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July 10, 2010

Change of Address

Hey i change my blog to here:-

www.remembertommy.blogspot.com


June 22, 2010

Waving Flag

The reason this post is here is because im kinda angry today. Why in the heck there's people nowadays are so "I DUN KNOW HOW TO SAY"?
Today should be a good day. Its tuesday. 

Back to the topic, its FIFA season! LOL. This afternoon i went to download the FIFA official anthem "Wavin' Flag" by K'naan.(Kinda slow isnt it?)
Its nice and at least it cheers me up abit.

Ooooooh Wooooooh

Give me freedom, give me fire, give me reason, take me higher
See the champions, take the field now, unify us, make us feel proud
In the streets our head are liftin’, as we lose our inhibition,
Celebration it surrounds us, every nations, all around us

Singin forever young, singin songs underneath that sun
Lets rejoice in the beautifull game.
And together at the end of the day.

WE ALL SAY

When I get older I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom Just like a wavin’ flag

And then it goes back
And then it goes back
And then it goes back
And then it goes back



This sem, is not a bad sem after all. At least i had left behind something as a good memory. Part of it and am looking forward to anew start. I am not sure how long more im gonna need to actually be the real me again. Friends, bear with me for this period. I am worrying my swinging mood might accidentally hurt anyone. 


Temporary this is enough to vent my anger. 1 more thing, ill be changing to blogspot real soon........I AM DONE WITH WRETCH !


May 21, 2010

暂时告一段落了...

暂时,告一段落了...


那些回忆,就留给回忆吧....

你快乐,我快乐,不就是如此而已吗?

放手了,就向前看吧....




没事的,说好了是永远的朋友....就一定要做到哦...



和妳的回忆,我会好好保存的....
小心翼翼的,不遗漏任何一点一滴....


让我成长了那么多,所以
谢谢妳。

 然后,请容许我说
对不起。


May 20, 2010

when an unstoppable force met an unmovable object...

this is a very boring holiday....just like any1 else said it is....

well....it's not just boring to me.....

ytd went to buy 2 new books...

1. 蔡智恒 - 鲸鱼女孩  池塘男孩
2. 藤井树 - 流转之年

haven finish any of it...but started to read the first 1...
the starting is nice...to me....

a few days advance of ytd, i (finally) finished reading 九把刀 - 不是尽力,是一定要做到....
this is a collection of his blog post...some of it....really is nice....
and perhaps this book is the object that accompany me....
through this several i would say hard-to-pass night....





其实,真正想写的,才要开始...
我在想,我们经受得起,一架吗?
我在想,是时候了吧?
我在想,我开始怕了。
我在想,我不相信啊!
我在想,我不该怕我不相信的东西啊!
我在想,我是不是开始相信了?
我在想,应该是。
我在想,那面对吧!
我在想,我有那个勇气吗?
我在想,应该有吧!
我在想,结果会怎样呢?
我在想,我想不到。
我又想,别想了好吗?
我又想,我停不下来。
我又想,为什么我停不下来?
我知道,我在乎。
我问我,在乎什么?
我打我,你是傻了哦?在乎她啊!
我问我,你确定?
我答我,啊不然你会哭?
我在想,也对。
我想问,那妳呢?

这几乎是,我每一天晚上不断重复的脑内对话。
很白痴,不过,很伤,很痛,很寂寞,很无助。
谁能,把我捞起来?拜托了。






23:22          20 05 2010          100+PluS+


March 20, 2010

与期待

是夜晚的寂寞吗?

是想你吧...


你有梦到我了吗?

我想...有吧....

我一直都还是....爱你的....



___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________


还有....
 
旖卿你最近好吗?

我想...没有理想的那么好....

好久...都不曾好好聊天了....

很多事很后悔...可是...

我在责备啊...责备我自己....

我不是一个很好的 buddy....

不断地让忙碌的生活....抹杀友谊....

迷茫吗? 不尽然.......

只想表达的是....也许我已经不那么重要了....

也许很多人都比我好上很多....

可是人类活过就是活过....我不想失去你这个 buddy.....



 
原谅我的 emo.....

夜太深...头太痛...

