[小蘿蔔一大蘿的rubbish]

after physics paper 3 it feels like A levels are over hahaha. MCQ is ... :\ going to be neglected. going to! D: i'm going to be free from EXAM stress and whatever freaking kind of stress from my parents for 4 months :D WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (i contemplated letting the E manifest but i decided against it for the benefit of my readers, you)

and so karene will be back to the happy old her (: and i'll be back to blog more often :D though i didn't really go on a hiatus :$

there're just so many things to be done after exams! i'm getting all excited thinking about it XD

i used to think that 2 years of jc life was just the tip of an iceberg to how society would be like, and after jc i would be able to survive in the outside world. but now i realise that it wasn't merely about prepping me, but about learning how i should remain as happy as i can even when i'm in situations.

and helping out at 小风车@TTP today was fun (: rather sedentary 'cos i was dealing with a class of 6 five/six-year-olds, and basically i was just making sure they wouldn't run out of the class, and they won't kill one another. though i wasn't spared from the noise and pestering and all i felt really quite happy looking at them. cos they're always smiling, and the smile bounces back real fast even though they were frowning away 10 seconds ago because the teacher scolded them. and their drawings are brightly coloured, every single piece had a smiley sun and clouds attached to it. cute right (: but now i'm drinking a lot of water hahaha. was dehydrated from my day :\

it's one more month to christmas! (: start preparing presents everyone! :D must remember a share of presents for ME :D i dont mind receiving parcels btw :D
  

i forgot about it, but remembered again! hahahah and i was too lazy :\ so i doodled.



fangzhou wants me to tell the world his IQ is 56 and he's mildly retarded only!

and this clarification is upon request of my laoba, who insists his hair isn't ugly. okay fine, i phrased it wrongly, but i merely meant that the drawing of his hair is ugly. the original is FINE!

last night, after i sent the last sms for the day, i slept and had the sweetest dream i had in this whole period of time. but sadly, dreams don't always come true, unless you do something about them.

Outside ~ Taylor Swift

I didn't know what I would find
When I went looking for a reason, I know
I didn't read between the lines
And, baby, I've got nowhere to go
I tried to take the road less traveled by
But nothing seems to work the first few times
Am I right

So how can I ever try to be better
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
I've been a lot of lonely places
I've never been on the outside

You saw me there, but never knew
That I would give it all up to be
A part of this, a part of you
And now it's all too late so you see
You could've helped if you had wanted to
But no one notices until it's too
Late to do anything

How can I ever try to be better
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
I've been a lot of lonely places
I've never been on the outside

Oh Yeah

How can I ever try to be better
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
I've been a lot of lonely places
I've never been on the outside

Oh oh oh oh oh

Place in this World

I dont know what i want, So dont ask me, cause im still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road,
im just walking.
Trying to see through the rain coming down.
Even though im not the only one,
that feels the way i do.

Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know.
I'll be strong, i'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans,
And im wearing my heart on my sleeve. Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Can you tell me what more do i need?
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah,
but that's okay.

Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know.
I'll be strong, i'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Maybe im just a girl on a mission,
but im ready to fly.

Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know.
Oh, i'll be strong, i'll be wrong.
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, im alone, on my own,
and that's all i know.
Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Oh, im just a girl.
Oh, im just a girl.
Oh, oh.
Oh, im just a girl.

One Discovery.com author wrote there are nine ways to tell if the love you have for your partner is the real thing:

1. You feel good.
2. You look forward to spending time with your partner.
3. You respect your partner.
4. You're interested in what your partner thinks.
5. You accept your partner's quirks.
6. You're able to work through your problems.
7. You feel safe. (You're not afraid of losing your partner.)
8. You can't explain why you're together.
9. You don't compare your partner to others.

