[20091103] 그런 작은 일에도 너무나 아픈지?...가슴이
that icy feeling of cold wind slamming onto your tears
now why did i even wake up to this day?
on a lighter note, it might help in washing off the dust i've compiled here =\
November 3, 2009
July 27, 2009
July 17, 2009
[20090717] SHINee's Mess The Radio!
and so the boys cracked me up when they took over Super Junior's Kiss The Radio for a day.
it was actually only Onew and Jonghyun as DJ at first, then days later, the schedule said DJ SHINee...
and so i was wondering if it would be DJ Onew&Jonghyun or DJ SHINee.
then i came to a conclusion that it could be DJ Onew&Jonghyun, with SHINee as guests.
which is basically taking part of both statements.
and of course, i openly hoped that my guess was right.
i definitely wanna see SHINee on a show by themselves. no hosts, no seniors. just them.
i wanna see what they can do. lol. and im sure they would be more relaxed once they got used to it.
and then BINGO! i got it right! guess and wish fulfilled!
DJs: Onew&Jonghyun, Guests: SHINee & NamChangHee.
namchanghee was there for the first hour. i think he said that he's the usual thursday guest.
but he was really easy to get along with so the boys werent awkward having him around. just seems really comfortable.
he hyped up the atmosphere pretty much and the boys didnt really treat him like an outsider.
ok i mean like... SHINee's known as the good/obedient boy band in KPOP.
they're seriously just the role model kind of people (so far. i cant guarantee the future. LOL)
so because they are like this, they always give alot of respect for the seniors and strangers.
you are supposed to do that. but when you're in the entertainment industry, these kinda treatment will cause the atmosphere to be awkward... so it's better to chuck those extreme respects aside and be fun. i know it's hard to pretend to be familiar with a stranger but wells, they all have to do it somehow.
so people in the industry have to get used to it and dont take things too seriously, really. =\
and then after he left, the boys also started to get used to hosting...
minho didnt speak till the 24th minute of the show actually -___-" and as usual, he was asked to speak up. not voluntarily. lol.
what? was there a soccer match on the tv outside, Minho? hahahaha.
so anyways he did take the initiative to share some thoughts/stories at the 2nd half of the show.
and you can tell that he was getting more relaxed and he's opening up alot more.
he was even talking to taemin alot and guiding him through the scripts.
there was once he even kinda talked back at Jonghyun. LOL.
i'd say that the flow of the show at the 2nd half is really good. they just kept getting better and better at it.
the pace started to be really good and radio-show like.
or actually i'd say, Kiss The Radio - like.
sukira is actually a korean radio show that im most familiar with i guess.
so why did Super Junior's Kiss The Radio turn into SHINee's Mess The Radio in our boys' hands?
1) continuous miscommunication with technical crew
2) gaps; awkward pauses and silences
3) the DJs didnt really do things to make it obvious that they were the DJs.
LOLOLOLOL.
but hey, i love all those mistakes. LOL.
they were cute.
especially Key's reactions to them.
at the end, Onew's sangtae was acting up all over again.
he introduced the closing song but he forgot to do SHINee's usual closing ment.
so he kinda paused and Key was like........!!!!!!!!!!!
then Key quickly cued for the ending ment. hahaha.
after they were safe and the song started playing, mics turned off,
he turned to Onew and attempted to slap his arm for forgetting it. hahahaha. Onew was like *O_O! shun*
violent...Key-umma's getting REALLY violent these days. haha.
but then something was weird about Jonghyun at the radio show O_O like maybe he was tired or just couldnt be bothered to mess around like usual DD:
how surprising.
so................after they messed Super Junior's radio show, they're gonna watch Super Junior concert the day after.
HAHAHAHAHA.
heyyyyyyy how are you all gonna face your hyungs?!?!?!
hahahhaha. so cute xD
SMTOWN love <33
(you know what's more remarkable?? they are absenting themselves from Music Bank to go watch Super Junior's concert. so this means that they were allowed to do so. SWEET! at first i thought their Music Bank schedule was taken off cos they wanted to throw Taemin a surprise birthday party since on the birthday itself, their schedule is as packed as sardine cans =X )
and another bomb is that... Key, Jonghyun, Minho are special MCs for Flower Boys' Generation O_O
i mean, their 2 episodes as guests just ended and now i see a preview with 3 of the boys as MCs D:
Minho trying to be funny...? PLEASE LOOK FORWARD TO IT <3
July 15, 2009
[20090715] that blardyfuckingman is my father
the computer died.
my mom told my father the night before to wait for her this morning cos she wants to bring the computer for repair.
normal parents wouldnt need that kinda communication when both were headed for the same company you know?
but what can she do? my father drives off every morning.
my mom takes the friggin bus.
and they meet at the same destination.
just WTF.
and then.
my mom let my bro use the bathroom first.
while my father was already preparing to go off.
and then my mom was preparing.
my bro came to say that my father's already waiting downstairs, in the van.
there was a heavy downpour (it's still pouring as im typing)
the wind was very strong.
to the level that all singaporeans would say that it's a TYPHOON.
ok fine.
so he stopped his van.
