**[Post Thesis]**
Handed in my thesis, i was like..... wtf, no idea wth myself is doing... anyway, i dun care, hope for a pass, a pass would be enuf for me.
Sigh... no Sydney trip.... actually quite disappointed... maybe my expectation's too high, I shouldnt expect that high....
I actually went crazy recently... i mean to myself, if u ask me wht myself is doing, i would say: i dunno, no idea, i dun think i m concious on wht happening around.
I found that a similar situation is gonna take place soon, like last year, when one of my best frd's still in BNE with me. I wish this time would be a good start, but no one knows, it would be very painful if the reality is not...
I know i maybe leaving soon, juz no idea wht myself's doing atm. Will i leave?? atm = yes, att = dunno...
I found tht frds are more important to me... like i cannot live in constrains, i need freedom. I didnt expect myself would have committment on anyone; coz the wound is too deep for this time, i m scared of it.
I dun wanna have a "replacement", i dun wanna treat anyone as a "replacement", but like, i m very empty n lost now.
I do hope someone can accompany me, am i lonely??! it depends,.. depends on which point of view.
No matter for whom, if i treat someone as a very very good frd, i can do whtever with the someone. No necessary in committment n relationship, but juz anythin u can imagine. anythin.
Am i crazy??! yes~~ was i crazy, no, will i still staying crazy?? no idea
