June 8, 2009

最近想做些純真的事譬如說畫畫,結果畫斷臂,本末倒置。






可能因為天氣的關係,最近常常覺得燥熱

跟銘偉說是不是可以找時間見面,我最近好想自殺。





我已經嚴重到每天對自己說快爬上頂樓然後跳下去

不下上百次






所以我想請銘偉幫我看看是不是有鬼在我耳邊每天對我說妳趕快去死

畢竟我想當健康活潑的好孩子所以需要大法師














不過那可能已經變成之前的狀態了,今天突然覺得對任何事都鬆了一口氣

也許不打算再面對這些無解的問題,或因為寫了一篇太真實的日記給自己,然後自己又安慰的夠得體






或者我不在乎了

或者那段過渡期已經過了

或者透過去了,可以看到對面了的透,沒什麼比得上了我就鬆了















前天媽媽打給我

她問說要不要幫我買蜜糖波提回去

我說好,我要  " 一個 " 






結果她買了三個

我就生氣了

因為到了今天我把另外兩個丟掉了沒有人吃,所以我氣了三天

一方面是我說了只要一個,一方面是浪費我不喜歡浪費

買的人沒有錯,但沒吃的人就不對所以我生氣







因為莫名其妙生自己的氣所以感到更生氣

總覺有一天我會逼死自己


















我想要自在的過日子

不強求快樂,自在就可以






悶到快壞掉了

而且入眠時間延長至早上六點根本是季後賽我跟誰拼命啊我














最近好想要去海釣,吃密蕃薯,去希臘,看電影吃爆米花,跟姊妹們出去玩,去動物園看猴子,畫畫,種綠豆

還有養一隻狗










別說了我一定會養的,親愛的爸媽,我一定會養的,回覆我日記也沒用。



假日會跟蛋和小錡去戶外溜狗散步調養身心靈吸收陽光滋潤體驗光合作用,躁鬱症一掃而光!

而且以後蜜糖波提沒吃完就可以給牠,我就不會生氣了,強迫症就治好了不藥而癒,奇蹟啊!














徐佳瑩-失落沙洲,是我的心聲一字不露。



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