ritcTze

third day of our study week..
really study..?.. or... day dreaming..?..
...i dunno...

我就快变傻子了。这一个星期除了书，还是书。
现在看到书都会觉得想吐...
FINAL EXAM这个沉重负担。快压得我喘不过气来了...
我真的怀疑这里的读书生活真的是我要的。我真的很难放松下来。
千试万试，最后还是走不出这个没有答案的圈圈...
一直在里面打转。不停的转。没有止境的转... 没有方向的转。
也不知道为什么，今天的心情依然沉重不堪。

这个世界的公平去了哪里...？
有一部戏里说道“现在的社会要得到公平是要花很多钱的”
不用说的太明，应该已经知道现今社会的道德伦理程度只到哪里..
明明是考同样的试卷，为何却有不同的批改准则。
但总结的分数又照原先的范围拟定。“公平”是什么..

living in a compatitive environment is already very tough to me.
can u still struggle in such an "unfair" condition..
i really not satisfied with that. what for to suffer so much to score high marks in test ..?!!
WHAT FOR..??!!! it just rubbish..
although u score 50/60 for the test, ur marks is just like the other people who score 20++ in others courses (upon 31-total marks). can you see what is the differences?? HUGE different between these two scores.
so WHAT　FOR i have to score that much for that and happy with the stupid marks?...
STUPID.... the only thing i can say.

NO MORE FAIRNESS, NO MORE PEACE, NO MORE FUTURE...



很怕又一天我会变得　－厌世－
不再爱这个世界，再也不在乎这世界。
不再理会这世界会变得怎样。就让它继续堕落，继续消沉。
最后．．．沉没。再也没有人知道，地球的存在。

well well well... here comes to an end of our lectures for SEM 1.
n today is the busiest friday that i ever had in UTP..
moral test which is held in "last minute" - last day of the lecture...?..?..
what the hell man.. frecking physics quiz also..
eveything done by last minute. mana tak mati ..!..?.. &^%*#%$

the damn lame moral test, 99.99% of similarity compared to last SEM's paper.
what the hell man... !..!.. how can like that..?
i read till almost i "cabut" all my hair..
it is soooooo boring n totally full with words, words n WORDS...
omg.... killing me.. but in the end, those who read past year paper "untung banyak" la..
got "hao liao" oso din share wan.. this call FRENZ la~
ok la.. hehe.. no la..
just a test, i ady did my best for it. hope the results wont disappoint me la :p
today our physics lecturer damn funny la..
i had our quiz today, the OMR sheets were being distributed among the students.
the comers, cant find a piece a OMR sheet so then they asked for it from our lovely lecturer.
he was holding the microphone down there and said "please get ur "shit" (sheet) there.."
haha.. everyone was laughing at the terms that he mentioned, but he actually dunno wat is going on up here.
before our class ended, he put some past year exam questions in the pc for us as revision.
by the time, he suddenly made a joke "this copy is not free, u know. u cant get it for free, i cost 5 doller for each copy ya."
everyone in the cls was laughing like hell. he seldom makes jokes like that.
haha.. our funny lecture. by the way, e.math lecturer is also a funny guy, i mean funny in the way he act during the cls was on, with cute actions somemore.
funny la....!...!... we will be missing them (lecturers). they all are so nice..

end of our lecture week, means that study week is following behind as well as final exam.
final just around the corner.. nervous la..
haiz.. ape boleh buat..?.. STUDY la..!!!..!!
just do my best to study and do well in final la.. o else i will be very sorry to myself.
wish all of us gdluck n all the bestin FINALS ya..
work hard together, buddyssss...
after the exam we will have our lovely time in p.pangkor~

not moody these few days,
so... -[ cheer up ^o^ n stay happy]-

wow wow wow.. a friday again.
tats means here comes the weekend.
but sooner or later, final exam is coming.
some said it is a gd news. bcz sem 1 is here to an end.
but time flys as fast as u cant sence it.
but anyway,我们不能控制时间，但能把握时间。
tis is the important thing. :-)

