EvonC

今天不知发什么神经，忽然很想Michael Buble の Home。

听着听着。。。。 开始做白日梦。 一个人看着不知道什么东， 就像了很多也了解了一件事。

当你一个人静下来思考东西时，你会想到你要/应该要的答案吗？

我没有。反而觉得很无助。。。。

Sometimes I just feel like crying out loud and say what can I do to win the friendship back?

There are just so many times when I feel like msging her and crap my ass off for a laugh but I just can't cuz I know things are different now.

As much as I wanna tell her how sad I felt, how i miss the good old days, and blablabla, I still think I should be silent cuz I deserve to suffer as much as she did.

This place has somehow become a place where I throw all my sadness and depression. How great would it be if i dont have to blog here again, and blog everything in blogspot so that my mom can read and know how happy my life is. 

It's my birthday, so i set a goal to quit. I hope Im able to.

Since "the thing" happened, I'm starting to find it hard to communicate with others. Not sure if it's because I worry too much and care too much on how others will judge me. Human are not perfect, yes indeed. I know and understand that I'm one of those who are extremely not perfect and need lots of changes but Im not sure where should I start and what should I do.

I will say that "the thing" has actually effect me and others, on how should i treat others and etc. I feel guilty and understand how wrong am I in "the thing: and obviously I deserved it. What I'm hoping now is not a forget but a forgive. Things will not be the same as last time no matter how it is. 

6/08/08......

Staying in Magill was happy but once i can't out to the city, the feelings was different.

Just when i thought i can be happily sitting infront of my comp, blogging my ass of on 14 August, another problem came up.

这一路上还蛮累的。可是因为大家的鼓励和祝福，觉得在累也值得的。 

能拿回的钱应该泡汤了，现在只希望可以把公道拿回。

这几天因为房子的问题已经搞到我很烦了。。。 

每晚都很想哭。。觉得自己很没用。什么都做不到。。。