time

November 16, 2011

it makes us forget
it helps us heal
but it also reminds us that the world is moving on
and we are becoming old

I'm just so not ready

time's clicking
world's moving
but I'm still standing there like an outsider
who I was, I am and perhaps will be

I hate to face it
to face the fact
and force myself to move on

maybe that's why I hate high tech products and love old stuff
because they are always too fast to catch up on

and why is this even happening?
I'm supposed to be the one who loves changing and hates to be the same
and right now I just hope everything can always be the same as if time stops
well it won't, thanks to reality

damn...it's not supposed to be a big deal
but I'm just so shock now
and feel so pressured
even it has nothing to do with it

and I can just keep on typing non stop
I haven't wrote my diary for like I don't know, maybe 2 months
all because I'm not sure if I will really want it to be remembered
I'm just being chaos and dramatic and I don't even know why that under these pressure I still have the time to be like this
and one thing that I had to face or I don't know if I should still face it and I seriously don't know what is going on
and I have no idea what I am doing and I don't want anyone to get hurt, and I am being honest even though some times I play little games
but the intension wasn't to hurt someone

and I'm talking too much now...
why should I be revealing all this here? well I guess it doesn't matter because no one reads it anymore
and it is way much faster to type than to write in my diary...

ahhhhh
I'm just having too much right now
with my stupid biochem
not working bacteria...
and the now going on gene experssion which god knows will lead to where...
and a bunch of stuff that even isn't the point...

ok

terminate

need to relax
feel so tensed