just done our test 2 for physics..
chiew~ suffer when doing preparation =.=
everyone was study like gila gila.
totally stress up @&%$^#* haha
but finally, we done it.
although the questions were not as difficult in those in our "thicky-wicky" text book
but i forgot the equation for one of the question. wat the hell man..
i was just mentioning to my "lovely" roommate about the equation 1 hour before the test.
wat the hell that i can forget about it..??! =.= damn angry with that :-<
by the way, this test is still ok for me, perhaps. (if there is no more careless mistakes la. hehe)
frenz, someone was satisfied with their work themselves. (like yuhan :P ) no more "emoing" just like wat he did before the test. haha
only can see this kind of behavior on him during :-
1) can solve physics questions
2) did mistakes during tests
3) bla bla bla.... (maybe thr are a lot that i dunno ..?..? ) :p

but seems today he was smilling after came out from main hall.
i'm sure that he will score for this test. not FULL marks oso 28 or 29/30 wan la~
apa mau pikir lagi, tengok itu muka sudah tahu.. hehe

anyway, today's mood not like previous days - that emo and down (especialy ystday)
something that was so unhappy just happened among me n baby..
both of us are busying with tests, exams, tiredness, pressures.
lack of time accompany each other, maybe..
体谅与包容对恋人来说非常之重要。不能缺少的还有信任..
少了其中一样都会影响之间的感情.. 可怕。
但还好我们之间不缺这些..所以往往很快就没事了。 :-)
谢谢你.. 宝贝。

here ends a day....
-*[ cheers and sty happy ]*-

很久没用华文写部落了.. 莫非是心情不好？？
多半是吧.. 不然怎么会是个 EMO guy..?..??
不知道为什么。自从上完e. math 之后，整个人的心情突然大改变。
就像物理方程式一样 " superposition - crest + crest = constructive inteference "
整个人变得不正常，厌这个厌那个的.. 脑里的思绪也都被完全打乱了。
失去了自我的中心，这样很容易让人失去平衡而倒下。
可能因为感觉到无名的压力，再过三个星期，FINAL EXAM 及将来临。
有开心也有不安，开心是因为第一学期将来到尾声。而不安是担心应付不来考试...
一学期里要读得课程是在太多了。怕三个星期的时间不能做充分的准备。

今天又有TEST-lab test..
那么衰.. 拿到的考题尽然是没做过的那个实验。
really screw bah... what the @!#$%& =.=
two more tests coming this week.
thinking skills and physics..
dont have confident at all.. keep forgeting what i had read. lol
really scared that cant answer well during the test..

life in Foundation year are sooooo tiring...
full of tests, quizes, assignments... no ends no ends..... just like propagation of waves =.=
now nearly fobia with the word "test"
sounds scary~ probably make us suffer just like living in hell..
Ends the day by studying is normal for us in UTP..

sure that this type of life belongs to me - Ritchie..??
after i came here for studies, i felt that the "real" Ritchie is already gone..
I'm now no longer the "Ritchie" last time.. i think..
i mean changing in lifestyle but not personalities.
i'm still care a lot about my family, my baby...
stress which comes along with studies makes me keep missing home.
from now on, still have almost one month before SEM break - when i can go back to JB.
hope that everything will be fine here and time pass as a "sonicjet" - fast just like the speed of light (3.00 x 10^8 m/s)
people get older as time pass by. so am i..
5 years in UTP.. izit "fast" or "slow" ?..?
who knows.. depends on how you think about it, isn't it..??

人的一生就像是个圆圈.. 无止境的圆圈。
没有人可以准确分辨，哪里是起点，而哪里... 又是人生的终点..
既然人生是在绕着圈圈打转，不停不停的打转..
那请问.. 人生的“意义”是什么？（正确解释）
人生之所谓会有“意义” - 是因为在你的人生里所发生的事和你遇见的人而让你的人生有了“意义”
应该是这样把.. 不然会是什么呢？..

今天的情绪，难以形容。
没有勇气说 "cheer up and stay happy" ...
+[ moody guy of the day - ritcTze ]+

Today can say as a day which is very important to the leaders (going to be) in our campus.
it is the election day to vote for the undergrad students as our future representative in MPPUTP.
all students in UTP are encouraged to vote for them.

omg.. now i know why people say that University is just lik a small society.
they make tis election such big event.
before the week of election, the candidates were promoting themselves as a leader and even posters are hang highly around the campus.
you can see those posters everywhere and even the door of our dorm's toilet. swt. haha ^o^
other than that, they came into our the LH (lecture hall) as to promote before our lecture started. really 'rajin' seh..
i din aspect that this kind of activity can happen in campus. really FUN man.. haha
''now i believe that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE'' haha
actually i heard this before from my mum while she was telling her uni life lst time.
so.. now i can experienced it personally. FUN FUN FUN for no ends in uni life.
great!! now is the time for us to enjoy our life especially studying in uni.
lots of interesting activities that surprise everyone.

