偶然的机缘下，
发现了这首旧歌。
歌词海满适合，

终于，
19 岁了！

空调散发着冷酷，
加上彼此的尴尬，
缺少昔日的问候，

部落格荒废了一段时间，
我渐渐地也开始颓废了。

睡眠带来了梦，
一个不知道是好，
还是不好的梦。

模糊的记忆，
开始苏醒了。
以往的事情，

早知今日，
何必当初？

很怕、真的很怕。
这种感觉，
从来都没有试过，

日出与日落，
都是同一个太阳。
可是，各自的意义，

原来，是那么的简单。
可是，却可以是那么的复杂。

I suppose it's fate,something which I dislike the most in my life.There is no single reason for it or perhaps it's because of the bitter taste.I am wondering at the moment.Am I right or am I wrong?To be frank,I really don't know.I am having headache these days as a result of thinking what should I do.I never regret of loving her but the fact is I can't,I can't love her anymore.Or else,we will never be friends again.It's too embarrassing when we meet.The feeling is just like both of us meet a stranger.I really can't stand on it anymore.But,on the other hand,it's impossible for me to cease loving her.What can I do?

Initially,I hope to keep it as a secret but because of my careless mistake in my blogs,she gets to know the truth.A friend of her is loving her!Who can accept this such funny thing?Neither do I.People may think I am stupid enough but I don't care.I really don't care what people think of me.The only thing I care is please,please don't ever make it as a joke especially in front of her.I really don't want she will get into embarrassment.