~*DrEaMiN_StAr*~

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My greatest fear is losing the people I love. What I realize is it already happens to me. The cousins I grew up are so cold hearted. When I look at them in the eyes it seem like I don’t even know them anymore. As I wrote before my cousins are my inspiration but lately they are the one that cause me to cry. My eyes are in pain because I think I cry so much. I bet everyone is like what’s going on? Well the truth is my cousin Kevin but I call him Kevy is coming over for New Years [Vietnamese/ Chinese]. The reason why he’s coming over it’s because he have depression and stress problems. My auntie thinks that it’s better off for him to relax. I mean Kevy saw the worst things in life. He experience abuse by his dad and saw his mother getting his by a gun by his dad. When I was in Boston Kevy and I are like close friends. He never fitted in. All his brothers was either athletic, gangster, or popular with the girls. I might tease him but truthfully I love him. Yeah, he might do the house work and clean the house but his brothers would tease him on being gay. Even Thuan and Dean would too. In the past I was like my other cousins teasing him but as I got older I finally realize that it was wrong. I regretted teasing him and causing him more pain. I mean now I understand that pain. Today suppose to be a happy day for me because tomorrow we’ll going to pick up Kevy at the airport.

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I have a realize that life is simple if you figure it out. In my mind I thought life is hard and it is tiring but this year i have open my eyes, I might get decived and betray by friends but I realize life is too short to be crying over people that doesn’t understands you. I thought that it was a mistake and I thought maybe it’s a phase but I know that it’s reality. I can’t lie and deny it and it’s life. I feel like life is a place for you to go through the pain and yet be happy. I’ll cut this short since I’m suppose to be learning about STARS but i got really bored and wrote this poem in 10 minutes enjoy [: