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It took me one whole day to ponder how things turned out to be that way. Everything wasn't ideal at all ever since I set foot into that school. I never experienced such pain in my heart before. The moment when the truth sets in my mind, I couldn't find any way to alleviate this pain. Ever since I got into a junior college, everything in my life went topsy-turvy. JC. What a nice name to be labelled with. Sometimes, all that glitters is not gold. People may envy you for being a junior college student but if I were to be given a chance to re-choose, I would not choose this route ever again. I always thought maybe it was my fault. I wasn't hardworking enough. Maybe I should have put more effort in this. Maybe I chose the wrong method.s All this "maybe-s" shouldn't even exist. There's only ONE "maybe". Maybe I wasn't even meant to be there. The wrong person in the wrong place, resulting in everything going wrong. 

While packing the old stuffs yesterday, I chanced upon a poem. Ironically, it was titled "Keep believing in yourself". As I read through the poem, I thought to myself: Maybe this is another challenge for me. A challenge that I should graciously and passively embrace. 

Its been a long time since I last blogged.. With promos, the mugging and dreadful project work, I am just too tired to do anything.. anyway, I chanced upon a loving story and decided to tell you guys about it.. :D

There once lived a granny and everyday, she would travel up the hill and to the lake to get water. She always carry a pole over her shoulders and on each of the pole would rest a bucket. The buckets would be used to store the water and bring home. However, one bucket was in perfect condition while the other bucket would be cracked. The bucket that was in good condition would always be filled fully with water while the bucket that was cracked would only bring home half the amount of water that it could carry because the water would leak out. So for two years, the granny would only carry a bucket and a half of water home everyday. As such, the perfect bucket felt very happy and proud whereas the cracked bucket would feel ashamed of himself and unworthy.

Suddenly, I feel like watching a musical/concert so I went to search for some on sistics. But those that actually interest me wasn't a lot. Denise told me there is an upcoming performance by Stomp and I went to check it out. Sounds like fun to me. =) The holidays are finally here! But I don't really have the "holiday feel" ingrained in me yet. Most probabely I know for myself that I have to work hard for the upcoming tests and the MAJOR MAJOR promos that have succeeded in inflicting everyone the "study-virus". Basically, everyone in my school studies for a living.That's an indisputable fact that cannot be changed no matter what. I guess I just have to get used to it.

OHH!! I wanna watch "The Proposal"! It looked like a fun movie and I HAVE NOT WATCH ONE FOR AGES. But, I am kinda intrigued by another movie - Coco avant Chanel. I heard the synopsis over the radio and realised that the movie depicts the life of Gabrielle Bonheur Chanel a.k.a Coco Chanel who apparently is the founder of the Chanel empire. She's dead of course but I am curious as to how she could set up such a huge designer brand that made so many girls go frenzy over it, considering the fact that she existed during the WW1 period. Also, how did designer brands such as Chanel, Gucci, LV etc. lasted till now?? I am just so curious by all this..  

Yes Denise.. you can stop rolling your eyes.. I am back to blogging.. HAHA!

Just realised that junior college life doesn't seemed the right choice after all.. With all those workload, all those peer pressure and especially especially PROJECT WORK! OMG!  All these stuffs make me wanna puke.. seriously.. and I just cannot push myself even further.. Every week I feel so lethargic, every week i feel so demoralised, and every week I feel so intimidated.. Weekends seem to be my greatest solace now.. I hope for them to come as soon as possible so that I can get my well-deserved rest. Not that I really deserve one but I feel that I should have the right to have one. I cannot keep up with the pace of the people in my class. I know that I am not as 'efficient' as before. My whole body and soul just feel so tired. It just seems like I malfunctioned once stepping into tj.. I can't seemed to follow their footsteps anymore..

