April 30, 2012

I won't give up on us


And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far


April 30, 2012

Hello my little private corner

The older I am, the more privacy I need for myself..I don't think it's usual that I type on the blog as I'm totally not a Blogger..

After talking to Fran tonight, it was really inspiring..Rather than trying to push myself to forget about you, Fran reminded me a better way, which is how to put myself into your shoes and think what it's the best for you. You know it has happened for almost a year, and the thing is, the progress is taking very slow to get over you. Even though we don't talk, I'd still wonder how you are doing. I guess now I understand if I was a burden for you, I'd choose to leave you alone, rather than asking you why don't you give it one more chance. To be honest, I feel ashamed when I looked back how I reacted to you. It was totally a disaster. Begging a person to date with myself, what the hell i was thinking about? Didn't I feel annoying when I did so? I can only say that the "love" took away my rationality. Anyways, I always thank God for having you in my life, as the belief I have been holding on is that God has planned all these to make oneself be a better person, by learning from the mistakes. Everything has a reason. I admitted that I wonder if there is a chance for us to get back again, but the thing is how would it be worked out when we don't even talk? or At least we can be friend? Knowing that we are just nobody in the world when we are in the same time zone and working pace, it is quite torturing. But well again, back to the point, if it is the best for you, I'd go for this too. I will feel happy too when I see you are doing something happy, just like while seeing my besties wearing a big smile because of her guy, I am smiling too. That's what Love is all about. I am not sure the love towards you is something about a guy, or a friend, but at least you're special to me, OR a special friend to me whom I always want you to have a wonderful life with God's grace.



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