here comes the day of election. while my 'gang' of frenz were discussing whether wana go for voting.
eveyone seems like not so interested in, well, i'm the one of them oso. haha :p
but we try to make it if we hav extra time for it after lectures.
coincidently, a senior was waiting us just outside of the LH after our cls.
he was asking that whether we hav voted and he was willing to send us back to the cafe for voting.
- good service - !! haha
after a short and sharp discussion, we decided to take part. (mayb just because of transport)
haha.. hey.. shhhh... dun tell anyone about that k..
or else we will be "screw up" :p

when we reached there, we were asked to show our matrix card for registration and we were given two pieces of paper to vote for the representatives.
my roommate was being scolded by the person in charged there because he was talking to others while he was voting. haha. funny.

this is the day that i found interesting in campus today.
xixix... ^-^
-[ cheer up & enjoy lifes ]-

i had active another blog which is ritctze.blogspot.com
hope u all enjoy it..

cheer up. :-)

Wat a day.. half a month din update my blog.. nag by my frenz again. :p haha
(jz joking)
Jz finish our e.math test. Dunno how 2 say la.. haiz..
Everyone is complaining “it is so hard”..
Man.. even people who are better than me say like that..
.. then wat my result is going to be..?
More worse than last test.. NO pls..
This probably make me down and lost all of my confidents..
But the only comment that I can give is I ady did my best for tis test..
I did study.. I did practice.. I did stress myself jz for tis test..
Hope that the result in the end wont make me disappointed.
This two months will be tired and busy, sure..
So many tests pressuring us.. omg..
e.math jz pass, chemistry is the one which is coming on next wed.
no time to rest..
one n a half month to go when I can go back to my sweet home again..
I damn homesick wey.. counting the date daily.. haha
Sem break is the time can let me totally rest and relax..

Yesterday (17th October ), a special lecture was given by our ex. Prime minister as well as the Chancellor of UTP – Tun. Dr. Mahathir
He is really a strong man and very well in English speaking. During the past time, I only can see his handsome face in the TV. Fortunately, I can see the real person jz in my campus!
The talk was held in our Chancellor hall, the hall is extremely big and full filled by people before the talk began. Some visitors were here also to listen to His lecture.
A lots of extra knowledge gained by the people by listening to the talk. During Q & A session, long queues in front of the microphones waiting to ask questions and responses from Tun. M
The most interesting response that he gave is the topic about politics of Malaysia which made the floor claps glamorously.. haha (I think u noe wat topic that I’m talking about : p )
It is a very good opportunity to listen to famous person’s talk man..
I’m so proud that I’m here as a UTP student. ^-^
Tun’s Mercedes S350 which cost “1 Million” damn nice la.. black in color somemore..
Haha.. I had the pleasure to take photo with his car oso satisfied ady la.. hehe : p
*A memorable day in UTP…


2moro is 18th of October , another month for our relationship (me and my lovely baby)
But these few days I was so busy studying and doing drama stuff which make me nearly cant sense that 18th is around the corner. I’m so so so sory with that. I din mean to do that.. really..
But I feel happy that our relationship still going on and on..
I miss u, baby.. although I’m busying with my studies here, but I din forget anything which related to you include this special day.. pls forgive my careless..?
Miss you always….

moral test supposed to be on today- 1.00pm
vanue: test room
- after that everyone should move to LH3 for lecture (moral debate)
who knows.. the *%&$@! lecturer cancel it secara TIBA-TIBA ??!!
wtf, man !!
the worse thing is he is going to replace it on next FRIDAY..??!!
what the hell man...! i'm going back on thursday u noe..
everything is planned well, suddenly this damn test spoilt my plan!!
make me angry and dunno wat to do at that particular moment.
if that so, i nd to buy another bus ticket.
now maybe there have no tickets for raya anymore, den how can i go back??
wan me to stay in UTP during raya??
impossible man.. NO WAY!! haha
i'll be dieing here for that holiday.

