It's my desired LIFE

I do not know anyone of you have ever experience heart broken? A betray in your friendship? A misunderstanding between you and a friend/friends? Well, I guess what you need might be a key to friendship. Like any other thing, friendship is like an investment. For me, anythings need a return. When friends help you, when they are in same situation, you will help them back. But maybe the number of times is not the same, depends who contribute more or less. I remembered when I entered high school and I was totally new to that class, I choose people who belongs to my gang/ friend. We must share some same interest at least. But the problem is whether they accept you as you are one of them? Once, my friends and I were sitting at a group. We started to discuss things and chit-chat. They knew each other for a long time. You know "odd one out"? I'm the one. They were planning to go shopping on Saturday. At first no one asking me. Then a girl went and asked her friends whether the can asked me to go out with them. See, that is what I meant a pass. An approval to make friends and become a gang. Till now, this thing still happen on me in college. We were having Biology class at the last period and I entered late to help my friend with her problem. We sat in a group. Suddenly a girl come out with an idea to go Snow Flake. I heard they were planning to eat something after college so I asked. They said nothing because they are not too sure. After awhile they still talking about that and another girl felt like eating something so they asked their friends but not me. I thought they will ask me but indeed they did not. The girl who started the conversation ask the girl next to her whether want to call me...I... She said nothing and I didn't see her sign language. Class ended and she still didn't tell me... Heart broken...I rushed back to my apartment and take a bath... I came out from my bathroom and check on my phone... NO MESSAGE... Heart broken once again. Can you imagine that? I meant nothing to them. I am a parasite that depend on them. Come on... if you don't like me please don't act like I am your best friend in front of your boyfriend.

Finally reached Subang Jaya safely... kinda scare when I took the ktm and monorail alone...is a great experience for me ... On the way back to Ipoh, I know a Malay guy called Najwan...He is quite cute and handsome and he is 20 years old, currently a politeknik student...We did chat a lot in train... I don't want to elaborate more, later people get mix up with some stuff, haha...You know what I mean? anyway, back to the topic, I was very happy for the weekend althought it was short and tiring for the journey. I can go shopping and eat my mum's dishes...That's the best thing ever...haha... and I got souvenirs from my goddad who just came back from Korea...haha...yummy seaweeds...I love it so much...and Louise, my niece, is taller this time. He is just nine months old...haha...so cute...

On the way back to Subang Jaya, the train is so sucks because air cond is spoilt... For the four hours journey, I was fanning myself with the paper....oh wat a disaster...Luckily mei shan is in the same train with me.... At least we can take care of each other. After we reached KL Sentral, Mei Shan send me to take the rapid KL back to my place. I waited at the platform with unsure face...hope to be in the correct platform...But luckily I manage to get up the ktm... phew...and I reached subang jaya at last...

OMG, the movie is now showing in the tv... so happy I finally get to watch it for second time... It's called Sister Act... It's so nice and I really happy when I first saw it... That time was during My leadership camp in La Salle centre... with all the vanguards from different schools... so memorable...

I'm so excited this week because I am gonna go home on this coming Friday. Every day and night, I do countdown, waiting the day to come. So long haven't go back and see my mum, I miss her so so much. When I called back and told her I'm going back on Friday, she was very happy because for so long I have not been with her and she was alone at home. She is not working anymore and being a full time housewives now. My father only goes home every Saturday and left on Sunday. Don't ask me why he is so busy, only we know.... Anyway, I was able to go home by KTM at 5:50pm but because of little misunderstand, I bought the wrong ticket and have to go home at 8pm... Have to wait so long.... It's dreading me... And our first plan is to have dinner when I reach Ipoh but now have to go for supper instead... ohhh... why I have to wait so long... I miss my bed, my house and my mum sososos much... just wish to have them with me now...and one thing, I miss my church also...I have not attend to my church for more than 6 months after I have moved to KL. Mum, I am going home....

Do you know the King of Pop Michael Jackson was declared dead on June 25th 2009, at the age of 50 after suffering cardiac arrest. Jackson was no longer breathing when Los Angeles fire officials responded to a 911 call coming from the star’s home. He was rushed to the hospital by paramedics but was latter pronounced dead.He was actually die of cardiac arrest, not heart attack.

What is the difference between heart attack and cardiac arrest anyway?

出生一张纸，开始一辈子；
 
 毕业一张纸，奋斗一辈子；

Is chocolate good for you? Yes! The health benefits of chocolate are many... assuming we're talking about the same thing, that is. I'm talking about chocolate in its purest form - as close to the bean as you can get. If you want me to tell you a Milky Way bar is good for you, I'm afraid you're going to be disappointed.

That doesn't mean, however, that there aren't any chocolate bars that are good for you. The key is to find a bar with high cocoa content. The higher the cocoa content, the less room there is for cocoa butter, sugar, lecithin, vanilla, milk, and other stuff that makes chocolate less of a vegetable and more of a candy.

