all this while I've sense that something is wrong about me
ever since i entered a breathless life like this current year
i didn't really aim nor I put extra effort on my studies
maybe it's already been a habit that i acepted naturally
after stepping into the labarotary on the first day of school,
our daily routine are always repetitive,
i was like doing the same things for 5 days a week,
and there are only two days for me to actually have my spare time.(hey exclude sats!)
that's nothing wrong actually.who doesn't felt like i am?
when i was looking back at my old articles a moment ago,
i fknew i lose the motivation n determination to aim high
my dreams was exception..but in fact back to studies,
im getting weaker and weaker..how dare I neglect things like this?
this year there may be many changes in the environment around me,
well i broke most of my promises to myself n as an excuse,
i blame the environment that caused me so.
haha.don't laugh.i blame i have too hardworking friends around me.
duh pitiful rite =_= my friends -> they r innocent lol
but sincerely, im too spoiled by my stupid paboh minded..i lend hmwks n copy from friends
i barely have any of those uneasiness because as i thought,
i had finished my work,things done,i don't need to mind if i dun understand it.
very shameful rite?
indeed.So happened that I have such inteligent friends does not make a good excuse at all
They s'ppose to give me a good whack n then pull me awake from my lovely dreams
And I s'ppose to be more eager after seeing a bunch of kids like them haha
BUT?! who knows? god knows that for my own sake i did so much sinful things =__=
ie sleeping , playing , enjoying and relaxing are mistakes.
waste of time.yeah.best actions to describe "WASTE" are my behaviours this yr
i've been a loser but this year seems like i dont mind to lose anyway ><
when should I get alive n face everything firmly like before?
as time passes i thought the moment that i could stop all the nonsense is almost thr
bt look at me,i never take things seriously!
even there are times which I need to be serious,im still nt bothering bout time
I knew there are still 2 months left for me to study
ahh ppl say "ya la form 4 honeymoon year mar" , that are all lies that kept me from awakening
Dad is right, all his gens r clever , i can be clever as my sis if i work harder,
don't think that sis never work hard n she is borned with a brain gifted,
she work twice harder too.
maybe.i should stop typing craps n thinking craps .
sometimes i just think that through typing i can reflect myself clearly
bt nah it does not work everytime. forfully i should just call everything a fullstop.
Maybe after i wake up the next morning,or no doubts that after sunday morning,
this stupid person will go back to clever n thoughtful again.
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