siew~ here comes the latest news for the test
that is - it will be replaced on next WED ..!!!
yeahoo~!!!!!
cakap la awal sikit.... buat saya takut wey.. :p
really nervous when i get to know that the test is going to be on next friday.
tat means i hav to spend extra for the ticket.
heart pain pain if hav to spend that money..
50bugs wey.. jz fly away lik tat..
dah la 500 tak cukup untuk satu bulan !? hahaha
but i thank to God a lot because din make me suffer in difficulties for me to go bac home. :-)
hope that everything will be smooth and steady~ til the day i go bac to jb..

edmund they all said wanna bring along their books bac to their hometown..??
... come on man~ relax la..
suffer for 2 months ady, jz let us take a short break la..
"resting is for the longer journey" mar..
haha.. no la.. actualy we should relax, but at the same time we cant TOO relax til not study at all mar..
later com bac all forget den "si" lo~ haha
i'm sure will oso bring along some books bac la. jz flip thru if, IF got time lo.. xixi
anyway, hope all of us have a very nice holiday ya..
cheer up, guyz!! gd luck..

going to "yao yao" tonite!! cant wait for it.. haha (jz lik wan lin- the playful wan):p
clubbing for the whole nite long~
it most probably will be a enjoyable night...
Rum Jungle.. here i come~!! :p blerkkkk..

还有两个星期.. midsem-break就要到了。
终于... 终于可以回家了。
在这里有两个月多了，可以说每天都很想家。
everyone is going back during Raya time.
bus tickets are so "laku" when festive season is around the corner.
naik harga somemore!! wat the hell...
anyway i get to buy a ticket back to jb.hehe! :p
but i found out something after i purchase the ticket.
i bought it with the wrong date when i still have cls on that day.
oh man.. make me suffer for a few days wey..
really worried that thinking skills test will be held on that day oso..
really swt... =.="
everyday was worrying bot that until my frenz cant stand me(maybe). haha
sory ya, my frenz..

luckily.. our test will be having on the day BEFORE i go back to jb.
yeahoo!! thank god, man..
\or else i really wil die like hell~

that day wanlin was asking me "why ur blog oni hav sad things rather than happy events.
u noe what i answered?? hehe
i told her that i oni can express myself for those unhappiness through blogging than talk to others.
actualy i cant express myself well. dunno why..
but i feel like to talk to someone when i'm in a bad mood. 矛盾。haha
never mind la.. i can write in my blog mar.. so people can noe wat i'm thinking when they looking to my blog lor~

these few days i was like a clown to michelle they all. aiyo..
they keep laughing when i was talking or doing actions.
really so funny, meh??
tell me la.. why? why? WHY?? hehe!
no la.. maybe mid-sem break is coming, so feel"lega" xixi..
i can meet my old frenz, my family, and of course my baby~
long time din see her ady.. dunno she becomes "rounder" or thinner.. haiz.
she is taking trial exam for her SPM these few weeks.
quite a tough month for her i think..
because of "STRESS" , students maybe will become very down.
i m one of the people.. sad..

13th sept i went to PC Fair..
the first time i visit PC fair in the other states.
i found nothing differents between the PC　fair here and the one in jb.
oni the fair here is smaller compared to jb's.
i plan to buy a camera for myself. so i went to ask for the price.
RM 1000++ man~!! frecking expensive!!
when can i save this amount of money to buy that stuff?? :-(
somemore my monthly expenses in an average of 4-500 wey..
although the money sponsered by PETRONAS is "ngam ngam" for our daily expenses.
but for me such people who eat a lot of rubbish stuff, haha, 500 for 1 month is....not enough ye..
haha.. still complaining?? har??!! get sponsership is ady good enough for u la! aiyo..

tis weekend we plan to go "yaoyao" thats what michelle they say which means "clubbing"
i never went to night clubs in ipoh ye..
feel curious woth it.. haha
charm lo.... expenses for this month probably will over budget AGAIN..!!
but never mind.. once in a while mar..
jz ENJOY~ :-)
happy hour, guys!

上星期考试的成绩分回来了，我知道自己不会有很好的成绩。
但是.... 我没有想到会是这样让我失望和伤心的成绩。
我一只以来都很喜欢的科目 - 了解我的人会知道它是那一科。
为什么我会有这样不理想的成绩。难道我没有努力吗..
为什么会是这样的成绩。为什么每个人都可和考得很好，而我.. 却会拿到这样的成绩。
真的很失望..
... 心情完全沉下来，对什么事到没有感觉。
就连讲师在讲课，我一点都听不进去。
脑海里，浮现的都是那不理想的成绩。
有人可以拿满分，不然就三十多。而我...三十都不如。
.. 为什么...?
真的觉得自己很没用..