这不该是...考完试的心情.....

也许....那是止痛药.....




路旁电灯柱下...
没有天使...
只有...
路人得等待...
以及...
回忆...



by  100 +PluS+   20/03/2010   0515


January 31, 2010

我还能说什么呢?

好久哦....


感觉好久哦....









泪照流....





我爱你....




成思念....







天秤...不是天生就用来平衡东西的....


是拿来比较....


比较....是痛的起点....也是梦的终点....




不理了....决定爱.....



就鞠躬尽瘁.....



反正....我能死而复然.....



绝对的...阿不思....




黄俊杰....相信自己....






对于我自己,
我不曾期待什么,
只希望,
这世界因为我而有一点改变。
而,我的世界,
不过就是你的心。


January 7, 2010

正義

突然很想亂寫些什么有的沒的....

什么是正義?
何謂正義?
如何測量正義?

你有可以為正義,做到什么地步....

就像九把刀說的....

如果你看了 blood diamond 有被感動....
那又如何....你有實質的對非洲國家的人民們做了些什么嗎?
而當你到處的在宣揚...我們不應該在享受的當兒浪費....
就像我以前說過的....那是廉價的同情....
不是正義.....


又已經忘記在哪看過....
當一個人要宣揚正義的時候....必定有人受傷....


也許說正義太過遙遠....
我們來說公平好了.....

又何謂公平?
如何測量?

并沒有任何方法對嗎?
公平其實只是個人的一種感覺....
你覺得被傷害了...很自然就會牽扯上不公平...
可是是醬的嗎?

一個人受傷了...就是不公平了嗎?
是否有定律說....公平就不能有人受傷?


每個國家每個城市每個社會每個人類....
都以自己對于公不公平的看法與見解....
而如何在傷害最低限度的人的同時...
避免不公平的發生呢?

那便是....多方面的溝通...
溝通,又是另外一個故事了啊....

今天就寫到這里....

應邀,殺敵去啦!






 07 / 01 / 2010         09 : 23 pm


by         100 +PluS+


January 1, 2010

倒數

應該....


只剩下這里了吧.....


八分鐘....
爸不在....
我和媽在家里?
倒數這詞突然消失在字典中.....

可是又有哪一年....我的倒數是開心的呢....
或是說哪一年我有倒數呢?


七分鐘....
爸依然不在.....
媽很emo....
我該去陪她了.........




六分鐘......
我打字變好慢.....
好希望我在馬六甲.....
戴上面具的寂寞....還叫寂寞嗎?


五分鐘......

四分鐘......

三分鐘......

兩分鐘......

算了....提前....

說一聲....


happy new year........



當時間停止... 
我想要....
好好的哭....
不讓誰看見...

一秒鐘...


 01/01/2010    00:00

100 +PluS+


December 26, 2009

=( =(

是不是該把部落格的音樂換一換了.....

中午 1.18....大白天的.....

眼淚流什么啊流....

媽的....



什么東西都能換....
就父母你換不了....


應該沒有人能理解吧?


December 26, 2009

=(

我該笑了....

過了一整晚了....

明天要面對了....

我開始不知所措了....






是我錯?
如果真的是我.........我不會這么難過....






媽對不起....

我保護不了妳....

可能我連我自己....都救不了....

我會記著這一切一切....

有一天他會后悔的....






媽的....三個星期.....

三個星期后的我....

會怎樣呢?



我不知道.....




哭也哭了....

吵也吵了....

讓也讓了....

還有什么我能做呢?

我好想飛....






从小到大只有妈妈的温暖  为什么我爸爸那么凶
如果真的我有一双翅膀  二双翅膀  随时出发  偷偷出发
我一定带我妈  走  从前的教育
别人的家庭  别人的爸爸  种种的暴力因素一定都会有原因
但是呢  妈跟我都没有错亏我叫你一声爸~  爸我回来了


December 25, 2009

圣誕

整整一個月又一天....

剛剛才從云頂回到馬六甲家里....

累!!

不過乾開心的....

24號傍晚到云頂....跟 dear, burger 兩公婆, siong por 兩公婆, 燈泡三人組 ( ah foo, uYork, yan sieng ).....

