...
i was so worried tat i have to do alot things to  take the paper without my student card...
n i also glad tat the cheque is a crossed cheque....which the asshole cant deposit into his own account...
but im so heart pain tat i lost the nice pic tat i took wif ahboy=((((((

hai...nowadays....why are ppl so black hearted....i guess ter is the only lucky one tat lost wallet....someone sent the wallet wif everything inside back to his house....really lucky...

but i guess im also not tat bad la....at least gt IC n student card....

but still....
FUCK YOU ASSHOLE TOOK MY THINGS N THROW MY IC INTO DUSTBIN...
I CURSE U CURSE U CURSE U CURSE U
CURSE CURSE CURSE CURSE CURSE CURSE CURSE CURSE!

ok...i felt better scolding out
go study le...
bye.

ASSHOLE I CURSE ON U!!!!

i do...really really really really really really do.....

because No one is perfect...

but together.....we are=)
just like how u love cooking but hate washing dishes..while i hate cooking but DONT mind (i dont LOVE ok) washing dishes=)

i love you...

=)

i definately believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason...

"Vice Versa"

this is for everyone...of course including myself=)

yea...admit that it is partly our fault
but i couldnt be bothered to explain much...
if u really wan find out the other side of the story...
come and find it out...
or if you just simply choose to hate me / us...go ahead...
anw its NOT the 1st time i / we taking the bad person's roles=) lol
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back to study...later got reh at night...TIRING..but i am kinda excited for the show n the event~can take alot alot pics of Lee Hom and hopefully can get his signature for tian tian hehe=)

no one is perfect in this world...

i got alot bad points...
really really alot bad points...
i am not sweet...
no longer innocent...
not that friendly at 1st impression...
freaking lazy...
very bitchy...
not cute at times....
easily lose temper...easily mood swing...
and yes i like to gossip...although sometimes it means no harm...but still can be very harmful...
n i am impatient...
also becoming more rude...influenced by seah li nian...
sometimes i dun mean wad i say...
sometimes i dun say wad i mean...
self-center and selfish at times...
seldom care about other ppl feeling...
very very extremely stubborn...
and silly...
n the list can go on n on n on n on.......

my bad points are 467282837392927261927 times more than my good points...

but...
thank you...
for accepting and loving the imperfect me...
=)=)=)

I have been having insomnia for near one week -_-
must be i too used to sleep at 5 or 6am for the past few weeks due to assignments, studying balabalaba
i seriously cant slp at all no matter how tired i am until 5AM kao~
i am so sleepy now...but i need to studyyyyyy...my study have not been productive at all...AT ALL -_-""
n i had the best dream of this month, that i passed ALL my papers lolol
i was damn happy....but seriously disappointed when i realised it was just a dream=((((
i really need to pass the papers..really really must.....
i CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CANNNNNN DOOOOOO ITTTTTT!!

and HAPPY BELATED ONE YEAR AND 8TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR=)
i love you=)
really really thank god that we have each other, thru all those happiness, saddness, n everything=)

sometimes i really believe alot things in this world are just fated=)

NOW i finally found out one of the most efficient way to wake myself up early to study is a NICEEEEEEEE AND YUMMY BREAKFAST~~
i managed to wake myself at 10am SHARP to order mac breakfast lolol~~which i failed to do so yesterday HAHAHAH
n this also made me realise....i actually can finish up alot things i supposed to do FASTER if i slp less each day...
but too bad....i am jus born to be a PIG...i cant slp less than 8 hrs per day...last time is (12) now improved to (8)....if i slp less than 8hrs...my face will be grumpyyyyy...n if i slp less than 5 hrs....i will have black face n bad temper for the whole day...n if i slp less than 2 hrs!!!...i willl........C.R.Y. -_-"""....NRA training camp has proved this theory right lolol
so yea i am just a pig=)

TODAY i am going to study HMT~history~~woohoooo i "LOVE" HISTORY TO THE CORE....-_-""
i seriously hope n praying damn hard tat i will pass this sem...cause i seriously dun wan retake ANY of the subjects i am taking now....seriously BORING SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT....totally hate it....

lolol i shall start studying soon once i finish my yummy zao can~
but suraiya is happily n excited-ly talking to me on msn...which made me cant focus at all
all her fault LOLOL
our conversation did remind me of alot silly things i did for my ex "crushes" (in china) hahahah
back then...how silly i was haahaah
but its fun to recall back those stupid memories lol
afterall~we would only be young for once lolol! i sound like a 30 yrs old woman...
but i am still 18=)

OKIE gp study le~! i am motivated! must finish the few chaps today!! woohoooooo!!
FIGHTING!!!

MISS MY BOYFRIEND!!! cant wait to see him later n cant wait for yumyums training later~~=)=)=)

maybe once awhile, we should all slow down and look around
look at the ppl ard...n the trees, the sky, the animals...
enjoy the process of life more
instead of moving so fast forward...=)

currently attempting to study for ER...
FAILED....
i could hardly concentrate...
this is really very sucky feeling...
every year at this period of time, i wish im as half displined as Rebecca Tay Yanling lolol
bec...pls give me ur brain hahaha

tmr is gonna be a busy day...
Reh in the noon then is D.base show....then still must teach class...tiringgggg
but after tat is Ahyi birthday~21st~!
PARTY=)=)=)
i love parties!!

but the nx day morning gt show n class again -_-""
n tmr ah boy is buying his NETBOOK~~wooohoooo excited for him!=)
n i cant wait to see my ahboy tmr~!
n i cant wait to DRESS UP n pair up wif seah linian tmr LOL although we can predict that most of the ppl will bi shi us for the whole night HAHAHA

yeaaaaaaa tmr~!=) gonna be FUN FUN FUN!!

n im really very happy that things are clearer now=)
love you! deep deep=)