直到现在，我还在怀疑自己是不是真的属于这个地方...
属于国油大学...?
为什么我总是在别人后面，总是比别人慢，比别人差。
我到底算什么..? 为什么来到这里，只让我觉得压力不断在增加，越来越喘不过气。
感觉... 就像快要自息一样。
考试，测验，就像没有停止的流水一样。
让我的每一天过得好累。
只想能快点回家.. 家里真的才能让我觉得温暖。
一个真正能让我好好休息的地方，没有压力，没有烦恼的地方..
每当自己遇到挫折的时候都特别想家..
写到这里，眼泪.. 又偷偷的流下来了。

.. 我真的快受不了了...
觉得好辛苦，好难受..

.. [痛苦] ..

今天是星期六.. 心情很糟糕。
一整天的心情就像是阴天。沉沉，闷闷的..
一早起来整个人就很朦胧，一直在不清醒。
最糟的是，宿舍的厕所-没有水。=.=
天啊.. 没有水怎么活?

今天对我来说不是读书天。不知道为什么，没有心情读书。
只能把assignment做好，就停了...
我今天是不是个不乖的孩子。
这里的生活让我过得压力.. 竞争的环境，有时让人喘不过气。
让人过得.. 很累..
五年的时间是漫长的。虽然这里的生活很不一样，但是我相信我以后肯定不会后悔在这里念书。

没有心情的我决定上网看看有没有人可以聊天。
很遗憾... 没有..
只好就写部落。
每次上来看自己的部落，
..都很失望..
感觉上我的部落没人上来看。
maybe my blog is not interesting, boring.
so nobody will come up here, nobody will leave comment in my blog.
feel sad. feel wana close it.
but.. i cant throw out my feelings (either good or bad) if i do so.
never mind..
maybe i can just write myself and read myself.

... nitez..

Merdeka!!!! Merdeka!!! Merdeka!!!!
Happy birthday, Malaysia.
today of course is a public holiday..
Basicly, everyone should be not working.
include the owner of our village's cafe.
what the hack!
if it is not open, obviously we have nothing to eat here.
forced to go for a long distance for our meal.
man, more than 5 cafes in our campus. bt only not more than 2 cafes are operatinf today.
how to deal with our lunch and dinner today..???
today is the most unhealthy day for me.
breakfast = bread
lunch = bread
dinner = most probably bread also.
i'm going to be "面包超人" lar if this keep going on.

haha.. glad tat wai chun tapau for me.
if not i'll be eating bread AGAIN..!! Ahh~~
what public holiday is this.
dont even have time for me to rest.
all the test next week are driving me crazy.
Andy was studying with me these two days.
he very "BIAH" !! (hardworking)
make me feel so pressure, man..
relax la... haha

what a day.. time passed like water flowing
not enough for me to study well. lol
hope that 1 day should have 48 hrs. haha
one more holiday to go. den start agian the normal uni life.
pressure + tension + stress = EXPLODE !!
although Uni life is quite tiring, but it definately will be very meaningful.


*[ yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift, that's why is called a present ]*
stay happy and enjoy ur life everyday. ^^

from now on, three days of holiday begins..
everyone is packing their belongings and going back to their sweet home.
but y me, still staying here...?
actualy i planned to go back to johor today.
but last week i was informed that it will have a few tests next week, somemore with poster presentation, drama presentation.
what the... i would make me busy like HELL man..
ia this uni life actualy lik??
seniors told us that foundation is very easy...!!
who says...???!!
timetable for lectures, lab, tuitorial are packed like... (dunno hw to say)
haiz.. everyday tired until u can die. wat the hack.
especially tuesday.. 8am to 5pm..!!?
non-stop.. can u imagine.. tiring..

i really really miss my family, my frenz, my home..
derrick is going to continue his studies in Russia.
actualy i can meet him before he transfer there.
but seems i cant make it to go back jb.
maybe i have to wait for another YEAR for meeting him.
he is one of my BEST FREN oso. feel sad because cant meet him.
hope he will be fine after he reach there.
gdluck n all the best just for him.