这样看来，真的有比我还要白痴的人。有些连我都想通了的事，他们都还在绕圈圈。执着和顽固只是一线之差，可惜很多人成了顽固派。该放手的时候还是放手好了，不然闹到来受伤的不只是自己。你们到底明不明白啊？难道都没有人觉得自己很自私吗？都没有人觉得应该站在他人的立场想一想吗？难道一定要搞到大家关系都僵掉了你们才甘愿吗？真是他妈的。

唉我也真是的。干吗那么激动？

不知道最近是怎么了，心里总是怪怪的，时不时就到太空走一圈才回到现实。

特别的一句“生日快乐”献给特别的你 (:

人难过的时候总会觉得自己是最惨的，可是往往周遭的人或多或少都会受到某种牵连。
像因为遭受到某种拒绝或打击而难过，表现得自己很凄惨，除了能搏人同情之外呢？
说实在的，周围的人或多或少都会受到某种影响吧？
拒绝你的人可能会感到愧疚，或者暗暗高兴看到你难过，
关心你的人只能尽量的安慰你，开导你，希望你早日走出阴霾。
但这又是何必呢？
难过一会儿，就 get over it 吧。一直不断的难过只是让大家一起难过罢了。
还是套句老话：是你的跑不掉，不是你的握得再紧也一定会跑掉。

我真是白痴，干嘛要对自己说这番话？哈哈哈。

人生跑道上若累了，就放慢脚步吧。千万不要停下来，否则再起步真的会很难。

昨天在细雨绵绵的傍晚到跑道上走了一圈，想了很多，也感悟了很多。原来短短的400米跑道也是那么有启发性的。

很多时候我对自己想
为什么世界总是这个样子
于是我喜欢
退到我小小的弹珠世界里
躲在那厚厚的玻璃层的保护下
任人踢，任人砸
我只会滚来滚去
都不会受伤
而我，也可以透过落地窗户看狂涛骇浪
可以看天窗外翻腾着的乌云
还有很多很多可以
却又不会受伤

或许是思想太过偏激吧，但是我真的很庆幸再过三个星期我就真的脱离苦海了。读书真的不苦，苦的是人生。我曾经很幼稚的以为人与人之间的接触是很有趣的，现在我知道了，那不叫有趣，那叫多层面。现在想起来，高小明割手掌拉长生命线其实真的并不是很荒谬。

shut up, me. shut up.

looking at those photos of our 203 days was really fun, and i had a great time laughing at myself. thanks irenemummy :D

and i realised my fetish for pulling other people's hair developed since way back! especially my emotional attachment to jiaying's ponytail (:

how fun those days really were, especially preparing for choral and drama night (:

"if you marry me princess, you will live in a castle full of windows"(i can't remember the exact lines hahaha)

to jiaying (: "don't listen to him princess, he's full of hot air!"

mace window says hi to all (: he misses his bald cap by the way :P

well as jellylee put it, 杀出一条血路. i think i came out with many injuries sustained. not too sure about that actually, but what can i expect with such unconventional questions hahaha. zuowen was a O.O complete with nonsensical blabberings :D and guwen was equally disastrous with 于天师's unluckily true prediction on 陈情表 :\ compre was the best, i really 无法超然 when i saw the questions :\ summary was just... 无法分辨是非黑白 :\

hohoho yes that's cll for me. 

but the day went fine, and talking to xiaoxinxin about some stuff was... nice i suppose (: sadly there're not many such chances anymore ):

that's one paper down for me (: now i look forward to the 10th :D

wow it's november already :\ tomorrow's the 1st paper D: hopefully by the end of the month, i'll still be alive! maybe with many injuries sustained, but i'll keep myself alive!

and maybe it's time to re-think about what i want to do after As. things change a lot, and i guess i'll have to change along with them. there're some things i can no longer look forward to, some things that will never happen anymore. but that doesn't change some of the things that people have promised me!

like A STEAMBOAT TREAT FROM MY MORTAL XD haha i suddenly remembered that last night 'cos of the cool weather :P (oops and your pao mian :D)

and I STILL WANT MY 爱心便当 FROM REBECCA! i don't care i just want that :\ even if it means i'll die from eating it :\ it's a way too belated birthday present!
 
that's about all for now i guess. before i really shut myself away from the rest of the world after As (: maybe karene would be a non-existent person by then! cool :D

life is just about accepting ugly truths.

i'm still alive yaye.

HELP!!! ):
 
I'VE RESTORED MY PHONE SETTINGS 6 TIMES AND IT STILL DOESN'T WORK!!!

THE MESSAGE STORAGE IS LIKE... NEVER READY D:

-DIES-

YAYE :D MR PHONE HAS MADE A COMEBACK :D IT HAS REVIVED :D WITH MY PRO CPR SKILLS :D