June 9, 2012

Final exam is around the corner

Sometimes, especially on the Friday's afternoon, I would feel vacant. After bombarding by countless homework for whole week, I suddenly find nothing to do. No one is In my dorm, no class is arranged in Friday's afternoon. Now I am free and finally I can enjoy the weekend without bother by those annoyance. However, it' an irony that when I was busy to death, I longed for the free time that I can do everything I want, but now I am totally free, I tried to find something to do. It seems that I can’t get used to this kind of tranquility. I tried to seek something to do so that I wouldn’t hang around, however I just can’t calm myself down, I strongly feel that my emotion is in a mess, and I can’t concentrate. I really hate this kind of feeling. The final exam is around the corner, I feel tired out. On one hand, i have to prepare for the FLLC which is coming soon in the beginning of the July; on the other hand, I have four exams next week and I still have no time to prepare them well. Finally the preparation for the FLLC is mostly done, now I only have to face the terrifying final exam. But I am a bit of lazy this week, I am lack of energy to study, frankly speaking, I am weary of it. I don’ want to face the morphology, phonology, syntax and so on in linguistic and I do have no ideas for the significance of the western literature. How can I do? Can I just put these aside? No! I hear my voice, it my responsibility of being a student.


June 9, 2012

something I learned from FLLC

After informed by the senior that I am qualified to be a group leader in FLLC, I set up my mind to face the following sequence of leader training. The training is a tough procedure as I have imagined, and I can’t tell that if I am lucky or not because I am arranged to the opening dance which I am not good at. I always said that I am a total dance-disability, my limbs are lack of coordination, and I can’t move my body at the right temple, or I can’t even find the temple. So, when I knew this “bad” news, I was so sacred that I asked the senior if they were sure that they choose the“ proper” one, but the senior calmed me down and said they choose who is potential instead of who is already good at it to dance. So, I had no choice but to accept their arrangement, the only thing I can do is to practice! Practice! To my gratifier, my partners are very kind and patient to help me, they are willing to spare time to teach me and practice with me, and when I was diffident they always cheer me up warmly. I am a learning-disability in this field so that I felt quiet stressful when I was asked to dance in front of the seniors, but my partners’ encouragements make me brave and stick to the proverbs that” practice makes perfect.” Furthermore, something I learned from this activity is that every member in the group has his or her indispensable role and we have to not only responsible for ourselves but also encourage and lend a warm hand to your partners so that the team can succeed.


May 25, 2012

Wander in raining day

The weather is really capricious in Tainan, the rain pouring suddenly after the sunshine shining splendidly. However, that’s not the strangest scene, for the super scene here is raining and sun shining simultaneously. Report has it that the heavy rain in Tainan has caused the terrible agricultural loss, and the scary rainfall also paralyzed the traffic. I was shocked by the scene on the news that the van was almost devoured, and it scared the hell out of me. During those days I have received several calls from my family to show consideration of my safety, but in fact I was disconnected from the world around me so that I didn’t notice what have happened outside my room. Because of my silly reaction, I was derided as an unsensible creature making don’t know whether to laugh or cry. Although they made fun of me, I still felt content because I sensed the peace and security. It rains cats and dogs outside but I lived in my warm place. Suddenly the image of those unfortunate wanderers came upon into my mind, I plunged into deep thought that how lucky I am, I have a shelter where I can always be in a safe and carefree condition. Several days ago, the newscast highlighted the case that two insolent senior high school students did an extremely scathing violence toward the wanderer—attacking the wanderers by spilling the fecal matter on their bodies when they were sleeping. When I heard the news for the first time, I was shocked on the spot for I couldn’t believe that how can people be so cruel that they not only made fun of him but attacked him. Do they have the basic sympathy? I despise them for they devalued the virtue of being as a human.


