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Lily Allen 22
Suppose to blog this last week, but something was wrong with wretch.cc....
Finally break fast with the gals! We had endless topics with 4 BB tea. Can’t wait to travel with them again!! We were
also reminiscing the past…from yr 1 all the way to yr 3. We talked about what projects we had done, who were in our groups and blah blah blah… and then…mother hen came into our topic… I told them I still have the e-mail that she sent to all of us and promised that I will post on my blog:
Letter from Mother Hen (I edited the names of the victims and it's really LONG!):
(Just read don’t bother to reply I won’t even read)
If u did not know anything about what is going on in former gp and shallowly believe what a despicable said, I really don’t Care! But be fair to me. Think u all really knw everything. Let me quote some examples perhaps you and the rest can see how very shallow you all have been:
1. FBM
G was supposed to find information and more floral dresses for the project. That was one of the sections in the project. Instruction was given on the first discussion. And guess what, she never produced anything at all. Worst, she totally forgot about it. As a member of the group, they have the responsibilities and duties to remember to do what was given to them, but did she?
o LH and JW were supposed to find a collection of red dresses for the project. Both of them took nearly one and a half hour to find. And what is the ultimate outcome. They tell me they could not find! Can you believe it? And when I told them: “ what if I can find?” Both of them actually tell me: “ Good lor.”
That was not the first time they are pushing everything back to me.
When I divide out the sections for EACH project for them, they would always come and tell me:
1. I cannot find. I don’t know how to do
3. I’ve tried my best and that all I can find (when in fact they didn’t even try. And I know is because when re-do what they done, Ha, ironic but I didn’t even need to try to find exactly what the project required.
or Or Anyhow do
Tertiary students giving me all these excuses. But did I even scold them when they pushed everything back to me? No! I did it myself. And did they thank me when I did for them their sections? NO! and that’s not all. I’ve people accusing me of dominating the projects. Don’t ever forget they were the one who pushed everything back to me. I don’t even have a choice. I didn’t even scold them for the longest time and yet have to compile the reports for them and help them finished THEIR parts.
o G was supposed to find some accessories for the project. And guess what? She anyhow do it and told me she’d tried her best, I’d already given her plenty of examples and references and she only required to find five of them. Yet she produce some thing such as a pair of earrings with a very blur store background. If I could have so many nicer ones why couldn’t she? So end up have to do it myself. Now you guy tell me that I didn’t share works with them?
During one of the CSB lessons, G came late and asked me what I was doing. I told her I typing a survey for the FBM project. I even highlighted to her that I only at the cover page and had yet to start on the questionnaire. And having known that, she merely inclined her head and turned always. Never event take the imitative to help and accursed me so many lies she cooked up. So how, I do it lor. Don’t ever forget as a member you’ve to take the initiative to ask and offer for help. In the past, I’d always distribute the works and they wouldn’t even ask for anymore once they’d completed their. How long must I continue to spoon-feed them? Tertiary students lei.
Perhaps you all didn’t ever know that they did their research without even knowing the target customers. Perhaps you didn’t know that they chose items they like and not what is suitable for the target customers. Haven’t angie tang mentioned all these in the lectures numerous times. LH was supposed to find a collection of dresses and guess what. She took dresses for so many brands they couldn’t even form a proper collection. But don’t forget that, before she carried out the research, I even had to tell her which website to carry out the research and what to type under the search engine. After giving her so specific instructions and guidelines and what had she produced? So I did it for her. Do I’d a choice? If you were me, would you all put some things that you knew was wrong inside the report? You guy must be thinking to give them back to do, but don’t ever forget that there is always a dateline for all projects. And they are tertiary students they should already know what to produce, especially when you consider that the lecturers had taught them what are relevant and I’ve already given them very specific guidelines!
GBE
o CA1 and CA2 for this module was done by ME. Before we even started doing these two projects, they had already told me they didn’t know how to do or they all very sensitive towards newspaper and therefore don’t know how to do these projects. In other words, they were implying that: ‘Shu.H you do it for us.’ Which I did. And did I even scolded them for pushing everything back to me? No. I did it for them! Did they even apologise to me for making to so much work. No! And do I have a choice in the very first place not to do the whole projects for them? Do I? Before they’d even tried, all of them came and told me don’t know how do to.
o JW was only supposed to do section one of CA2 and do you all know that just one section he could not event complete the research. Imagine you were in my shoes. I’d do the entire projects for them? Do I have a choice? In the very first place I was not even given a choice. So I really want to dominate the projects?
G, JW and LH three of them took nearly two and a half hours to find one, just one area on market economic of Russia. And guess what they couldn’t even find. I took merely 10 mins to find it. So I want to dominate the projects? I’d already given the very easy staff to do and they couldn’t even manager it.
3. All other projects and some interesting facts:
o Before the project discussions had ended, I’d JW always telling me he want to go home and watch TV. And I let him go? Who’s fault?
o Before the GBE project discussion has ended, I’d G telling me she’d to leave by five to meet her mother; having known that sometime discussion would always end a bit later than that. Did I not let her go? Who ended up doing all the remaining stuff?
o Before the gp’d even completed RTS exhibition, I’d SH coming to tell me she had to leave first because she’d to me her boyfriend. And I let her go!
o G knew that we need to take a brochure from Metro for RTS, but you would be so surprise that she’d the time to go out with her mother and no time to make a trip to metro to take the brochure. And you know what? Her house is so damn near compass point where metro is located la.