唯一一次去云頂沒進 theme park....

晚上和 dear, siong por 兩公婆一起到 first world 找吃的....

本來講好要吃 pizza hut 的....

在那種什么東東都貴上 20-100% 的鬼地方....

pizza hut 是最經濟實惠的...

可是....那排隊的人....就像.....pizza hut 不用錢一樣....長的叻!

后來就繞到了 kenny roger....哪里知道....kenny roger 也好像不用錢.....!!!!!!!!

最后去了一檔名字叫 only mee 的地方吃.....不予置評....在此勸告你們不要去....


后來就跟 dear 在 first world plaza 走走....

順便找我們的圣誕禮物...

dear 本來就很想去雪屋....
 
雪屋.....沒去....可以說好沒吸引力哦.....

雪只會靜靜躺在地上....不會飄的.....

所以就決定沒去啦....

接下來的逛逛吃吃買買看看...就不多說啦.....

總之我是開心的啦....

謝謝 ah foo, yan sieng and siong por....for planning the whole thing....





接下來.....

打些感性的....圣誕嘛...

就是該有些感觸.....

昨晚的圣誕....我遺矢了一樣東西....

讓我從歡騰的倒數中...抽離....

在想....同一個刻度....同一個呼吸的瞬間....

到底有多少種人....再用多少種方式....

在為圣誕賦予他們覺得圣誕該有的意義.....

圣誕的真正意義呢?

家庭聚會?單身派對?二人浪漫晚餐?街頭示威?煙花倒數派對?
還是一些定不出是什么的個人的群體的獨特的慶祝方法....

已經多少人忘記....圣誕....

是一個實現愿望的日子.....不只是自己的.....是所有人的....

在為自己尋找快樂的慶典中....大家....包括我....有沒有想過.....

在我們各自的臉上掛著笑容....狂喊狂呼的時候.....

是不是有另一個自己.....在飄渺人海中某個角落.....

笑不出....喊無聲....呼不樂?

圣誕....一個施舍的季節....已經有本質上的改變了嗎?

我不懂.....



我在這個年頭....讓我想要她快樂的人快樂了....





 



當雪花飄過...
窗外的火柴...
忽明忽暗...
若生命...
若人類...
若你...
若我...
若派對中被遺忘的一盞燈火...

只盼...我們大家...
都能用最堅強的意志...
最豪邁的姿勢...
最驕傲的方式...
好好的活著啊!

圣誕節快樂!

 
25/12/2009
08.53 p.m.

 by     100 +PluS+ 


November 24, 2009

dissolution.

am thinking whether wanna blog in chinese or english.....




华语好了.....


竟然还是一部电影....把我推回这个铁门都快打不开的地方....


最近看了一部电影....2012....


非常好看....


其实很想体验那一种感觉....见证人类历史的重写....


国籍,肤色...都是虚构的....都只是人类管理自己的一套方法....


或者该说是人类压抑自己动物性格的药剂....


回归自然....人类自己是最弱也最没有生存能力的....



昨晚重看了batman the dark knight...


很喜欢joker...也很喜欢几句句对白....


The Joker: " Madness is like gravity, all you need is just a little push."

Gordon: "They'll hunt you." 
Batman: "You'll hunt me. You'll condemn me. Set the dogs on me. "

Batman: "Sometimes, truth isnt good enough, sometimes people deserves more, sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded, 

Gordon: "He's the hero gotham deserves, but not the 1 it needs right now, so we'll hunt him because he can take it, because he's not a hero, he's a silent guardian, a watchful protector,  a DARK KNIGHT."


记得我在之前第一次看这部电影时...也在这里提起过....
很爱这部电影....对白中很多现实世界的事实....


凌晨两点三十分....

很尽力的在读着discrete structure....

很担心公主....他说他睡不着....我想....就算睡着也睡不好吧....

真的很担心...记得照顾好自己...


其实有很多如过眼云烟的想法....如间断的片段...
浮现在脑海中....可是都留不住...

每每开着blog post page....都想不起要说什么....

跟以前的我...差了好远....



星期六....猫下来melaka....

很突然地跑出去....