OUT OF THE SHELTER.
he drove out the carpark to the road. WTF.
IM SURE HE CAN SEE THE RAIN ALRIGHT.
FINE.
then mom runs around the house looking for a plastic bag that's big enough to cover up the computer (the motherboard, to be exact)
my bro was already out the house by then.
then my mom rushed out.
and my bro came back 1 minute later. i answered the door.
"i got no umbrella"
ok. fine.
so he was lurking downstairs waiting for his friend.
they were both late for school already, obviously.
got him his umbrella.
it couldnt open properly. maybe damaged maybe not. no time to bother.
went back in the room, searched for mine, and gave it to him.
tried to open, worked, left.
and just as i was done closing the doors,
the phone rang.
i picked it up.
my mom said that my father asked me to go downstairs to help her carry the computer up his van.
LIKE HELLO. WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?!
so she managed to make him drive back into the shelter.
i was hungry so i was eating and i quickly stuffed the last bit of the bread into my mouth.
then i grabbed the keys, ran off.
and damns. i regret not taking my handphone with me.
I FORGOT ABOUT EVERYTHING JUST BECAUSE IT WAS SUCH AN EMERGENCY.
and wtheck. the stairways were all dark. cos it was raining and gloomy.
i ran down the stairs, trying my best not to slip.
thank god i didnt.
it was all pitch dark downstairs.
i was pretty sure that those people i saw, sitting at the corner, had my brother in it.
probably waiting for the heavy rain to subside.
(i mean like, anyways you're already late so why rush when you'll get wet right? might as well just be later and get to school DRY.)
but i wouldnt have time to run over and look at the faces to find my brother to help or something.
AND ANYWAYS IM ALREADY OUT THE HOUSE SO IT DOESNT FREAKING MATTER ANYMORE.
found my mom, carried it down a flight of stairs, then down another, then to the door leading to the stairway that would go to the shelter.
carried it up another.
reached the van.
tried to fit that friggin motherboard into the back of the van which was loaded with heavy objects.
took friggin 5 minutes to get the stuff in there into safer positions.
(and im really sorry to the neighbours who had to put up with us hogging the sheltered spot)
so... BINGO, YOU'VE GOT IT.
throughout the whole incident, that man we call 'papa' was sitting in his van doing nothing.
NOW DONT YOU THINK THAT YOUR DAD ISNT AS BAD ANYMORE?!
thank me.
GREAT. DONE.
IM WET.
IM SWEATY.
got back to lift lobby.
my bro came running over. IN THE DARK.
till the lift doors, opened, i realized he was in front of me.
"why you never ask me to go???"
"he specifically requested for ME to go"
"but im still here!!!"
"you were supposed to be going to school anyway. i wasnt sure if you were one of those people there and i was in a rush"
and blahblah. aso i finally got back home.
BASICALLY.
IT WAS JUST A MESSED UP MORNING. (and actually it still is)
what should have been done:
1) call my brother to check if he's still downstairs
2) the answer would be yes, so tell him to contact mom and help
3) then he can might as well get a lift from that gawddammit-supposed-to-be 'father' to school
what should have been saved:
1) me getting wet and sweaty and delaying my bedtime that im trying to adjust back to humane timings
2) my bro and his friends' cab fares or bus fares. whichever they were planning to take
3) THE TIME. it wouldve been done so much faster if my bro did it since he was already downstairs.
so all in all,
back to square one.
back to my thoughts when i was a 6 year old.
"mommy, why dont you guys just divorce?! we're all suffering from having such a father."
a torture.
a saddist.
and what more?!
only 21 years of my life has past.
i've more to endure.
WHAT SHIT.
FART POO.
the 3 of us were just born to suffer.
and we're all wondering where the hell did my mom find a good enough characteristic in him that would make her wed.
seriously.
now that we've been asking her
she has nothing but
"i dont know either"
....................................
are we allowed to vote our parents divorced...?
(((((((((( PLEASE ))))))))))
but at least it was sweet that my brother felt that he could have helped instead
my morning wasnt so ruined afterall.
i was watching and reading so much jongkey that i thought i would dream jongkey again.
but it seems that i would have a nightmare instead.
now my stomach is feeling uncomfortable from all that gobbling and running.
July 10, 2009
