i wonder and i hate.
I WONDER AND I HATE....
I wonder why people keep living a "secret" life.
I want to have a life where there's no secrets.
I don't understand why people have to keep their lives a BIG SECRET.
I mean if you don't wanna share about what happened or you don't want people to mention about it,
why tell or share in the first place?
If i were to hang out with someone i think i also deserve the right to share how i feel about my thoughts and everything,
instead of making it seem like a "crime" that i was hanging out with a NORMAL friend.
I don't give a damn about how the "gf" or "bf" would think,
i'm your bloodie friend too!
Although i understand what you're talking about but come on la..it's my damn life too right?
WHAT THE HELL LA SERIOUSLY.
You see that's the reason why i hate having people about, SIGH.
My mother also another one,
i also need to keep my dreams to myself.
I mean, it's my life!
I don't think i deserve to live life like that.
I do have my own life you know,
just cause your life is a secret, it doesn't mean mine has to be too.
I don't live life to please yours,
yes i can accommodate once in awhile but not SO FREAKING OFTEN.
I don't see why there's a need to make it such a big secret.
If it's SUCH a big "secret" then don't tell me, don't mention, don't even meet me.
It's a waste of my damn time!
And i'm rather pissed with the fact that just cause i said "eh your gf go already la" i got "told off".
Like seriously, chill la!
YOU ARE THE GIRLFRIEND WHAT!
Not to mention the amounts of fights you guys get into in a day not to mention EVEN WHEN I'M AROUND!
THE ENTIRE BLOODIE ATMOSPHERE IS SO DEAD.
DJ doesn't - smile
- laugh
- joke
- chill as often anymore.
He just seems damn dead all the time.
I've never seen him so upset in a relationship before, SERIOUSLY.
He's never been so "secretive" about us chillin or hangin before.
Now it's like as though i'm the "MISTRESS" when we're just good old buddies since like HOW LONG AGO.
And when the relationship started, it's just like _____________________.
No comments....
I love the both of them but seriously, "YOU'RE NOT HAPPY NOR ARE YOU BEING YOURSELVES!"
I don't believe in keeping secrets amongst themselves.
You're a couple, be one...
My definition of a couple is when there are:
1. NO SECRETS
2. COMMUNICATION
3. TRUST
4. UNDERSTANDING
5. PATIENCE
6. DESIRE
7. PASSION
8. RESPECT
9. TRUST AGAIN
10. LASTLY LOVE!
I'm sorry dude, but out of these few, i doubt any of it is at a stable state.
There's no understandin, respect, communication and there's no vision in the relationship.
HONESTLY!
I'm sorry man, but i don't want to chill with the both of you unless you guys do something about the relationship.
Yes i can chill and all but i won't be all talkative, noisy and like joking around..
It's not me to lie about how i feel as well.
About both of the things that i feel strongly about, i think i deserve to live my life without secrets and lies.
I'm Regina and i would like be keep it that way.
I don't give a damn about how old you are, but when i feel something needs to be said, i will say it.
I don't believe in "giving face" cause we are all still learning no matter what age we are.
So why carry so much pride?
Just live life as if it were to be the last.
My God, life is that simple, why complicate it?
Nevertheless, i shall just be in my fairytale.
It makes me happy and i can really be who i am in my own tiny world.
Sigh....angry man!
- Porkiepie signing off -