去jonker...吃吃喝喝玩玩....

才发觉....大家的表情变少了....

不管是谁跟谁....表情已经是空洞的表达....

感觉像是一种氛围....不需要语言不需要表情....

只需要毛细孔...就能感觉到....

兄弟嘛....我不需要知道你的生活....

我只知道你是谁....你需要什么....

而没有必要去想....到底谁对你怎样...

谁现在活在你周围...都不重要....

因为我一直相信的....是不变的兄弟....

既原始又直接的感觉....不需要任何掩饰....任何的照做....

懂你的人....就是懂你....

不懂的人....永远不懂....




深夜...总让人沉思....

我记忆不好....所以我时常回忆....

很多人类都说....回忆伤得太深....

对于我....忘记回忆才是可悲....

by 100 +PluS+     24/11/2009 0247

 


September 13, 2009

Its been some time

Its been some time im absent...


been some time im so busy....


been some time tat im so contented....





well...not gonna emo...

cause im not meant to be....lol...

is tat?



lets talk bout my course....

long long long time didnt mention all those ***t here dy....

haha...


TCE aka digital system....fuyoh....a subject which make me sorrow like hell 1....
imba hard...imba confusing....all bout 1 and 0 and X....
flip flop...decoder....encoder....converter....ah....
so may to memorise...yet so many to understand.....
according to what i saw....80% OF ALL STUDENT in the same lecture like me FAILED THIS SUBJECT....!!
its heck.......lab test is coming....i know how to construct a circuit...but....i dun noe how to design it....argghhh....
so bad....hope the question wont be like the last last last lab session....i m gonna cry and try to burn the lab wit my PSU....


LJB aka Japanese for Beginner....lol....dun get fool by the beginner word....tat is killing me quite badly.....
i got 3 days 8 o'clock morning class....2 of them is japanese....anyone close to me know i often miss or late tat class....
hahahahahaha....and that lecturer...Ms.Adeila....is vr strict on that....so the fireworks begin....
i almost got bar man...luckily she din bar me...but got quite some humiliation when i wont to find her in her room....
though she is sometimes quite mean to those who cant keep up...but i personally dun hate her tat much....
she care for her student....and of course....she is the only lecturer tat is giving us party at the last class...XD
looking forward to her japanese cooking skills...no matter how she stayed in japan for 5 years wat ! should be vr good...ha...
oh ya....the japanese drama is coming....im not at all prepare....dun even have the script yet...and im 27 hours from the drama time....
anytime can come and help me?  oh ya.....im gonna sing YUI's LIFE in the drama...wit a guitar...yor....guitar not the pb....its the lyric!!!
dun noe how to memorise lah~~~~~~~~~~~T.T


TMT aka Mathematical Techniques I....not much to say bout this since its almost the same things we studied in foundation....i mean almost...
not all...lol....but...for lecturer....that's gonna be alot...the female 1....she's pro....but not much to say....typical maths lecturer....lol...
except ororo always love to play wit her in tutorial class....so famous for ororo....haha...
next up...is Mr.Chong Tze Yuang....hope i din spell wrong....haha...he's the most imba lecturer i've met so far in my U life....
he got facebook...that's not all...he got imba picture in his facebook....all of us go and comment in his photo and profile and he will shoot back....
poor PT05 Jason got shoot badly...i mourn for you...XD.....additionally...he got Garena acount....he's playing dota....and he's breaking ppl fountain....lol wat!!!  Lastly....advice of the day from Mr.Chong:" Break your opponent fountain if they are too noob.".....=.=


TCP aka Computer Programming 1....lol...my favourite subject of all...hahahaha...you can see that when im doin my assignment...lol....
got 10/10 for my assignment 1....9/10 for my lab test....LLL!!!
but for sure my written test was a doom day...freaking hard man....20 marks!! no confident at all....T.T
Assignment 2.......IMBA FREAKING IMBA GODLY UNIMAGINABLE HARD for our level...been trying to complete it for 2 days....
with the help from my pro housemate aka pro programmer...yanshieng....salute~~ ^^
yet im not able to finish it until now....timing error....looping error....and lotsa bug which i never met before....deadline is reaching...wednesday need to pass up documentation edi...haizz....fire is burning my eyebrows dy loh!! Anybody who manage to finish before me....pls help me...
Trying to imagine wat we all will be facing in TCP2...function array...more vector....more pointer...oh shit!!  but at least i dun hate this subject....its fun ^^...