i only can go back to jb during hari raya.
still have less than 1 month to go. should be happy?
i dun think so.. bcz next week having test. nervous..
everyone here are well performers.
feel presurise indirectly..
anyway, i will try my best to do it well.
thank god that our poster presentation had been postponed to second week of sept.
so we not have to rush for so many things. hahaz :-)

recently, i "fall in love" with Rubix's cube.
haha. starteed to play since this wednesday.
but i managed to solve it in two days after i begin to learn. haha.. brilliant?? :p
found out that it is a very interesting game n testing your intelligent.

haiz... three days of holiday.. how to kill the time??
only study lo can make the time pass faster.
hope i can do well in my test. gdluck!!


didnt go back jb for a long time ady..
definately miss my baby a lot..
i know she does so, rite? Baby~
felt sorry to her bcz i was so busy recently..
cant keep her in company well.
so sorry about that.
but i promise will spend more time with u when i'm in jb, baby..
miss u, miss dad n mum, riddick n rick(two little bros)
keep it up in ur coming PMR, riddick! u can do it..
MISS U ALL SO MUCH.... MUACKS~

今天... 喝了点酒。
人又很累，心中的不满早已收不住了。
把心中的不满都说出来，比较舒服。
尊重是什么...？
respect... u will be respected by the others when u respect them.
actuallt, not nesessary.
many kinds of people in this world.
i seen a differents of people oso.
my principle is "i'll respect u, if u show me your respect too. if not, i will pay u back double."
sounds evil, rite..
but i already cant stand with this dimoralise society.
so, i choose to be another person..

nothing to comment about tis. jz let it be..

2008年8月20日 - 20/08/2008 （20082008）
今天对大家来说都很特别吧.. 这样漂亮的日期一生中能遇见几次呢？
有的人可能遇见了，但也有人一生中都无缘遇见。
现在的我们都算是幸运的噢..
但是，最幸运的还是我们的寿星公 - 国宏 ^o^
Bro, i'm here sincerely to wish u a very happy birthday.
hope ur life will be smooth and blesses around u.
宏是个很值得交的朋友，he is always ready to share n care of others.
当我emo的时候，他会送出暖暖的慰问。
不管我想去哪里他都会说“一起啦一起啦”
今天是他的生日，我们今晚都会为他庆祝。希望他会有个难忘的生日，虽然只是简单的庆祝。
但毕竟这是他在大学生涯里第一次庆生吧。感觉应该会不一样..
他今年才十七岁，是我们的弟弟。跟我们的Dr.Derrick一样。
但是他却有像我们一般的思想。成熟...
希望我们会一直是很好很好的朋友。这五年里我们依然要互相扶持，互相鼓励。
毕竟我们都还有很长的路要走.. 希望我们会在五年后光荣的戴着四方帽。
那这里的一切都会变成我们这群朋友的最美好的回忆。
友谊万岁~！

今天收到了瑞妈咪寄来的信。
有三面这么长，收到的时候心里暖暖的。
谢谢“妈咪”那么辛苦的把信从JB。寄过来。
真地感激.. 谢谢“妈咪”那么关心和鼓励。
在我觉得压抑的时候献上了最真诚的关怀。
我珍惜，因为很少有人这样对我。
心里无限的感激真的不知道该怎么表达。那就让我好好收在心里吧...
+[ 往往别人对你的伤害，是无心的； 但别人对你的关心，是真心的 ]+
就像朋友，家人，宝贝，“妈咪”对我的关心，都是真心付出的。
我会尽力克服自己的障碍，给自己一点时间去接受。然后慢慢适应这里的生活。
别人对我有信心，自己更不能对自己没信心。
我不会让关心我的人失望，更不会让自己失望。
因为对自己会有一定的要求，但有时也会变成自己的压力。
不管怎样，希望自己能好好的在这里完成学业。
未来只掌握在自己手中，就看你自己怎么去掌舵。
加油！！

*宝贝盈看到了这篇文章，记得里面的活。
因为有些是哒哒想鼓励你的话。祝考试顺利哦。
爱你...

