step into adulthood
the last night of being a 20 lousy and stupid girl.
Not exactly, I did all the things with no regret.
I promise myself to be a better person in my 20s.
The title tells it all.
Seriously, I really am happy today.
It's like finally, I got my first part time job as a banquet waitress as Sunctec City Convection. Access Card and name tag were made.
Thanks Evi for introducing Yuliana and I to this job. We got the chance to experience and to know what's really happen at back when all of the guests were sitting back and enjoy their meals and shows.
I was actually kind of worry at first when i was told by Evi that we were also required to present the different courses to the guests' table. I didn't know about that as i always thought that our job scope is just all about clearing plates but not on the carrying foods. I was really panicked as there were this two courses which I worried that I would break it or split it out, the soup and the dessert.
However, things turned out to be okay, process went on smoothly. I was really lucky that I only need to serve for 5 people on the 10 guests table. The people i served were really kind, i told them this was the first time I work and they were really patient with me, they reminded me that I used that wrong side of the the knife to cut the fish which were kind of embarrassing. They helped me from the blaming as I forgot to no put the tray on the table with the food and i was being caught by my captain,Max. What's more funny is, the guests even kiddingly said wanted to scope one extra bowl of foods for me as there were too much,lol.
People working over there were really helpful as well. Even though our captain, max were really sarcastic in some certain funny way. Girls and guys were really kind to help and guide me along. Im really bless to work with them. Guests performed on stage made my night as well.
No doubt, I'll go back to work again next time to earn some pocket money. :D
You all know what, people are just being really realistic and yes indeed,they are.
I am also one of them, I know that and I admit about that, but I am also one of the materialistic kind.
I know and admit that I am not a good person as I do take advantages of people for some certain things, I do not want to say that but it is true that I always take things for granted. I know it is very wrong to do so and I have always tell myself that I have to change, but, somehow, I am still always the same me, stay the same and think that's the way.
Sometimes, I do not or would not talk to you as i just don't feel like to as I am just always being realistic, talk to you when i need you, joke with you when I need you, people just treat other people good when they want to get something good back in return,the same goes to me, I know it's actually very sad to think or say that, but, it is true, don't you just agree with it? People act in that way when they get in touch with the reality. How I wish, I will not grown up as everything is real on that time.
Materialistic.
Even though, i told one of my friends that I am not a brand conscious but I know I do, I am one of the kind as well. Not on everything though, but on some certain things as well, like bag? I have the perception that i like to spend on things that I can see on my wardrobe. For me,eat, sometimes just doesn't really matter, as I think what you have eaten in the end will sure come out as well, so what's the point of eating something which costs a fortune. I know i shouldn't have said that because I have not even go out to work and yet I am already here to spend my parents' money on those meaningless stuffs which i bought to put on the wardrobe.Sigh, as temptation is always here,like everywhere.
Materialistic and Realistic.
Combination of both makes all the things go really fake and i think that's the reason why till now i still have no way to find my missing boyfriend.HAHA
However,in any other ways, do I need to attain self-actualization? Life is just complicated when you are getting older and foremost when you got to the scary and realistic world with all those fake people.Like me.
Ps: I do not why I would post about this as I am just really clueless.
How?
I think dawdling everything and try to do it on the very last minute really doesn't work now. I am seriously facing a big problem now on doing my ebapj. Everything seems so complicated, even though i had tried to refer to the practical notes while doing. Totally have no idea on how to proceed with everything, it is just as if like lost in the jungle.
Two week of term break ends on today and poly is reopen on tomorrow. What's more awesome is, i have this tutorial on ebapj on tomorrow morning, the first lesson to start with the day. Yet, i have nothing done but only with some useless table data which doesn't show any effort on putting into the project. I am going to be so dead, clueless on how to face my group mates on tomorrow,especially the irritating and proud one. what am i going to do now is preparing myself for tomorrow to be scolded. Yes, i deserve it. It is my fault on not completing anything.
Worry and scare are what i feel now.
I think Anthony Neely is handddddddddddsuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum~ HAHA, just saw his picture when i was on the log in page,lol.
Just back from Bugis, i should be starting on my ebapj project now, by doing on my part, however, the lady(me) is dawdling, my mind is asking me to start but my heart is telling me to start on the other day. -.- , i haven been deferring everything since last week, i should have started and there will be this individual work review on the 2nd week of poly reopen. Yet, i actually have nothing done so far,yea, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I told myself before, i will turn over a new leaf, a leaf who will be more diligent,voluntary, understanding but somehow i am just cant seem to be one of those.
find something fun to do and enjoy, let the hard time comes after that than, yea, that's the very typical me.
Something could change me but just in a short time.
Here i am again.
Seriously, i am very grateful to have my very supportive parents. They support me on whatever things i do, just like the flea, i spent their money on getting a flea booth with my friends and i also bought some stocks for it but in the end i didn't earn much from there. Parents called and asked how was the business on flea going, they knew i didn't get much profit from there but they are still being supporting on what i do, what my mum said was it's good for me to gain experience from there ,as for my dad, he said that as well as i am happy and that's the main concern. But i feel sad when hearing that, i know i have been spoilt by parents, i do not have any work experience before ( as if my flea business could count as my work experience?!), i do not know what or how does poor feel, and what i knew was spending money on those un-necessities,i always buy what i want but not what i need.
However, after the flea, i got to know that, it's not easy to earn even a dollar, i swear to myself that, i will try to cut down my expense and use money wisely. i shall just learn from my neighbour ( back in Brunei), who study in UK, she spends within $200 a month. I was really amazed by that when i was being told by my mum, how does she manage to spend on this range of amount in UK, it's freaking UK, most of the things at there is freaking exp,i guess. Or is it 200 pounds?!That's a big difference with $200 in Brunei or Singapore dollar.
i shall just make an abrupt stop at here.LOL
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