ONCE AGAIN..
It's been away my blog!
How art thou?
I'm feeing crappy. =[
Honestly when will this lonely feeling go away?
I hate feeling like that.
I'm always the buddy and the "when i need you i'll find you" friend. =[
It's not fun anymore. really
Went for Vino's wedding today =]
She looked so pretty. Congrats. =]
Other than that i sat with Marie and BF, Abby and BF, Sugmad and GF and Alan.
Which meant i spent half my time messaging Hock and twittering. =[
I felt so left out as usual, WHY?
Cause Marie and Abby and Alan were talkin about school, after which were entertaining their BFs.
Alan and i don't talk.
Sugmad and i were sitting across each other so it was a little harder to talk.
So therefore i had to disturb Hock. =[ SORRY AH i know i'm annoying. =[
Sigh, But thankfully my trip home was made better thanks to monkey man and gf =] THANK YOU =]
Reached home and immediate down feeling came. SIGH
I hate feeling alone.
It's aite to a certain extend but really i do feel very alone.
Everyone thinks i'm not sensitive, i'm tough, i'm alright but the truth is that i'm not. SIGH
I actually feel really alone most of the time.
Even though i might be smiling but that's just a cover up. =[
Sigh, this also reminds me Marie said "why are you so angsty today?"
Wanna know why cause i was saying i need a social life...
Then she said "don't work so much and come find me la"
Then i replied "how am i suppose to do that if you're at his [mike] place ALL THE TIME?"
Then she said "i'm only there weekends"
Then i replied "is monday a weekend?"
That's when she said why so angsty.
I mean seriously think about it, the ENTIRE night my "somewhat" of a close friend wasn't bothered to talk to me.
Not to mention when i want to talk to someone online it's always "i'm not at home" or some other same old bull.
If that's the case don't expect me to be nice.
I am not ms nice.
I can be but don't misuse it!
Sigh then this Hock always disturbing me only...it's nice la ONCE IN AWHILE.
Sigh sigh sigh sigh...
Then my dream suddenly feels so lost.
This is not what i wanted it to be.
I feel so lost.
God! HELP! =[
I really hate feeling so lonely.
God i really want this Korean dream, i know it's planted in me for a reason.
Use me pls!
Don't let this talents you've given me go to waste!
I really want to be able to perform on stage. PLEASE =[
Sigh....Bloggin down.
Mood: down down down...
