August 10, 2008

戲子。戲子

那天,看到你螢幕前出現的幾個字;
一時,我無法釋懷...

和你說出我的過往..只是以為..
原來,還有個人可以和我溝通著、了解著;
可以不說話就能了解對方的一切想法。
一直以來,我都是這麼以為著!
一直以來,對於情感我仍是這麼的單純與執著!
直至,你說了那句!
不知怎麼著,我開始感覺...心受傷了。
它讓我哭了許久卻難以平復!

一句,"好戲劇化的人生啊!"

映入眼簾的這幾個字,讓我模糊了視線。
我不知道我該如何去回應這短短的一句,
該怎麼再去與你交談...
害怕,頓時佔據了我所有的心靈深處!
你也許不知道!
當我說出那些過往人生時,對我來說有多麼的不堪。
我也清楚的知道,一般人會怎麼樣來看待如此多采的人生。
但,我仍是想要你知道!
因為,對你我想要誠實;
因為,我相信你能知道我的情感;
因為,我知道你能懂得我人生裡的孤寂。


知道嗎?
沒有人會想要在人生中只做一個戲子,
因為,要演好一齣戲..
需要不同的戲,來磨鍊自己的演技;
需要很多時間,來重覆排練自己的熟練度;
需要大量勇氣,來承受觀眾的給予的評價。
在起幕時,把歡笑堆滿給台下的觀眾;
在落幕時,把悲傷孤獨留給自己!


如果將我的人生,硬分成三段..

在我人生的前半段,我只是傀儡戲裡的主角;
把舞出我生命的線,交給任何可以操縱我的人!
而在人生的現階段,我只是戲劇集裡的戲子;
在不同劇本裡努力,交付我完美的演出!
而在人生的後半段,我希望我是個劇作家;
將動人的劇作寫出,讓世人珍惜現有的幸福!
這是我僅存的一絲信念!


而對於你,對於愛..
是珍藏在我的情感字典裡。
不會因為物換星移,而有所動改變!
因為我知道... 任何情感的最終,
怕的不是愛的人離開自己;
怕的不是眼前的一切逝去;
恨的不是對方的背叛傷害;

而是一種..
遺棄的感覺!

在七歲之前,我就已經開始明白!
在七歲之後,我將開始微笑面對!


謝謝你,讓我認識你
因為你,我心底開始暖和了
即使你,現在將要轉身離開這裡
你仍是,我心裡的唯一不變的永遠


現在我正拿著我的電話..
撥了熟悉的數字排列後..
卻按下了OFF..
因為我不知道你是否願意再聽見我的聲音。


我淺淺的笑著,因為我遇見了你!




ღ 桑妮雅・朱 創作於LA





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