Some of you may be thinking that a dark chocolate bar is bitter or yucky. If you aren't a fan of dark chocolate, you've probably never had the good stuff. 

Quick. Think of the best antioxidants you've ever heard of. Red wine? Green tea? Pomegranate? Blueberries? Dark chocolate leaves them all in the dust. The USDA published a chart of antioxidant foods measured in ORACs (Oxygen Radical Absorbance Capacity Units). For every 100 grams, dark chocolate has 13,120 ORACs, and blueberries have only 2,400.

Swine flu is a type of virus. It's named for a virus that pigs can get. People do not normally get swine flu, but human infections can and do happen. The virus is contagious and can spread from human to human. Symptoms of swine flu in people are similar to the symptoms of regular human flu and include fever, cough, sore throat, body aches, headache, chills and fatigue.

The rules of love? How many of you really know what is love? Love. It's simple isn't it? You love your family and friends, and they love you back. You find a partner whom you love, and who loves you too. And you don't have to try, it just happen. Love between people almost always has its complications because people are complicated, agree? Love can be tried and tested and stretched to its limits. Sometimes we love the wrong person and sometimes we can love too much or not enough. We can feel it but cannot show it. Sometimes we think love is still there but we don't know how to to restore it to its full glory. Love is often involved in our highest high and deepest low.You got what I mean?Love can changed into Hates when there is love.

The Rules for Finding Love

Today is another Friday... I always feel lonely on every Friday... But this morning, one news frightened me was Michael Jackson passed away this morning... I thought it was a joke at first because I heard from the passer-by so I don't really bother so much... When I entered class, Ee Lin said" Do you know that Michael Jackson passed away? " I said I know but I feel it is a sad news because I have heard of him when I was very young.... Althought I not so into him, but death is a scary thing for me... Can you imagine that if someone that you loved so much suddenly turn cold and purple and gonna gone through crenation... I really scare of old and death...During ESL class, Mrs Banu, our lecturer, gave us a topic" Family"... Then she started to discuss with us what are the happiest things ever happen when we are young? And what are the traumatic things? I started to flash back the good memories that happen between me and my parents. Since I was young, my parents take good care of me...take me for movies every weekend after dinner...  Three layers of birthday cakes during my birthday with a pink , cute doll on the cake... I got lot of money during my CNY visitation... The traumatic things I wouldn'd talk about that ...Because I wanted to keep those beautiful memory... time rushing, gonna go to class...
XOXO,
ivana@emo

It's Monday again... even though it is not the first day of the week,  it is a new day for college... this morning class shold start at 9 but when I reached college, my classmates said got no class so I got 3 hours consecutively free... what am i suppose to do? study? so boring... Today second period is for the ESL tutorial thing, which I've done so I'm free for this week...I hope others will do better... lol...really dunno what to write, morning my brain is blank... just keep on visit my blog ba...

洁癖者，9月8日出生的人如谜一般，总是很难令人了解他们心中在想些什么。其实，在他们的心底，最感兴趣的是把所有事情整理得有条不紊、做事干脆。一般而言，改善家庭、社交或甚至全国性团体的处境是他们最想做的事。然而，当他们走错路时却仍会认为自己的行为是合理或负责任的。总而言之，不管一切努力到最后的结果是好是坏，不容置疑的是，9月8日出生的人会对他们周遭环境带来相当大的冲击。通常，出生于这一天的人都会遭受他人的误解，最主要的原因是他们太神秘了，同时，他们还可藉由所扮演的角色，成为某团体或生活模式的代言人甚至象征。他们是生活舞台中卓越的演员，能够扮演各种角色，但或许就如马库士.奥略流斯(MarcusAurelius)在《沉思录》一书中所建议的，通常，我们只要能将其中一项扮演好就该觉得满意了。绝大部份在9月8日出生的人，都是以“非黑即白”的眼光来看待这个世界，认为凡事都受制于善与恶这两股势力当中；而且他们自己所选择的角色，经常都是信念的保护者，以对抗家庭、国家、党派或教会的敌人。然而很讽刺的是，他们自己经常就是信念或原则的敌人！因此，这些出生于9月8日的人，就必须多花一点时间来审视自己的价值观是否如他们所想象般纯洁，这对他们来说是件极为重要的工作。

I wanted to make soya pudding but end up failing because I forgot to stir but actually I do not know I actually need to stir. My housemates told me that they smelled some groundnuts but oh my god, it is the burnt smell... Yerr... my soya pudding ends up dunno what.... so sad.... and my pot... it looks like a bee hives but is in black.

Last night, I watch a movie called "Coraline". It is so nice but sometimes are scary...like any moment you will not expect that to pop out... but it is a good movie I'll say because the animation is good and I gave it 5 star...I recommend my friend to watch...