TDB aka Database system....not a too hard subject...but as i mentioned once in my facebook status....SQL syntax is too human (its a 4th generation code) until i can predict wat it will look like...unlike other coding i've done before...lol...confusing nia....
We got 4 lecturer for this subject...XD
the first 1...the i-forgot-wat-name lecturer....hmmm....bad impression...the second 1 aka my favourite TDB lecturer...Mr.Teh Pin Shen...hope din spell wrong again...he is so cute...and sometimes so evil....always i am suspecting he is having some EVIL SMILE under his h1n1 prevention mask...
he's still young...still a tutor...ha...but for sure...you will be a great lecturer...some day...may everything bless you~~
Next lecturer is Mr.Gulam....well...i love his lecture as well....he know how to teach vr efficiantly...but for his english....i am sorry i cant help laughing....you will know it when you listen to him...believe me...The last lecturer...which also is our REAL LECTURER....teach us the first class in our last TDB lecture...imba...and i missed the class....so i missed the chance to look at my TDB REAL LECTURER....



LES aka Technical Communication...for this subject...from the first week till the last week...i never listen carefully to any lecture lesson...i oni there got 1 mock meeting...1 project...1 presentation...which is IMPORTANT...and final.....and till now....i still dun noe the format of the fial exam....IMBA leh....hahaha....sometimes i pity the lecturer...her class is always so less ppl....less than 50 % of our total students for this subject....if im the lecturer....i will be so EMO~~...XD




I think that's cukup long dy lah....haha....typing this in JB before leaving....lol....
and ya...i bought my new mp3...or should i say...video walkman....at sonystyle megasales....original price is RM599...
i bought it for RM399...fuyoh....nice....damn nice....love the earpiece so much also....

here's the link of the details: http://www.sony.com.my/product/nwz-s738f

here's some picture of it...


September 1, 2009

蓝色九月...

九月啊...

九号...

很美的数字....





好快哦...

九月了....

but where the **** is my mood?





真的....很烂的一个日期啊....

多少次了....

这一次....又会是一个人的吧....

多少次了....

这一次....也会是用泪敲击出音乐的吧....

多少次了....

这一次....也没人能让我微笑吧....



我想抵赖....

抵赖上面的一切....




哪知....

越抵赖竟越痛....

多少次了....

这一次....也还是会用惯用的手法逼着自己微笑?

多少次看着月...看着自己的梦想....看着星....看着儿时的梦....

决堤的不是洪水....是....

涟漪又泛起了...层层的波涛....



只想对自己骂一声....妈的....















还记得....

加护病房....

灵魂蛋糕....

烟火人生....

记录在案....




期待?
我失望不起....
不期待?
对不起自己....
所以?
我让夜吞噬我....

by 100 +PluS+ 01/09/2009 0118


August 16, 2009

=)

好多天过去了....


依然还是一样的不想update...


很难得的我能想一样事情那么那么的久....


这种快要受不了的....


应该是错觉....


陪了我快十八年....


都过来了....


还不是反反复复...


讨厌了又原谅...


原谅了又讨厌....


偶尔的担心...又偶尔的不想担心....


可是我真的就狠下心了吗?


我还是不能...


















我真的很爱哭hor?

不过算了吧...













到这里...

我想打的东西....

我还不知道是什么....

只是当我看出窗外....

我看不见我的家....

就算我看见了....

我感觉不到....


怎么一直有种很奇怪...

不是很好的感觉...

一直笼罩着心头....

不想了...

不想去想了....

只是很想发泄....

却找不到....

既然找不到....

就傻笑吧....

反正....

在那件事发生之前....

我死不了就是了....






how far you look through the sky?
how far you listen over the time?
how many people think about you each second?
it all depend on how you feel about yourself....

by 100 +PluS+
16/08/2009
11.50 PM



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