Luv me....

Its the first weekend of the last semester... dead tired... 1 weekend doesnt seems enough, especially when there's stil FYP to do....

And tml is that stupid old freak's lesson... i wonder how am i gonna survive tml... Wish me gd luck!!! *pray*

i still hope that you 2 can faster okay and be lik before.. (your shld know who u are..)


And lastly... its been 2 years since i started this blog... and i am stuck with the word "helplessgirl" for the blog address... i dun want to be that anymore... plus the "comment" thingy, many had bad feedbacks that they either find it troublesome or dunno where to comment... so, i have decided to try out at blogspot... i hope i will find it good eventually... if not i maybe switching back to "wretch" again....

I have sent out the invitations for my new blog... so ppl, please check ur mail!!! i will be waiting for your tags.... keke~



I gonna miss blogging here... so at times i may come here and blog again i think.. so have a lookout if u are interested.. =)

Yr3sem2 day1


Supposed to do smthg about my fyp for tml's meeting but just felt like having some time to blog.....

Someone told me the wind brings blessings. Can i take it for real? It's a thai belieft.... but is it applicable to Singapore??

My "21" candle just give me the 预感that my 21st year of my life is not going to be a good one... haix... if i knoe this would happen, i would rather just have a simple get along birthday celebration cum dinner for my 21st birthday with my few good frens.....

The news that came right after my birthday really make me feel down... i would not be in the same class as my 2 gong zu then to kena this this bad luck to have FYP and 1 module under that stupid old freak.... (sorry my 2 gongzu.. ) haix....



And today my 2 gongzu had smthg unhappy that caught between them... it makes me sad too... i couldnt help much.. And we were all supposed to go for ice cream tgt as i offered to treat them ice-cream... but chuchu in the end didnt join us.. (chuchu, i am not blaming u.. )

Its only a small matter.. i think everything will be okay tml... no worries... maybe they were both tired thats why the mood was not really good bah.....



I will be in Iris' class tml.. i wonder how would things be like.... it's been a year since we were in the same class...


Tml after school, they will fyp meeting... the meeting starts at 4pm.. and guess wad? if it drags to after 5pm, we all have to wait till 6pm for him to continue the meeting lah!!!! WTH!!



EDMUND CHAN IS AN ASSHOLE!!!!

I have been getting comments that my frens do not know to leave a comment on this blog of mine... So i have created a 'blogspot' blog...

Yes, it would be more user-friendly.. but i have to get used to the blogspot style. And secondly, i think feel that if leave a comment or message, it would be more sincere and meaningful....

So wad should i do?

hmm.. as i am typing this entry, 1st Sept is over... haix.. i am feeling quite down now.. why? Cuz i am having the aftermath depression.

The stay at chalet is over. The celebration is over. The crowd is gone. NObody can wish me happy bday again until next yr. No sleeping as late 3AM or even not sleeping... NO more of my royaties by my side.. EVERYTHING IS OVER!!!!

i miss every moment of my stay at the Costa Sands pasir ris... SOb Sob~ can i turn back time??




From the decision of having the celebration at chalet, to inviting frens, to the preparations to the actuall celebration itself... there are quite a few things i am disappointed or discontented about.. but i shall not mention here... Ps..

Maybe being a perfectionalist is always hard..


but i will be okay Soon bah....


School starting in 2 days... SIANed!!

But i can see all my darlings again!!! whee!!! whahahahaha.....


Hope my year ahead would be a better then the past 20years.... *pray*

Supposed to meet up Tim and chuchu ytd to shop for stuffs for my big day at Spotlight with sebas help... but Tim last min cant join us.. so just me and chuchu...

Accompanies chuchu go funan to have her laptop fixed before going spotlight.... After which we went for dinner at the "RED TOMATOES" at PS.. there's an ofter where by i can have my spagetti carbonara upgraded by $2.90, and i get to enjoy a drink and soup of the day with just 10bucks!! COol rite??? And the ofter if not wrong is 2-6pm.. all of us cant finish the food that we ordered lah... cuz just the pasta itself, its already very filling liao.... then sebas went off awhile to get the stuffs bought for us at a super low price can?? (sHh.....) thanks thanks!!

after that the 3 of us went to take train to cityhall before going on seperate ways as sebas is meeting his dad, while me and chuchu went back funan to collected the laptop...

