一天过了一天 我的日记却病恹恹

行ってきます!
(^-^)ノ~~

9 days have passed.
I still can't find the courage to do something about it.

私は何をするべきですか？

It sucks to know that you're alone facing all these shitty problems.
And yet people do not understand a thing or even appreciate what you did.

And some people can just be so insensitive to others' feelings.
Why can't they just be more humble and help those in need instead?
They think that they rule the whole world.
If it's a crime to not be good at something, then send us all to jail.
Put yourselves in our shoes please.

Sigh.
┐(´ー｀)┌

助けて！

I hate being caught up in an awkward situation.
I really do.

Holidays come, holidays go...
School has started in a blink of an eye.
The holidays were well spent doing things I like doing and catching up with friends.
Watched lots of Japanese drama and anime.
(^_^)V

There has been ups and downs since school started.
Things which really really upset me and things which warm my heart.

I just hope everyone around me will be happy.
Then, I will be happy too.

ちくしょう!

Feel like smashing my alarm clock on the floor.
Irritating.


I shall get a new alarm clock soon.

I've been feeling really really down lately.
No one's there when I needed someone to talk to.
No one's willing to listen to me.
No one cares.
No one loves me.

I feel so out of place.
I'm so lost.

Have been suffering from insomnia lately.
I lie on bed for hours.
Thoughts keep clouding my mind.
Tears start to fall uncontrollably.

长大以后 我才发现
我是个没有人要的孩子

The bus ride back home from Japanese class freaked me out.


I was sitting by myself on a two seater seat.
After a few stops, many people boarded the bus.
Then, an indian man took the seat next to me.
He kept moving closer and closer to me.
And he kept looking at my direction.
(I wasn't wearing anything revealing.)

His elbow kept MAKING CONTACT with my hips.
OMG~~~
I tried to AVOID it as much as possible.
Kept moving towards the right.
I even had to lean off the seat but still...

SIGH.

Couldn't take it anymore so I changed my seat when there were seats available at the back.
(The bus was very crowded.)

I'm not sure if it was done on purpose.
He's not fat or anything.
He probably wanted to have the window seat and was trying to get me to move to another?
Maybe...

Or maybe he really felt as though he was going to fall off his seat.



I SHALL FORGET THIS.

Today's a bad bad bad day.
Hur hur.
TT

Power supply was cut off while I was preparing for school.
Took half an hour before the power supply came back.
My wardrop "collapsed" again.
Didn't dress up properly today.
Was late for school and I'm not sure if I missed out anything for that 20 minutes.

Feel like screaming my lungs out and then teleport to somewhere.
Somewhere where hatred doesn't exist.
Somewhere where there's only love and peace.

I wanna go to a place.
A place where love and feeling good don't ever cost a thing.

T.F.
Do they even exist?