UNHAPPINESS deep inside my heart .
One weeks ago , i got a puppy fm my frd's frd & e puppy now is staying at my parents house . It should be a vy happy days for us to hv it , bt it's total different , It cos lots of unhappiness to me ...
i'm always asking myself , why should i hv to do so hard to let ppl around me to be happy & yet my return is just only a unbarring words or .... fm them . It since like whatever things that i done is aways wrong . How i wish that i can forget what they hv say , but i can't ... It keep coming through inside my mind .
My 1st though of keeping this puppy is , i need this puppy to accompany my dad ( cos once my mum had gone for work , it only left my dad & no 1 , no place in this house can talk to him or accompany him & he's already 70 years old ) , as for me , i'm working wif 2 job + i'm nt living at my parent's house . I'm living together wif my sis & her hubby's house . Living wif them is already cos us some unhappiness for e past 1 yrs , nw it getting abit better ... cos i'v try vy hard to avoid it.
The 1st 3 day when e puppy stay at my parent's house , My mum kept on complainting that the puppy anyhow urine , shouting & she can't sleep , & complainting that they are sleeping on e floor , e puppy will dirty their bed & ect... then my dad put a card board divided in between the living room & kitchen , now e puppy only can walk around e kitchen & my mum oso complaint that it's danger for them to walk across , cos they my fell down .
For e last 4 days , while we are having dinner , mum using a forcing tone to ask me to get this puppy away what i'm back fm genting ... ( Now I'v bought a safety gate for them , hope them they can accept it )
Yesterday , was my unhappiness day , while we are hving our dinner , my sis throw me a word wif an unbarring tone " sis u r the person who wanted to hv this puppy , yet you don't even want to care abot her , ( she mean that nv feed , help to toilet cleaning , nv care abot her health . All this is dad doing ) & ppl like u even stay at my house oso nv care or nv do housekeeping one , how can i can't even thinks that if you bring e puppy to your bf house , e poor puppy will stuff fm huger ...
This is what i ans her ,
Btw when i rch hme fm my full time job , it's already vy rush for me to finish up my dinner & get to work for e part time . You can oso see it by yourself , it's not i don't care , i care too , but there is no time available for me liao , can't u see that ... & i did cares & do housekeeping for u too ... Don't say i nv do , i'm better than someone else in e house k . Of cos if i wanted to bring e puppy to my bf house , i won't be working e part time job during weekdays la .
My sis say " YOU ARE SO UNREASONABLE "
I Say ( i'm in a vy angry mood ) throwing these sentence ,
YAYA , I'M UNREASONABLE , ARE YOU HAPPY NOW .
YOU DOES NOT KNOW HOW MY FEELING FEEL & HOW TIREDING IT IS TO ARCHIVE A TARGET WHICH U HV TO USE UP TWICE OF YOUR ENERGY , TWICE OF YOUR $ , TWICE OF YOUR HARD WORKS & TIMES, TO GET WHAT YOU WANT & YET PPL LIKE YOU JUST THROW A UNBARRING WORDS . ( you mayb e same as me hard to achieve what u want , but at last you get it & you are happy , to me is different , do u thinks of that !!! )
My Words :- Althought my bf willing to let e puppy to be keep in his house , but honestly that's house not belong to me & is the same as , i'm living in your house , nothing can be change , ( i'v try vy hard to avoid all e unhappiness ) & e words come fm your mouth ( ppl like u even stay at my house oso nv cares or nv do housekeeping . )
If you want me to move out fm your house , u may tell me to... cos this words which said out fm your mouth means to me HARD IN MY MIND THOUGHT MY EARS , to what i'v heard fm my understanding & these words you had said to me twices . You are my sis & yet these words came out fm you . it's reali breaks my hearts .
That is why i so urgently nd a house of my own names , cos i won't feel that i'v no shuttle to live , no ppl can chase my out of e house , no one can stop me fm keeping animals , scold me or said to me unbarring words , no one will nape to me , i will hv my own world ... but ofcos i will face up some problem of paying all kinds of bills .... ( but to me i'm willing to do that , cos i don't want to be a balls letting ppl throw here & there .







1樓
1樓搶頭香
dun tink so much lah... =D
2樓
2樓頸推
wei wei,
here's the address of the test...
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx