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It seems that I become more and more care about money as I get older. I always know that I not a generous person, or even penny pinching. But sometimes i just waste money irrationally. After that, I would feel quite regretful and try to save some money by curtailing other spending.
I'm gonna graduate in about one month. And I can now feel the pressure of taking response of the whole family. Maybe i just think too much. Both my parents can take care of themselves-economically or physically. And I get no girl friend not even kids to feed. It seems that I should be have a easy life. But I just can't stop wondering whether I can give my parents a better life? Or When I get old, can my retirement pension afford me an easy life? And recently we try to find a house here not only for living but also kind of investment. I don't know if this can earn me a fortune, but what I know is that almost half of the money would come from my dad's deposit. Though I would pay him back...I still feel bad.(What am I worry about? we haven't decided to buy it or not.)
The salary SIS gonna pay me is quite great in my opinion. But I think counting the stock, I wouldn't earn more money then my classmates. It's O.K. I don't even sure if I deserve that much. But the biggest problem is that no matter how I count it, the salary is just don't enough if I want to get a wife or kids, not even enough to ensure my retirement life....Anxiety ......
Well, maybe I should worry about the graduate oral exam first...