And feeling bloated, chu and i decided to walk instead... our destination was taka.. we were unsure of how to walk from funan to taka lah... we only know that way unless we are at PS area.. But we managed to reach orchard with 1 hour of walking.. oMG!!! Phew~~ legs damm tired lah.. but we need go shop for other stuffs at the Art friends before we could actually accomplish todays mission..

Then after getting more stuffs, we went to the coffee club to have a drink and take a rest... And we order a piece of cake to share too!! its a chocolate mint cake... keke.. it's the first time i ever had a cake with mint la... =p

And time flies.... soon its 10pm ler.. Time to go home le.. =(

I hope i could still enjoy your gd company for the years to come!!! muacks!!!









hmmm.. went home and got a damm gd bdae suprise... rework!! win liao lo... Dun care.. my big day is my priority now!!!







i dunno how to help u... feel bad that i cant help u.. and it saddens me more is that one of the problem between ur is me... keeping this whole thing as a secret is gonna be a tough job!! hope that things will turn out fine!!! *pray*

hmm... i have set a test for myself... i brave one i suppose...

if this test i make it... I can confidently say.. i have gotten over it..

Good Luck to myself!!!

hmmm... switching to blogspot soon... but in the meantime... here's a blog to my writings..

http://hear-my-mind-n-heart.blogspot.com/

sometimes, i think i am a bad friend....

i am not sensitive enough..
i am not helpful enough..
i am not thoughtful enough...

haix... sometimes just tired of mixing with ppl....

Preview of Esther's bdae celebration

well well well..... Finally The Rush gang had a complete family on 19th August for esther's bdae celebration cum gathering.... lolx... It's just so hard to have everyone in the gang to turn up....

The day was fun lah.... great food, great people, great games and a great gathering!!! whee!!! we should have more meet ups... maybe once a month?? lolx....

I haven got whole of all the fotos from our "photographer of the day".. so still then... here's a mini preview... EnjoY!!














The 10 dollar ktv

Met up with tangtang, Charps and Shiny ytd for Singing sessions at the TEN DOLLAR family KTV.. so damm cheap can??? For only 10bucks, u can sing for 5 long hours, free flow of drinks and a bowl of shark's fin soup (fake one of cuz)... And the room is big can!!! Had a fun time singing and my voice sux lah!!!

Anyway, after singing.. we had our dinner just downstairs of the ktv.. cuz there was the whole street of local foods there.. and the set up was kinda cool as its the 60's street style... whahahaaa.... =)

i ordered the hokkien mee... NICe Nice!! its kinda long that i last had a delicious plate of it..

then after dinner... we went to THE CENTRAL.. to get my shoes... and yeah, i got my shoe.. but i still need to get the slippers cuz my slipper now really cannot make it lah!!!

And shumin was at her shop working... went to say hi to her.. lolx.. and i thought could go home with her.. but she is meeting her BF lah... meet me ma!!! at least i treat u better... (Ops!!) Anyway, it was home sweet soon after.. cux cannt find my slipper and everyone seems to be abit sian liao... maybe singing too much and got tired....

Girl: Talk to her!
Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
Girl: Don't say that. You're amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won't like me...
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell.
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say?
Girl: Tell her how much you like her!
Boy: I tell her that daily.
Girl: What do you mean?
Boy: I'm always with her. I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem, but he'll
never like me...
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh some boy.
Boy: Oh... she won't like me either
Girl: She does.
Boy: How do you know..?
Girl: Because, who wouldn't like you?
Boy: You.
Girl: You're right, I dont like you, I love you
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.

? Girl: Do I ever cross ur mind?
Boy: No.
Girl: Do u like me?
Boy: Not really.
Girl: Do u want me?
Boy: No.
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No.
Girl: Would u live 4 me?
Boy: No.
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose -- me or ur life.
Boy: My life.


