Inside my heart !!
Yesterday I just went to Emergency ward in Hospital….. hmmm….. one of my friend had breathing difficulties…. man that really worried me sooo much I was speeding to the hospital…. and hmmm that's really scary…. lucky nothing serious happened … and really life is something we can't control …. no matter how rich you are … how strong you are … we still have to face this …. dead…. man…. I really wish to go home sometime when I think of this…. wanna go back to take care my family …. spend more time with them…..
Why life really hav to be so difficult until now I still asking this question….. when dead comes I think that's the time the answer review bah…. hmmm…. so I like to take the chance here to leave whatever I wan or wish to say now over this blog…. of coz cross finger …nothin happen…. lately I sort of see a some tiny light which made me smile in darkness here… of coz I wanan be alive … but I just wanan say here … for just incase!!!
最近我去上课,我老板送我去上了紧急急救课程。。。哇其实很多东西和学问我都不懂的耶。。。经过了今天心情很矛盾,人生真的太多预想不到的事会发生了。。。课程很不错知道了很多本来不懂的学问在急救方面。。。。 相信真的发生在自己周围的话会比以前更有信心去应付吧。。。
真的人生真的很短。。。很多东西和事情都不是在于我们控制的范围里面,好比说:“意外。。。生病。。。等等” 真的今天不懂明天的事,开始担心身边的人。。最近还好吧?说真的我真的是时候戒烟。。。就当着为了自己。。。为了身边重要的人。。。唉自己的定力真的很弱叻,每次不开心。。有烦恼。。。压力大的时候。。都会想抽一根烟。。唉真的不能再这样子了!!!自己的年纪真的不是开玩笑了。。。也不想以后自己会有什么事情要麻烦身边的人。。。
我想借用今天的经历再一次写下自己心里话。。。我真的害怕一天真的无段段就走了,连说的机会都没有。。。。。。。如果他日。。。如果我真的离开了人间。。我希望任何人能帮我告诉在这一篇文章里面的人我想说的话, 非常的谢谢你们;-)。。。。
致我可爱的Daddy:
Dad … there are something I wish to tell u here… if you read this
accidentally.."Yes, I m fine now" :-) Don't worry… just that I afraid
I don't got the chance to say something I wanna say deep inside me…. but if my
friend tell u bout this …. yes I maybe gone…. not that I can't say it to u now
while I m still here.. but I really duno how to say, I m sorry!! but Dad .. pls
don’t sad… if I m gone, that's must be God's call … and there must be a very
big reason that I have to go…. and I wan and wish u all to be strong… and I
Love you as much as Mum … just I duno how to show it to u … and please do take
good care… I pretty sure when the time comes I be waiting for u at the gate of
Heaven!!
致我可爱的妈妈:
咪咪。。我只是纯粹想把自己的心里话说在这里,希望不算太迟吧。。。其实我还没有戒烟,说大话骗你也只不过不想你担心我在这里的生活,其实我在这里很寂寞,不过又不想放弃自己很想为自己打一片成绩给你看。。所以一路以来我都在骗你。。只是不想你担心。。不过我真的会戒烟为了你。。因为我要照顾你。。只是担心自己没有哪个福气,希望神给我那个机会。。只是今天不懂明天事,所以先说好自己想说的话。。如果我走了,请你顾好自己。。我深信我们还会再一次的见面。。别难过哦。。。别放弃我们再见的想法!我会努力。。你真的不要为我担心。。因为我是你的儿子!
致妹妹:










