angelhood filled with sheep
best party last night. It was themed "heaven and hell" and I went in my white dress and white fluffy jacket. When Jesus (Shiromani) came she had a lamb toy in her pocket which she put in the hood of my jacket. Thus I got downgraded to sheep. But according to Mitch I was a hot sheep lol. Got seriously high with laughing, singing, dancing, kidding around.
I unashamedly cuddled my boy. People came by to ask if he was my boyfriend. We were both like, haha, no.
"He's my best friend."
"She's like my little sister"
When Nelson asked if I was his girlfriend, I wished it was the case. When he said no and Nelson asked "is she nearly your girlfriend", again I wished I was lol.
I am seriously addicted to his cuddles though. I can never ever ever seem to get enough. I miss seeing him already. He makes me feel safe and loved. He makes me want to sing out loud and laugh and smile and be happy. If only we felt differently towards each other. It can be different though....maybe? When he warmed my hands I wanted to cry from joy because he cared. I don't give a damn how much I give for a little return. Sounds desperate? I know it does, but I've lost so much and so little can make my heart soar.
I know that what means most to me wouldn't mean most to him. I just like being with him though.