The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason u never cross my mind is becuz ur always on my mind.
The reason y I don't like u is becuz I love u.
The reason I don't want u is becuz I need u.
The reason I wouldn't cry if u left is because I would die if u left.
The reason I wouldn't live for u is becuz I would die 4 u.
The reason y I'm not willing to do anything 4 u is becuz I would do everything 4 u.
The reason I chose my life is becuz u R my life. ?

I once thought the above scenario would come true.... but it didnt happen... It was the other version, just like wad i think it will be ..... And guess the answer gave me a better reason to let go...

It's been quite a while since i last saw him... i used to see him everywhere i go... but now, there's lesser of him everyday... i guess this is a good sign for me to move on... everything seems to have a plan... and this time, its just another dream to learn and grow....

but i guess i am worried about wad would it be like if i see him..... will my efforts be erased? or would it be prove that i have got over him? i hope its a prove....



My mind now... Half of it is on my birthday.. the other half.... abit on the guy i saw that day... his smile is just so nice and warm... the way he look into my eyes... and i regret not smiling back.. lolx.. but he seems so perfect.. i really i hope i can meet him again.. with a better situation where we could actually make frens with each other at least... the way he looked at me.. seems like he knew me and wanna say "hi"..

Everyone in the Rush gang are attached.. except me.. faizal has always been the one asking about the BF/GF and the future... And these 2 Qns really beat me down.... Not say i nobody want.. but if i would just be tgt with Victor which even liking him and just making use of him as a company and shoulder to rest on... it would cause a even greater hurt to him... but sometimes i did thought about giving him a chance... but.. my brain says NO... but my heart needs the warmth... wad should i do?

As for my future... too many ideas i suppose...

Sent out my invitation SMSes... only afew replied.. and there's already 5 of them not going.... haix..

i wonder if this is the karma for not going to Shaggy's bdae celebration....

Maybe my planning is a failure... i am always poor at it... haix....

i dun want to have my 21st birthday be like any other birthdays that i have been thru for the last 20years (except my 20th bdae).... I want it to be part of my memory which i can recall and smile... and not having it as a regret that my 21st birthday is just a normal day... =(

i really hope it turns out Good....

i hope it will be a memorable one.....








memorable... or Regret.....

ATTENTION!!!

I am having a Birthday chalet on 31 August 2008. @ Costa Sand (Pasir ris).

18 August


Met up with tim at bugis to have our eyebrow trimmed at Bugis SASA.. but back out.. cuz the place was too 'open' to public liao.... so we went AJISEN to makan before gg suntec to go for the threading near the Cinemas... But again we back out cuz will abit 'open' and that i think if chinese do can communicate better.... so we decided to for it at this 'I nuovi Professional'.. the girl there quite friendly... i like it..

And seeing Tim do it.. weird.. keke.. but okay la, at least not shaving it away... then its my turn!! OMG!! pain pain.... and it just activated my tear glands.... LOLx!!! TIM and the girl say i look more "jing sheng" and neater after trimming... hmm.. okay lorx.. but it really feels weird and i have to get use to it... wahahaha...

some ppl say the eyebrow represents the luck for the opposite gender... i wonder how true it is.. wahahhahaa...

before trimming...



TIm while trimming...



After...








** i got 2 frens who is in need of luck... but i dunno how to help.. JIAYOU bah!!!** ( your should know who u are...)

August is here.. and quite afew ppl have their birthdays this month...

First on the list is Roy.. didnt know if wanna wish him anot.. was afraid of the consequences... but i did wished him in my heart....

2nd on the list were my grandparents... my grandpa is 80 already.. can u believe it??!! He is so old ler but still seems strong... i love you ah gong!! And ah ma too!! keke.... my grandparents are 1 cute couple.....

3rd on the list is Esther and Kai hui... 1 is part of the rush gang while the other is my good primary sch fren.. and i long time nv see her liao.. Miss ya kai hui!!!

4th is my sisters bdae... which i dunno will there be any celebrations anot.. lolx..

5th is Auntie Marie... Went to sushi tei at Vivo to have lunch with her and family and my family as well... YUMMY!!!!

6th..... guess who?? it's ME!!!!! (31 August having chalet!!) Ops!! ^.^