anxiety
I really regret for wat i did..... now worries and anxieties flooded me.... I know i have to be strong at this point so all these wont affect my work and my life. Really a bad ending for 2009.
January 21, 2010
January 15, 2010
January 6, 2010
December 27, 2009
why am i saying all these?
this is like putting a video tape into a video recorder... replaying what had been taken a few years back.
to think about it... it issnt the same thing anymore... but somehow u see it as a shadow following you.
fuck wat the hell is gg on with me man.... i find it harder to run away this time round compared to last time...
i need time.. i need to see more things... i need divert my attention... i need to stop thinking about it...
but the more i want to do it... the more I see someone pulling me back...
the intention is clear.... why should i still ponder over it?
December 21, 2009
Rewinding
December 20, 2009
December 13, 2009
a bad bad year
This year kinda ended very badly i feel.... so many misfortunes... for me... for some of my friends.....really hope next year is a great turning point for all of us!
At this point of time, I feel I need to realign my direction in life. In front of others, I am always an optimistic person.... yes everything can be solved... but to do that nobody know how much things have been churning in me before i could find a way out. It kinda get very tiring. I always think i should keep everything to myself.. i dun wan to affect others.... i wan others to look at the happy side of me. My friend told me i should think for myself instead of thinking for friends now which i think i really should.
Anyway apart from this, I really started to miss schooling days... especially gg back home with my friends... lunching together....discuss projects together. Well thats not all, staying in hall for the 2 years is very memorable as well... good or bad haha. The point I really missed all the friends who have been with me for the past few years... not that I dun like my colleagues (thats impossible! my colleagues are really fun people to be with!) but still I feel more comfortable with long time friends around.
Enuff of saddening blabbering... anyone interested in joining Adidas Sundown SHOWDOWN MOMENT?
*Think wretch blog is totally crap... so many weird people visited my blog "under who came to my blog". solve the bug pls!
December 5, 2009
December 3, 2009
5 mths ongoing
5 months ongoing...
haha work is seriously tiring. However, I m really glad i have fun and nice colleagues around. After working with the FA at NB, i realized i m actually quite lucky. It was kind sad to see how much work load they have. Is ok there is a high turnover rate... but with high turnover rate and others workload lands on u... that is crazy man.
Well.. most of my friends have quit their jobs and went to other jobs (mostly went to PWC)...dunno whether will they feel happier there lol.
Now u ask me how far will i forsee myself in a few years time...seriously i not sure....if luck was with me...with my ability if it allows...i wish i could stay long lol.
August 19, 2009
so many left....
is about 1 1/2 month i supposed after filling timesheet today.... met up with so many frens...
I have realized how fortunate I am to be in my department... like my AM once say... this place is not the best... also not the worst... but it has a nice and friendly environment.... sometime i feel i m so sheltered by my seniors... they really help me a lot... i hope i can digest everything they teach me...
Is great...there is no office politics like wat Vicki is experiencing.. i feel sad for her... this issnt my impression of how a office should be like... but really glad she have found a spot in EY... hope everything will be well! Lucky we can still meet for lunch =D
For Glenn...i hope u can choose wat u right... most importantly is to work happily...i think both of us is going crazy on how to earn our 1st million dollars... well throw it away.... life is like that... when u gain something... u lost something..... there is always something that need to done to balance that equation... choose wat u like dood... when u work happy... u will then be motivated to achieve more... hope everything will be well for u.
As for me... i m really happy to stay in my department.... the culture is nice... just like Roland told me haha... so sorry that was the 1st question i pose to u during the interview becos all along i think i like to live in an environment that I like... No doubt is OT... No doubt is freaking lots of work... as long as it is an nice environment... nice people....nice culture.... all these is nothing =D
July 31, 2009
Bag of Memories
Convocation finally over...
wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to all my schoolmates for the three years of wonderful memories..
after this, all of us will be entering into our next stage of life (except BanBan The Retainee)..
16 years of education... issnt this the moment we are waiting for? hah...
well... at that moment i started working at KP... i realized how much i miss school...my friends.. afternoon naps...non-routine schedules...late night sleep...now i feel my only motivation is to wait for paycheck and weekends... this sounds so bad lol!
July 3, 2009
Adaptation
Work finally started...
2 days of orientation is finally over... n here come the real things...
With so many internship... i somehow feel my department was so different from the past jobs... haha..
I realized i got so much to learn and catch up.... especially on the IT side... Hope i can get along well with the seniors especially...
Many things to read up too... i must buck up haha.
June 21, 2009
June 7, 2009
the only thing left in uni life.
my fren reminded me of someone which i dun even have a chance to say sorry to her..
I think it is once of the most regretful...something unresolved which left hanging in my university life...
I really hope u will stay happy for watever things u do.... if we will have chance to see each other again, I hope we can sit down and resolve this issue too..
is always good to have friends around than enemy and i think everything can be solved... so lets resolve this if fate allows.
June 7, 2009
Sealed (Jan 24)