对我来说很有意义的东西，不见了。
“它” - 代表宝贝的一支笔。
当我发现它不见的时候，心里好乱。好紧张..
可能对别人来说只是一支普通又平凡的笔，这是因为他们不知道背后的意义。
它在我考SMP之前就一直陪伴着我。很多的考试都没有少了它。
可是现在，它不见了..
发现它不见的那一刻，觉得好心痛。感觉真的像是失去了对自己很重要的东西。
虽然她没有怪我，可是我却对自己很失望。
为什么连一支笔都会弄丢。

失落感很大...
在这里变得很想家，有时眼眶还会热热湿湿的。
HomeSICK seriously.. haiz..
cant go back home tis short holiday somemore make me really sad n miss my family as well as my baby girl..
tat feeling is so torchering.. :-(
hope i can pass my time quickly n oso course wisely.
uni life in UTP is nt simple.
actuay i feel stress during these few weeks.
mayb didnt close to books for a long time, so i feel myself can follow up.
tat make me frustrated man....
bt i'll try my best 2 make myself used to tis new environment bcz i hav 2 survive here for 5 yrs time.
such a long way 2 go actually.

yesterday i was so touched with ruirui's mummy.
she wrote a letter for me but i stil havent recieve it yet.
n she encourage me a lot, gave me advices as well as moral support.
i appriciate it a lot.. thanks
收到这样的信息又再次让我眼眶湿了。
因为想家，因为觉得孤单，也因为在沮丧的时候收到了温暖的慰问。
让整颗心都软化了。
她就像是我第二个妈妈... :-)
感恩。。

好久没上来写部落格了。很多朋友都吵我，说“你好去update一下你的blog了咯~”haha
说真的是很~就没写了。还好我没有忠实读者，不然一定被骂个臭头。
很快的，七月快过了。没有写部落格的这段日子，身边都发生了很多的事。
最值得一提的最新消息，应该是我在大学里的生活了。
国油大学（UTP) 是间环境很好很棒的学府。我超爱这里的...
还记得报到那天，心情是沉重的。虽然前一天上云顶玩了一天，但是总是玩得不起劲。
可能心情影响吧... 万分的不舍得，不舍得离开温暖的家，不舍得我最不放心的宝贝。
离开的前一天，她陪了我整天... 不舍得眼泪从她的眼眶流了下来。当时的我，只有心疼...
我只能紧紧地抱着她。
离别时伤痛的..但一次的离别是为了下一次的相聚。要记得..

在这里的生活开始让我慢慢适应了。进入第二个星期，是累的咯....
比起第一个星期的轻松，简直是天渊之别。wat the....
在这里认识了不少朋友，但是我还是比较想念中学时期的那班好朋友。
不管发生什么事，他们总是会陪在我身边，帮我解决。
总是那么讲义气。
但是这里的朋友没能让我感觉到这些。有时还会为了这样而有点点的不开心。
可能我还不是很了解他们吧.. 可能需要时间去接受他们的交友方式。
相信时间证明一切...

这个星期是超累的.. 很久没那么累了。
好多的project assignments 要做。
有时还忙得没时间吃，没时间休息。
虽然累，但是很充实。

有人说..巧克力能使一个人的心情愉快。
你觉得呢..？

巧克力分为很多种，
有的是甜的..
有的却是苦的..
有的是白色的..
而有的，却是黑褐色的..
你..喜欢哪一种呢..

吃巧克力真的能让一个人不快乐，
变成开心的吗..
或许对有些人来说，这个方法是有效的。
但对于我却好像起不了什么作用。

这几天的情绪好像不怎么稳定。
好像有些什么事烦恼着..
感叹的是，那种说不上来的感觉..
该怎么宣泄呢......



人总是不知道下一秒会发生什么事情..
所以生命中充满了“未知”...
更不知道自己的生命几是会结束。
一直想实现的愿望，能在有生之年去实践吗..
人生是否会留下遗憾，
就要靠自己如何去把握了..