Its kinda long since I last posted and yea.. hehe!! BUT, no worries cos BREAD IS BACK! hehe.. anyway, look up look up! see the picture up there?? Don't you guys find that it is such a beautiful place?? That is why I'm back here. Fontana di Trevi. A foutain in Italy that was only well-known after a film/show "Three coins in a fountain". Legend says that if you throw one coin into the fountain, you are ensued a return to this magical place. Two coins for a new romance/marriage and three coins for a divorce. Also, you have to throw it with your right hand over your right shoulder. This legend just prickled my heart so deeply that I badly want to visit that place. I cannot wait to step into such a romantic world with my lover and just feel the splashing of the fountain water, the buzz of the crowd and the "ting-ting" sound of the coins that signifies every wishes coming true. Just slightly in front of the fountain, there is a chruch. And do you know that there are locks with names engraved or written on them being placed on the chruch gate. Couples from all over the world placed these locks hoping that their relationship would be strong and long-lasting. Just like how a lock secures their relationship. I wanna go there with my other half. I wanna experience such a romantic feeling. I wanna just be there. Just there. :)

To all mothers out there, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!! ^^ May you feel the love and concern from your kids and husbands and enjoy this day because all mothers rightfully deserve it. The only sad part is that mummie currently isn't in S'pore now and I have no clue as to how to celebrate it with her.. =( BUT, I think I'll call her early on Mothers' Day and sent her my wishes! ^^ Bet she will be glad to hear my voice beacause I'M HER BELOVED DAUGHTER!! Hehe.. But how are you guys celebrating it with your mothers?? However, no matter what, it is the thought that counts and I'm sure your mom would love it.. ^^

OHH! Just went to Ajisen for dinner and it was so fulfilling for me! *burp* hahaha!! Ate a BIG bowl of ramen and nice! nice! nice! All the food are now yummy yummy in my tummy.. ^^ The best part is, I AM GOING TO EAT SAKAE TMR!!! YAY!! Promised myself that and I am not going to back out of the deal. And I wanna go to the airport to study, eat, look at the different Caucasians and best of all, THE COOLEST COOLEST PILOTS!! OMG! The other time I went to the airport, I chanced upon their office whereby the pilots check up on any updates regarding the wind direction, the amt of fuel needed etc etc.. It was so AWESOME to see a bunch of pilots together. I just love the smell, the look and the taste (It's the food! Dun think crooked! I never lick the airport!) of the airport. Forever my 2nd home.. ^^

ARGH!! I AM SO UPSET! Someone stole my phone today and I am so pissed off with that person. Now, all my photos and messages are gone. ;( Pictures of my friends and family are gone. :( I am so upset over it. SO SO upset. Those speech day pictures that I took with you guys are gone. Those random pictures that I took with you guys are gone too! Also, many of my important messages are gone too! :( Actually this post comes with a few cute hamster pictures that I took earlier on. The hamsters are SO CUTE! But now, there isn’t any hamsters for you guys to look at.. :( Why must he/she take my phone?! Why can’t he/she take my wallet or mp3?! I dun mind these two being stolen but my phone means a lot to me.. It really means a lot to me~ ;( Now, I have got to collect my new card. I didn’t even know it was taken! I must be really blur. Really really blur.. (".)

Anyway, we had a mini CG outing (some had pdp training while some didn’t come I don’t know why) on Thursday and we went to plaza sing. They actually decided to catch “International” at Orchard but we were kinda of late and so we missed the timing for the movie. Wenjia, May kun and I actually still intended to meet for dinner but hehe.. no dinner. But we settled for 711 food.. Nice though! :) In the end, dinner was at orchard and arcade was at plaza sing. Yea! We went to the arcade and had a great time there! OMG! You should see how Wenjia dance on the Dance Dance Revolution Machine. She was awesome! And she makes a great dancer. But the guys are . . . . HAHA! I shall not say much about them because they know it themselves. HEHE! But they are so cute! Imagine four guys sharing a dance floor where each took care of a movement. HAHA! AND AND, I beat the guys in car racing! YAY! ^^ HAHA! Don’t underestimate me huh. I am not that weak though my reaction is slow.. ^^ And we finally found a way to call the scholars out the next time we go out : CALL JIAYI (I realised that he is so TALL~)! He managed to get almost all the scholars out and the best part is, WE MADE THEM BREAK THEIR CURFEW. They were supposed to go back by 11pm but we were still in the arcade at that moment. Joel was like: “Even if we rush back now, we will still break the rules. Might as well we stay longer.” LOL! They even went to Starbucks or Coffee Bean for late night supper. I hope they get away with the punishment. Hehe.. It was really fun and I enjoyed myself. It is as if what I wished for came true. I really hope through these outings, our class will be more bonded, more united! Next outing: OUTDOOR PICNIC AT EAST COAST or OUR POSTPONED MOVIE TRIP! (can we catch X-MEN?) GO 0609! ^^