May 19, 2012

the root

I can’t wait to share others with my thoughts of the speeches gave by 席慕蓉. Before seeing Mrs.shi in person, I regard her as a romantic sentimental writer. From her poets, I strongly touched by her straightforward love toward her home country which is far from her. In the speech, she describes herself as a person without hometown. When Mrs.shi recited her poems, she intentionally kept back her tears but eventually her tears dropped. She shed her tears and then said that every time when thinking of those herdsmen on horseback, she felt helpless for them. Through her poems and her touching sound, I can see her deep love toward her hometown which accompanied her few years in her childhood. She is so frank and straightforward who attacked my stereotype of the writer. She is out of ordinary and forthright, especially when she mentioned her childhood in Mongolia imprinted in her memory, she had the earnest in her eyes. I was so touched by her words, it seemed that the expense of lucid lake and sunset came into my side. The beauty of Mongolia she prescribed attracted me, moreover, the most impressive to me is the sparkle of her eyes- a longing for the sense of belonging. In addition, another thing she mentioned is our respects to our cultures, and she said that it’s really a tragedy if you regard your culture as a monster. It worth our introspection especially for Taiwanese youth, it’s some kind of deviation that we feel shame for specking Taiwanese which is the root of Taiwan culture. I really learned a lot from her speech, I know what the essence of our nature is---- it’s the intimacy between who we are and where we come from.


May 18, 2012

stubbornness isn't bad

How a nightmarish Thursday! Merely the four hours courses could torture me to death, but I am so proud to myself that I have survived all the stressful tests and presentations. Frankly speaking, I am prone to feel drained and desperate when facing these abominable routines. The test is followed by quiz and then presentations, and the worse is that this kind of cycle seems nonstop. I seem to become tired of it already. Maybe the pressures have anguished me but I didn’t notice that, it engulf me but I don’t know how to defend. I just can’t figure out the reason for my indescribable depression these days, and why I was always in the trench? The weather is uncanny, sometimes the sun lent us his appealing smile but suddenly followed the dramatically pouring rain. Looking outside from the window, I felt as if the city were crying. Whenever I felt weary of the unglamorous and tedious life, I would plunge into deep thought. Obviously I am a headstrong person who is easily trapped in the same situation because I am unwilling to compromise with the reality. Sometimes even I myself can’t make sense of what I pondered about. I am easily driven down by troublesome task, and it may cause me to become sunken. However, paradoxically it’s these obstacles that stir me to become strong and valiant. I would make a valiant attempt to solve the problem and try to tackle with it to my contentment. I wonder if there is an obstinate soul living inside my body that makes me never give up easily. To some extent, I am gratified with my stubbornness which makes me never regret.

 


May 12, 2012

the moment for showing love

After the torturous three hours long standing, I left form Tainan to Taichung. Because of the coming of mother’s day, passengers crowded the platform that I even can’t stand firmly. Hark back to my childhood, though being an impish girl, I was also a sweet daughter. Recalling from the most impressive celebration of Mother’s Day, I remember that I had prepared for a long time to give my mom an unforgettable memory which is exclusive for her. After she went home, I pretended that I was not available so that I turned all her requests down. And I also pretended that I totally forgot what the special date was, to some extent, she was quietly disappointed. During her disappointment, I gave her a surprise by taking out the gift I prepared one month in advance. Thought she didn’t express her exciting mood, I knew that she was touched. My mom is kind of reserved, she seldom shares her feelings with us even though being in the down mood. However, I think I have known how to figure out her frame of mind and stand in her shoes, being familiar with the connection between her implicit expressions and what she really thinks. Take that Mother’s Day for example, I knew she was touched though she nearly said nothing but that” oh! I didn’t know that you have prepared it for me.” For me, it’s my pleasure to prepare the gifts and to show our loving care for people we love. As long as they sense that there is a person standing by their sides and love them so much, I am willing to devote my love to them earnestly.


