宿命
放假了
就這樣
沒時麼好講的
這學期還OK啦
很忙
忙來忙去不知道在幹嘛
被tc拋棄囉
沒關西
我OK的
前兩個禮拜發生了很多很奇怪的事
我也不知道要怎麼解釋
被開刀很不爽
總覺得事被人丟到巴士下
don't throw me under the bus foos.
統計指有A- 是我搞砸了
這學期應該是全A的
唉
A-還是不錯吧?
上不了dean's list就是了
可惜
肩膀上有淚水
雖然有點不知所措
但感覺很不錯呦
可是我真的不知道接下來要怎麼辦
有點頭痛
最近在聽老歌
"下不停的細雨打醒我的傻" - 動力火車, 不要怪我
希望cupertino也來一場大雨把我大醒
我現在真的覺得我很傻
定好的原則 越來越難守住
看來我沒有想像中的鐵
我身邊的人啊
幫幫我OK?
不要扯我的後腿 = =
So i think i've fallen
shit
i thought i'd be better than that
not necessarily do better than that
but just BE better than that.
i still think my principles are valid
despite the overwhelming voices deep inside that tell me to break free.
i need to fine my center again, i honestly think im somewhat lost
actually, im more blinded by the presence.
i can't seem to get my shit straight.
im going bipolar
it's a battle between yes and no
i didn't think any of this crap will happen to me
i like being in control, and i am honestly not in control right now
i hate it that my life now is driven by your presence.
but at the same time, i love having your presence
i hope someone will scoop your presence out of my world
but my world would suck without your presence.
better yet, maybe you'll just disappear or go back to where you were before
but i'll miss it for sure
meh, why is life such a pain in the ass
just when i thought i had all my crap lined up
this happens
honestly, sometimes it's better to be in the chase
than to have it sit in front of your face and not know what to do with it
i hate to say it, but i need some help
i don't even know what to say at this point
sometimes i just don't feel like i belong
sometimes i just feel like walking away
sometimes i do~~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKq8u5XUGDM
Anyways....
早點醒來早點面對現實
細雨來吧
讓我找回應有的宿命
"I need a little hope in my life"
sigh

Sealed (Sep 11)