oh man! I did something audacious today! But Denise Phua, it is all for you okay! Better not throw it away because I don't think that person will have any more _______ for me to grab! :D Plus, I am not explaining to Joel why I did that because I WANT HIM TO FEEL THAT THERE IS MORE TO IT!! ^^ ohh.. someone will realise something is missing somewhere in school on monday.. And it was not a stalker act! :( How could you say that of me?? So hurt.. ^^ But it does take much courage and speed to get that crime done you know.. Denise, you really should thank me.. Now you get to see that thing 24/7.. :D I shall not leak out too much! zip zip.. :X

Oh oh!! For today's mass pe, we ran to East Coast Park. It was kind of novel for me and I really enjoyed the run. Maybe because it has been quite some time I ran alongside such beautiful sceneries. I was kind of upset in the morning partly because my PI was rejected and partly because of many other problems but the beach did brighten my day up.. ^^ There was this huge sandcastle built on the beach and I was tempted to touch it though I know it will collapse if I did that. Hehe.. :) But the idea of having a CG pincic outing suddenly flashed through my mind and hey, it wasn't a bad idea! It will be fun if our class get tgt and bond. I want those days where we can mingle with each other and away with those "cliques", away with those "shyness".. Let's have some fun! :D Actually, I do have many great ideas for class outing like ice-skating, pincic, a day to escape theme park, overnight chalet, trip to sentosa/fort canning etc etc.. AND AND it will be so cool if 25 of us go for a movie tgt! I mean it is a huge group but isn't it much much more cooler?!! Hope we can do this tgt guys.. I really wanna spend some great time with you because I wanna remember you guys forever in my life.. ^^

Those truths...

1. Last beverage: oreo ice blended

Recently, it has been a lousy week but I don't know why. Nothing went right nor what I expected for me. Never mind. Just hope next week turns out to be good.. Stay Positive!! :D

Anyway, we did ran today during mass pe and I realised that I'M SLOW! *OMY* and the worst thing was when I ran with Marco, he could run faster than me this time.. He couldn't in the past, u know.. Argh!! This shows that my timing is slowww like a snail. :( I know I haven't been running for the past two mths? But there really isn't any time.. haiis.. I HAVE TO RUN MORE AND CATCH UP or I'll fail my napfa!! I'm already in the standing broad jump club and that is sad for me.. But it always seems hard to pass SBJ. I wonder how the guys can jump so easily and far.. :( Add oil add oil.. :)

Seriously, I need to go out tmr.. Or else I will REALLY rot at home. This feeling ain't nice at all. I want to go out tmr. I want to eat sushi teh/sakae sushi tmr. I want to buy new clothes tmr. My wardrobe is bare after Mom gave most of clothes away.. :( I want to shop tmr. I want to get a new wallet tmr. I want to eat the kueh from bengawan solo tmr. I want to eat food from mr. bean tmr. (omg.. that's a lot of food.. :X) I JUST NEED TO GO OUT! haiis.. :(

Anyway, does pi pa gao really work? I had drank a lot of that today but my voice still has not returned.. sob sob.. I cannot sing/shout/talk/scream/shriek now and whenever I try to sing high, out came low. I need immediate remedy!! :)

i feel this song is so nice, so fairytale and it fits how i feel now.. yea~

Love Story - Taylor Swift