现在的日子里，
一意孤行，
将会让你的生活过得很寂寞，很痛苦的..
所以.. 多陪陪身边爱你的人，和你爱的人..
因为孤单的感觉是 -空虚- 的..
关心与关怀不能只放在心里..
当他人收到你的关怀与关心时，
- 温暖 - 将会围绕在他身边。
而其中一种幸福， 就是这样来的..
不要让他人觉得被冷落了，因为这样将使彼此的感情渐渐疏远。
多问候，多说关心的话语..
这将会使彼此更挂念对方... 更爱护对方..
祝大家， -= 幸福 @ 快乐 =-

今天是宝贝家族里的猪猪盛生日噢～　盛，生日快乐哦．．
ｈａｐｐｙ　ｂｉｒｔｈｄａｙ　ｔｏ　ｕ．
ｈａｐｐｙ　ｂｉｒｔｈｄａｙ　ｔｏ　ｕ．
ｈａｐｐｙ　ｂｉｒｔｈｄａｙ　ｔｏ　ｕ．
ｈａｐｐｙ　ｂｉｒｔｈｄａｙ　ｔｏ～　ｕ～．　呵呵。

今天是十五号，但是我和她今天出去约会了。十八号那天，她没空。所以今天就算是提早庆祝我们的“一个月”吧。
今天玩得很开心．也一起制造了不少回忆。好久没跟小宝贝出去玩了，今天总算玩“够本”。哈哈
到过玩具城走走，她最喜欢逛玩具店了。宝贝逛玩具店的时候显得很天真，很可爱。^o^
还去了书局看书..以前很多回忆都是在书局里找到的。所以书局是我们必定会去的地方。
欣介绍了间蛮好吃的小吃店，东西是不错啦.. 只是小分了点。呵呵.. 我这种大食量的人，吃不饱。哈哈
宝贝还要我带她去买巧克力，巧克力店的老板娘竟然还认得我。呵呵..还问起宝贝是不是自己的女朋友..嘻 :p
在一起一个月了，今天特别送了份小礼物给宝贝。我带她去拍照，留下美好的回忆.. 嘻嘻
宝贝突然想吃蛋糕，她很少跟我提出要求的。这次特别，就带她去吃好料。
“秘密食谱”的巧克力蛋糕。好大片哦..她真是个幸福小公主哦~~ 呵呵。惨了..不知道会不会把她宠坏。:p
只要她乖乖听话，开心，快乐.. 我也会很开心的。
晚上当然也一起去帮猪盛庆生啦..
但是这顿晚餐吃得有点压力.. 可能是我想太多啦。还作了些让宝贝心痛的事.. sry,宝贝..

总之今天的心情就像"flying over the moon" 一样开心。更是感动。让她有一个那么快乐的纪念日，希望她会过得开心。
我一直都还没跟她说那重要的三个字，是由原因的..
我们会有自己想走的路.. 加油~
# 宝贝*盈 + 哒哒*致 # 会是'幸福'的...

今天的考试还算不错吧..没有想象中那么糟。:)
明天又是假期，所以今天显得比较轻松。
放学后回家冲了凉就出门了。和三五个朋友去吃午餐，今天由天森大哥开车！
哈哈。还是第一次坐他的车，感觉还不错。他的技术不算差哦! :)
可是车在半路break down.. 因为森他老爸的嘟嘟车有老毛病。结果还要Bong n Satiz 下去推车。
哈哈。:p
今天真是疯狂，吃了午餐我们还去喝茶。实在是饱哦~ 还我晚餐都吃不下了..呵呵
趁明天是假期，今天就放自己一天假。不温书了！耶~ 呵呵..其实是很累所以不想读的。哈哈

昨天发生了件不小的事.. 吓到我了.. 我的宝贝她哭了.. 哭得好伤心。看了又是担心，又是心痛。
她每次都让别人，然后委屈自己。她的朋友应该不知道她的难处吧.. 每次看她为了朋友那么不开心。真是心痛。也不知道该说什么，毕竟是她的朋友。
我也不方便多说。所以我只会安慰她，开导她。让她不那么难过..
听说她朋友对我有不满吧..我就知道会有这样的事情。不想理会..也不想去解释。她们想说什么，就说吧..
我也不是第一次被讲了... 我感觉到，自己的权利，自己的自由被限制了.. 我不喜欢的事也发生。我有自己对待女朋友的方式，我不想连这些私人的事也被别人影响。
这样受外界影响与压力的感情是不快乐的。我只想我与她能过轻松，自在的生活，而且是两个人想要的那份快乐和幸福..
除了无奈，没话说了..
(宝贝看到这些，不准说“对不起”..我只是说出心里的感受。不要怪自己..因为我没有怪你）
唉~ 不想说了.. 唯一希望的就是我的宝贝能和她那么重视的朋友们相处得很愉快.. 宝贝，加油。