May 11, 2012

my torment

Someone told me that you would lose your weight if you are too exhausted, frankly speaking, I pretty long for that. However, not until last time I weighted myself on the scale did I frustrate by my sharply increasing weight. I have got extra pounds in this semester, no wonder I feel that I am chubbier than before because I can’t squeeze myself in jeans which fit me. I have no ideas what’s wrong with my condition of health, it is quietly unstable. Just a few months ago, there was something strange happened that I felt tired out but I just couldn’t fall asleep. The long dark night has become the terrible nightmare, I couldn’t stand that kind of scary silence when my roommates all went into the deep sweet dream. But the strangest thing was that I fell asleep readily during the daytime, it was really torment to me like someone play tricks on me. Except for my sleeping problem, as I mentioned before that my weight went disorderly, I gained weight and lost weight repeatedly even though I retain my regular diet. What anguished me most is my disagreeable pimples which is out of control, I think the lack of sleep is the main reason for this ill condition. I still can’t find out the cause of my insomnolence, but I think maybe the caffeine is the staple reason as well as my unease. Fortunately, the condition is getting better, at least I can fall asleep now. I told my parent about this matter recently, they both worried about me and suggested me that I go to see a doctor because I have had this kind of problem before; however I turned down their benevolence. Going to the doctor tends to be my last choices, I don’t like to rely on medicines and I would try to solve it by exercise instead.


April 28, 2012

hello, my new appreance

I can’t tolerate my curly hair anymore, I decide to go to barbershop to give it a new appearance. I have permed my hair for several times, but I would soon weary of it. I always refer the new haircut to the representation of my mood. When I was in bad mood, I would go to the barbershop to give myself a fresh impression. By changing hair style, I can really change my mood. Because I tend to get tired of the old things, I always try new things with my passion, take my haircut for example, I have tried many kinds of styles, including long, extreme short, curly and straight. However, I would be nervous because I am afraid that my hair would mess up everything. I was always teased by my classmates once when it comes to my haircut in senior high school. Hark back to my poor experience, the misery was arisen from my brave and sudden decision that I wanted to cut my long hair off into extreme shot one. Consequently, I shocked almost all of my classmates, and my teachers were not exception. I was made fun of by my teacher in front of all my classmates, and I felt really shameful and wanted to hide in the hole. From that time, I dare not to make decisions willfully, I have asked many people for suggestions for fear that I will repeat my error again. Some people said that the plain short hair is more appropriate for me; however, some one said they prefer long , romantic hair style. But I still can’t determine which kinds of styles are more proper for me, I would take the barber’s suggestions into consideration. I have an afflicted feeling now, I was so expected and a little fearful.

 


April 27, 2012

Family reunion

The sun finally dispels the clouds, after the whole week of torturing midterm exam has come to the end. It was a nightmare to me that two of the most important courses adjoined, so that I didn’t know how to prepare them in an efficient way. I was just like the cat on the hot bricks when facing this kind of tough and afflicted situation. Though I have prepared it for a while by studying regularly, the academic pressure still anguished me. I was so diffident that I was afraid that I would slip up everything, but I had to stop thinking like that. I could only convince myself that I was well-prepared and I could surely pass the exams. It’s kind of parody that I assume myself as a winner before the results are revealed. Frankly speaking, the exam really devoured my self-confidence though the professor proclaimed that it was between easy and very easy. I signed a relief then I decided to let it go, because I couldn’t wait to embrace my weekend. Actually the weekend in Tainan bored me, so I tend to look forward going home. This weekend is my monthly family reunion, we are going to dining out as usual. This kind of reunion is just an ordinary routine, we have a supper together and talk about our recent lives but this is a joyful time for me. I feel so content when we chat and share something funny with each other, and this is the happiest time for me! However, it’s this kind of happiness that makes me unwilling to go back to Tainan, especially when I imagine that heavy and annoying homework. I will always expect my family for next reunion.


