December 30, 2010

Fun Fact

For a long time, I'd been convinced that I learned what I had to know(at a certain degree which depends on those whom-may-concern), or , at least as many of the friends said, my English was good.  Precisely speaking, after coming back to Taiwan from Long Island U, I'd believed my English was outstanding. And fortunately, I had my time:  the knowledge in English I aquired in the years of English learning before turning 19 really made me stand out as someone whose English was generally better than those of most Taiwanese (normal Taiwanese.)  Admittedly, I have been a cocky stuff, thinking that I wouldn't need any help for any English-relating exams. However, it was the need to nail GG, I came to stand in the entrance of a new path. Only had I to look outside of the pond, I had the chance to realize how much I lacked in the art of the language called English.

After failing GG for two times, with the score of the second time that improved only by 40, I finally understood how stupid I'd been. Little did I know about the techniques needed to solve GG questions right, nor the grammar rules applied in the verbal part.  Had I not decided to take classes in LX, I would not know all the things I learned int the past 2 months. Do I not have the brandstorms and reviews of what I learned, I will not be able to know how I'd been writing wrong and how I can finally, if working hard enough, write some real English articles.


October 5, 2010

長恨

長恨歌

白居易



September 14, 2010

i feel, my heart shattered

It has been a while that I just tried to maintain my control under only knowingly call "The Song" even though I know the phone won't get through and do nothing more(well, maybe 1 or 2 texts).  I am sure people can live their lifes in certain degrees of blindness, that's one of the methods to adjust. I drink and I try to make friends, but none of those worked perfectly well. Once I lost my heart to someone, well, I still don't know how to get it back or if there is any chance to. I haven't felt anything real, for a long time, I felt empty and lost like I don't have a heart. Yes, I do not have a heart, I gave it away, so now all I have is this board called WRETCH so I can write these void feelings down. I never really read anything I wrote, just as no one in the world read anythign I wrote.

Though feelings being vacant since my heart is empty, I do still feel, it's just that the system isn't a whole. First of all, I have to admit that, well, once again, all me to blame. I know and I know well what would happen if I search for the memories and the pain, I know there will not be any good news, and instead, any news is bad. It is not like you know you turn on the TV, watch the news channel, and you know you will see bad news, because those bad news did not happen on you; it is that what I may hear isn't necessary bad news, but they all become simply bad news to me. And, I know this! Well, well, well, if it isn't that silly Lucas, who can't give himself a chance to move on, and simply think that since he's been faithful, he'd one day be granted with a miracle. No matter what I believe or how much I try to be all optimistic, I know right now, i'm feeling really really bad. After seeing those pictures of friends on their trip, shit, even though I don't feel like i miss out too much since .........the situation wasn't the worst, i still miss out a lot, cuz i know if we never separated, very likely we'll both in that trip.  Honestly i wasn't thinking too much about the fact that the absence could indicate some other shit, (Dear God, I'm sorry but i can't hold it any more. please allow me to use shit here, and please, who's gonna know?) but now that I'd done what I shouldn't, to me, the information is just killing me. I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN. So much pain as if my life is consist of hollow mind and suffering, pain and memories that i can't hide away from.(i can, but come to think about the value, i guess i choose to walk on this path)


September 14, 2010

guts or sense

this weekend, things got emotional in a bad way, knowingly not to study just because i was not in the mood.
where do i find that motivation again? 大福....this name almost killed me this afternoon, when blame turns to shame.
let me get some whisky and then come back to this.


September 4, 2010

my first article with apple

here is the fun fact, i'm 2 meters away from the screen, but i can still see the words fine.
thanks to Jerry, well, i'm sorry, my brother, i didn't mean to keep you up, i was trying to show you a fun youtube clip.
anyhow, it's nothing to feel cool about, not if comparing with someone who works at one of the top taiwanese companies, makes tons of money, and prob has nice apartments, but using a 52 inches flat screen as the monitor is definitely some luxury stuff.


August 27, 2010

JS: I'm gone

I'm gone, a great song by Jay Sean,
the following is the lyrics i try to type out while i was listening to it.


August 26, 2010

3人同學會, 和令人佩服的學姐

long stories short:

actions are the only sounds, anything else would only be nothing and meaningless


August 22, 2010

兄弟情

brotherhood.
i saw my grand uncle cry on the day grandpa passed on, but i didn't know just how close they actually were....


August 22, 2010

我知道

我知道~~!!!:

我愛的是誰, 是什麼


August 22, 2010

it's been a while, Jim Beam will be my start

Jim Beam!
good old James, one of the cheapest burbon we can find in the neighborhood of the courthouse Keelung.  But, only, just only, about 9 months ago, i would say i dislike the taste of any kind of whiskey because i lived a great life, life was so great i could never need drink to be happy; great as i was provided plenty of day to day food and shelter and things, you all know what i mean; great as i never felt in love before and no failed relationship could really hurt me, great as i met this wonderful girl (i'm thinking about a great deal of nickname to address her, i'll just name her "THE SONG")


April 18, 2009

媽媽最厲害

出於什麼保護還是奇奇怪怪的責任感

加上一點.....又一點的心事,


April 9, 2009

啾~

說到我家那水水水水

水某


February 21, 2009

可不可以不要上班

不可以!



February 20, 2009

好難過

我好難過

或許是我的錯, 為什麼我難過, 妳為什麼不關心我, 因為我不值得妳擔心嗎


January 28, 2009

精誠所至

久久不敢在網誌上動一筆, 大致因為我還不懂祂所安排的趨向吧

怕多餘的感覺和陳述, 變成了累贅



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