Love

AHA! What you can think about when you’re having your big business in the toilet? Oh well, I think of him, think of one of the scenario when I first know him. It’s considered quite a long time ago but it’s still fresh in my mind.

Back then when both of us were in the OC camp, he was my group leader (since he’s the 1^st one talk to everybody). Hehehe… well, having a super senior and great experienced group leader is a good thing because we are being protected. Plus on there’s only 3 girls (including me) within 10 group members, all of us (girls) get more protection. On the 1^st night, I accidentally bruise myself. So, I can’t go for the 2^nd day’s activities. The whole night I didn’t sleep at all due to the pain gain from the bruise. Other than chatting with Uncle Yeo and Min Jie, I sat outside the camp, felt the wind flow through my hair and watched the sun rise. It’s quite a nice environment to live at.

After that, everybody start to wake up. Then, my brain told me to inform my group leader about me unable to follow for the activities. I did. At that moment, he asked me twice of “Are you sure you don’t want to go?”. (Actually, I really hope that I can follow you to that Mud War! But I can’t!) Sadly, I only can see them from far and waiting for you to come back. When you came back from that, I just realized how playful this guy can be. (because he wouldn’t care about other thing when it comes to “PLAY”.)

There’s still a lot of sweet memory during that period. It’s so sweet and fresh in my mind. I wish to tell the whole world how we recognize each other but I’m just too lazy to type it all out. Even though I’m lazy to type it all out, I will still type this. 

I LOVE YOU

Usagi

Basically, I'm just at this kind of moment.

Before and after of the dark, there will always have lights.

Today, I felt difference.
I think from different view.
I see different things.
Maybe, it's the time for me to grow up again.

First of all, I think u guys will thought that my offer being rejected but it’s actually his offer being rejected. Hmm… it’s difficult to say whether I’m wrong or right in this issue. I’m turning down his mood because I rejected his offer. I know that very well but I just dun want him to use too much money on me. I dun think its worth to pamper me until that kind of level. Might in your view, you just want to pamper your girlfriend, make her happy. Yup, it’s true enough but I dun worth it. I didn’t ever expect you will do that and asking me which one you want, I buy for you. I dint ever buy something without think twice. That’s why I will reject your offer. Sorry, dear.

I’m happy you wanted to buy that for me. I’ll keep it in heart and remember it. Thanks, dear. I’m glad that I have you with me during my tough time. I dun want others; I only want you. Having you is enough for me.

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Everyone back home because they want to feel the warmness from their family members. But me, in the opposite, I feel it’s meaningless for me to back home. I and my sis had been sleeping in the living room for that few days when we are back. It’s fine. Then, my mum starts to request for shifting house because this house is hot. She can’t stand it. Well, both of us went to that new place before. It’s low cost flat. If my mum really shifts there, I and my sis dun even have a place to sleep in the living room. In summary, we will go back only when it’s needed.

Today, there’s Taiko playing with emina people at jaya jusco. I went for it. And who knows I did a wrong decision just because of I’m playful. I bet with another guy with my Dearest as bait. I thought it will be ok as I dun think I’m really sux but I really sux at it. I HATE myself for losing you to other ppl. I’ll NEVER EVER take my DEAREST as my bait anymore. NEVER EVER!!! Even it’s just a game! It feels hurt when other people own him. I drop into my moody pool and I even took his psp to play. After all, I dint tell him face to face about my feelings. In the other hand, I choose to text him about my feelings. What the hell? Can’t you just tell him your feelings? He’s your boyfriend. He’s not random people. Just say it out! You won’t die!

Again, I HATE myself for being coward, stubborn, useless and emotional. Why I will get emo? It’s just a game. What a big deal? There’s a lot of question float in my mind but I dun feel like find an answer for every question. In opposite, I feel like crying….

*Trying to convince myself it’s just a game.

currently raining heavily outside

i just finished my bath. Before that, i accompany him at some place. He did something to me in public... wuwuwu...... but i like naughty guy.Both of us will hug each other publicly, holding hands publicly... haha... feel sweet...

k la.. nth much to write... i think i'm gonna sleep soon... sleep in the sugar dream...

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Haha…. Dun know whether you have this ability or not? I can type in dark with the light intensity from my LCD screen. It’s not very bright. Basically, you cant see any keys. Well, I used to type in dark as I like to type my post in the midnight so that I have the privacy to type whatever I want. Pity my roommate always sleep with my PC turning on.

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Now is actually morning 5.16am and I just accompany my dear go makan. This whole night is nice. I like it. I feel I’m being owned and now I’m energetic.

By the way, I’m going to study a bit before I fall into my sweet bed and sweet dream. While typing for this post, I’m listening music. Do you believe? When you are in good mood, no matter what kind of music you are listening, you will feel it’s nice music. This is psychologically effect.

*Today I felt different.

That day, I went to KLCC. I went there myself since my sis had her exam in the morning. She went out when I’m still in pig condition (sleeping). Thus, I had my own journey to KLCC with my touch n go card in hand. Well, I’m very lucky. The train arrived the platform just as I went up to the staircase. I quickly scan the card and rush myself into the little mobile cabinet. After several stations, I need to change to Putra but I don’t really know the exact platform entrance. So, do you know what I do? Follow the huge batch of people cross the road and just follow them. As long as there are people, the entrance probably is there. Amazingly, I reached the platform. Waiting for 5 minutes, tick-tock, tick-tock, … … another train came to my front. (Looking at the advertisement board, 5 minutes seems very boring) At last, I reached the final destination!

I walk through the tunnel which I’m familiar to it. (Because I been there before with someone and friends) Once I reached the KLCC building, I sms my sis saying that I reached. She replied she still waiting for her friend and will be there in a while. She asked me to window shopping while waiting her.  Well, I rarely been to KLCC as its high class, high standard places which sell expensive stuff there. I will probably get missing in this building easily. In this case, I go around just to find the KLCC guide and I got it! I go through the guide for about 5 minutes and decided to go my faviourite place which is TOYS”R”US!!! Hehehe…. (I’m still a baby, don’t forget…)

TOYS”R”US

I became a kid when I stepped into the shop. I saw a lot of toys there. Go through section by section in a slow pace while enjoying the oldies that they played. Hmm… I like it. I miss it. The feeling was so good! At that moment, there’s no reality, there’s no hurt, no pain. Everything is simple and nice!

Until I almost finish my last section, my sis called and asking for my location. Huh… spoilt my mood but nevermind. She promised that I can come back after meet her. Hehe… ^ ^

After walking around, I meet her just the corner around TOYS”R”US. Gosh…. Wasting my energy when my sis just around that corner. = = Well, continued my simple and nice world. I finished going through all the toys and end up I didn’t buy anything. Haha… I always like this. Although I like to visit TOYS”R”US but doesn’t mean I need to buy something. I just like the feeling being surrounded by lots of toys, enjoying the music being played and walking in my own pace.

Next will be…

KINOKUNIYA!!! The only one in Malaysia.

Me and my sis like to visit this bookstore because we are given the option for wide categories of books. I like there, the environment just nice, the music volume moderate and I’m able to read books which can’t get at usual bookstore even at MPH or BORDERS.

Today, I chose a book which related to relationship as recently I started my relationship. I dun have the time to read it word by word, page by page but I’m able to flip through every page in that book. Well, we spend around 4 hours at there.

At the end, we went back to where we should be. It’s a very nice journey. I like it. When I reached KLCC by myself, I feel I’m independent. Eventually I feel good. I no longer need anyone to accompany me to do something. Maybe I like the adventurous feeling when I do not really know how to reach that place. It’s quite a good experience for me :)