April 3, 2012

praise to the bridge we go over

When it comes to the Tomb sweeping day, it means a lot for the Chinese tradition. Tomb sweeping day is an extraordinarily meaningful opportunity for families to reunite. Though seldom making contact with other relatives, we still burst into laughter when mentioned those good old memories together. Also, I think this kind of day has its special meaning, it remind us to be humble and respectful toward our ancestors and also their devotion. With the incense permeating, I told my grandma how much I miss her. In the world afar without pain and torment, I deeply believe that my grandma lives in a carefree fashion, needing not worried about annoyances anymore. We visit this beautiful lady who I respect most with a bunch of flowers every year, when I brought palms together and talks to her, I can still hear her tender voice and sense her warm hug. Though my families t are all busy in their business and seldom have chance to meet, we would get together to worship the dedications of the forebears during this peculiar day. The virtue of thankfulness can be revealed by this traditional ceremony which remembers us to the past. Except for this solemn meaning, the delicious cuisine is an indispensable part. The delicious Mixed Vegetable Roll flashed through my mind right away, when speaking of the Tomb sweeping day. For me, it was an association with this ceremony, and I just can’t stop recalling its deliciousness. Wrapped by the crispy pasta, the fresh vegetables and pickled meat inside bring forth the mixed taste. I can’t resist its yummy temptation, so I ate a lot and now it’ time for me to worried about my weight. Tomb sweeping day represents not only a one-day rest but the virtue of Chinese.

 


March 21, 2012

the invisible time murder

Exhaustion, when it comes to my last weekdays.

When my roads diverged, I felt confused and frustrated. I disoriented which way should I go?

Being occupied with lots of courses, I can hardly spare time to devote to my interests.


March 13, 2012

inspiration could find in anywhere

Surfing the blog or facebook is one of my hobbies, because I can find the inspirations and motivations from it.

Trapped in the flip sides of my daily routines, I always feel exhausted. It seems that nothing can infuse me with enthusiasm, the cloudy rains denigrates my desolated spirit. I want to shut out loud my gloomy depression.

Janet, who can be recognized by many angles such as host, writer also speaker, sets a model for me. She conveys us her philosophy of life by her always optimistic words.


March 10, 2012

something you can't wait!

This time, I finally wake up. I finally face the truth.

Not for others, just for myself.

I pick up my motivation and take the first step to here.


March 4, 2012

Venture , Tainan, Bicycle

My partners and I decided to launch a venture to Tainan, a city we have stayed for almost half of year.

Because of the traffic inconvenience, I was bound to the a few regions nearby the campus. However, this time I decided to tighten my shoelace, grasped at the handles. We were going to explore the beauty of Tainan outside of the campus. When we passed along slowly, the winds as well as the sun were with us. Facing the gentle winds, I rode my bike energetically with excitement. At first, I was taught that our destination –Anping old street is extremely far and it would be a tiring route for us. But after we visited it personally, I thought that it isn’t as difficult as they imagined, because it won’t cost us too many time to get there. I felt on top of the world when we finally arrived. Not only did we pay a visit to the ancient building but also taste many kinds of traditional dishes including salty rice pudding, Yee-Fong Marrow Tea…and so on. Also, we had a good time in taking lots of funny pictures in the special corner of the Hai'an road which was daubed with many cute patterns in blue. Although during the weekend, it wasn’t crowed and noisy as I imagined, I felt relaxed with joyous mood instead. Then I started to know that even Tainan is not as convenient as Taipei is, it still has lots of traditions which are worth our visit. It’s a nice proposition for us to walk around here for fun and do nothing purposive on weekdays, feeling the tranquil atmosphere in the old street. Along with the sunset, we stepped on our homeward journey with content and we all have a special memory of the exploration to Tainan.


February 28, 2012

Reverse consideration

Our original plan went off table, I thought.

At first my family decided to have a two-day travel to Nantou, a place we visit almost every year to admire the beauty of blossom on the cherry trees.

However, the bad weather made fun of us. It’s windy, cloudy, and the worst is that it never stopped raining. During these raining days, we could just stay at home and signed with disheartenment.    The terrible weather paired up with us, we couldn’t get rid of it. Every one of us could do nothing but imagine the joyous trip we could have been to. Then we hark back to those memories with blossom of flowers, and we laughed when it comes to the funny, lighthearted journey last year. I thought that it didn’t matter if our planned travel came off, the most important of all is that we still have a good time with families. We chatted and we shared our happiness with others, no matter what’s the weather outside, we still had a good time.  It seemed that we got rid of the arrogant pouring rain, we enjoyed our journey in home. On the other day, It was reported that there had the traffic jam in Nantou, we laughed because the bad weather took turn to become a blessing. We were gratified that we didn’t have to trap in the traffic jam instead we could have a free weekend without tired drive.



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