My Melody of Life

I don like my current feeling now... a feeling of helplessly & hopelessly where nothing exactly happen in my life ~~ i don like it how i deal with ppl and how ppl deal with me ~~ i don like everything to be uncleared ~~ i don like to trouble anyone surround me yet its troubling me ~~ the most i hate is that, i wish i can stand on my own point without taking care of others feeling but somehow i cant, i cant & i cant !!!

Im glad surround by my great sister & beloved brother but somehow, i don get those be loved from parents & greatness from frens... perhaps, i need to have gratitude heart and letting down my demand ...

but ~~ somehow when i lower my demand, im being paid by the unfair treatment !! i wish ppl understand me, thats why i started to think on their behalf first before i passed a judgement but somehow, they think of themselves first before they make a judgement ~~

now... im questioning my ways of living, do i still need to continue being this way or should i fight back !!! im confuse ~~

God said, Hope, Love, and Faith and above all else, Love comes first ~~ without love, everything will perish but somehow, ppl take advantage on this ~~ 1Cor 13:4-7 doesnt apply to the current world ~~~

A novel about a young girl who sues her parents for the right to make her own decisions about how her body is used when a kidney transplant is planned in order to save her older sister's life.
Anna came into the world via in vitro fertilization, so that she would be a genetic match for her older sister Kate, who was diagnosed with acute promyelocytic leukemia when she was 2 years old. When Anna was born, her cord blood was donated to her sister, but when the leukemia returned, she then had to donate blood and bone marrow. When Kate's kidneys fail, Anna is expected to donate one of her own, but she hires a lawyer to be medically emancipated from her parents and gain the right to make the decision herself. A fateful meeting between Danny Cartwright, an East End cockney garage mechanic, and Spencer Craig, a young West End barrister on the fast track to success, ends in Danny being arrested, convicted of murder--thanks to Spencer, who becomes the prosecution's main witness--and sent to prison, where he spends his time plotting to escape and seek revenge.
Living within New York City's most elite apartment building, five women pursue relationships and personal dreams amid the social and sexual politics of New York's privileged, including comeback-seeking actress Schiffer Diamond, rich-husband-hunting Lola, and high-powered career woman Winnie. By the author of Trading Up.

now i realize

no-1 enjoys because you are complaining ...
no-1 likes to hear your complain ...
no-1 understands why you complain ...
no-1 can comfort you when you complain ...

now i know

its not easy to find a true listener
its difficult to search an understanding heart
its hard to get ppl to stand on your shoes
its complicated when comes to human emotional

and

now i find-out

a soulmate is no where to find
a pillow-mate is only in a dream
a friend is like a wave, shaken in times of difficulties
myself is my true friend ~~

one of the best movie this year ... in which out of all i've watched ... its amazingly real and truth ...

most of the tamil/hindu movie, we cant see the other part of india but in this movie, we can see the suffering from the lower class of india community... how the suffer and struggle to survive, and what they do for living ...

its kinda pity and i started to view my life differently .. its a-must-watch movie !!