o G was told to go home and tink about something creative for PTH CA2 presentation. She came back and told me she could not find any interesting video from U-tube and THAT’S THE BOTTOMLINE. I could not find as well but I used powerppt to do up a video and put some interesting pictures on the executive summary. And you guy may not knw that the project is individual and you wouldn’t believe it that I actually shared with her. And she didn’t even thank me. How long must I be taken for granted? For eternity of my life?
o Perphaps you guy do ever know that JW don’t even knw how to USE powerppt programme. SH last time didn’t even know how to do a proper powerppt. LH didn’t even know how to take out the relevant points from the report and put them into the powerppt. Did they event told you that? They didn’t even knw hoe to use tap to do the content page! All these and many others have been taught but surprisingly I’m also in the same lecture hall as them but I know and they don’t. Are they feigning ignorance? Who did all those stuff that they did know? Me. I never shared works with them ma? Even they can’t even do a proper powerppt! You will also be surprise SH and LH took 5 days and not able to complete a powerppt slides and I end up had to do it myself because presentation was on the day after tomorrow. Do I’d a choice? I never share works with them? I only used six hours to complete and of course have to give up my sleeping hours because of them!
o Every time we did the report together and after I’d typed a paragraph, I would ALWAYS ASK THEM TO READ WHAT I’D TYPED AND ANY OTHER COMMENTS AND SUGGESSTIONS TO ADD. They always tell me NO. So incorrect sentence structures were my fault? They all along also had read the paragraphs, why am I the only one being accursed.
Perhaps you all dim know that LI SHU. H was their solution and answer to everything they couldn’t solve (they couldn’t ever bother to try in the first place) and every time come and ask me: “ So shu. h, how?” I owned them issit? They are already so big and yet I’d to so for them every little thing.
There are still more than what I’d mentioned above. To mention all will probably take me 10 days and nights. Don’t forget this, while you guy are accursed me of scolding them don’t ever forget that they didn’t have the right to manipulate me and take me for granted. I don’t have any debts to repay and neither do I own them a living. I’d done MORE THAN enough for them.
The only reason why I wanted you guy to know all these are not because I seek or want your understanding. The facts that you all judge a book by its cover tell me very much about your characters and the last ting I need is your understanding from a person of such. But be fair to me by living me alone. Don’t comment on things you know so little about. I’d only been realised from hell, after two years of suffering, if you were me would you want go back to days whereby u’ve to be manipulated, taken for granted and above all, worked like a slave for others, and they just happily receive credits? Don’t try me alright, because I also can make yr life as miserable as what you guys are capable of. Don’t’ feign innocence and ignorance.
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Anyway....i remember I’ve got the weirdest dream last week:
I was in my sec 3 class room and sat on my sec 4 seat…. No, it wasn’t seat… it was single bed, all my classmates were lying on single beds. Then, Maria (I’ve no idea y…), whose supposed to be my poly mate was next to me. We were having English lesson and the teacher was a Australia lecturer from SP… who got an austral ascent… the topic was.. what was your bravest moment? Everyone got to stand up and answer… and suddenly the blackboard exploded…. And there was an alarm…(from my HP)….
I’ve no idea y.. but I just think this combo in my dream was incredible…
For the past few weeks, I have been listening to HK radio. There's so much great bands and artists that released their new albums!! Really see some light in Canto Pop...
Some of the songs that I love recently:
RubberBand - 阿波羅
吳雨霏 Here We Are Once Again 2009
方大同-紅豆
薛凱琪 - 叮叮車
陳柏宇-你瞞我瞞
海嗚威 泳兒 我的回憶不是我的
Mr.-如果我是陳奕迅
Nice album...

陈奕迅 - 今天只做一件事
曲: Joey Tang/ 舒文 词: 周耀辉
编: Joey Tang / 舒文
监: Joey Tang / Davy Chan / C. Y. / Eason
专辑:H3M
发觉这世界永远太少空间
因此花一天支配一切时间
发觉这世界永远太晒心机
因此花一天思索一切道理
消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱
慢慢地合作新诗
静静地同床午睡
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱
慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱
发觉这世界永远太少深刻
因此花一天改变一切习惯
发觉这世界永远太多跷蹊
因此花一天拥有一切运气
消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱
慢慢地合唱k歌
静静地同游网上
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱
慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱
喜欢花一天跟你一切是爱
Everything was too fast for the month of June... HK trip + fathers' day + bdae... and then it 's July... Ain's bdae + BKK trip.. i think i made my schedule too packed that all the good memories come and go too fast... and of cos the sudden death of MJ and death anniversary of wong ka kui remind me to treasure every single moment that i'm enjoying now..
HK trip was just one word, AWESOME. I really got 2 very good travel companions who completely trusted me and followed my planned schedule, hahaha. Thanks gals, for trusting me and brought me fun, laughters and joy... this trip won't be this fruitful w/o both of you. Hope you gals enjoyed as much as i did : ) I believed they know HK as much as i do now, haha. (especially the MTR...)
Never thought i would end up crying non- stop for at least 10 mins when i saw my grandma.. Able to meet up with her again was the best thing that could ever happened all these years.. She used to be a healthy lady who often travel around with her friends to perform... and now... she can't even get out of the house everyday... I wished i can be there for her for the rest of her life.. but things are just not within our ctrl sometimes...
Father's day was simple, just dim sum dinner and bonding session...paying the meal in exchange for this memory was totally worth it...
As usual, my birthday was simple, short and sweet as per my request : ) A few meals and meetups were definitely more than enough. I always tell myself, friends are not obliged to celebrate your birthdays and give you presents, if they do, it's bonus. And i've got lots of bonus this yr! Thanks for all the presents, time and effort spent on me : )
Oh... and this one... recieved the first sunflower in my life, really appreciate it... was really surprise... thanks!

Ok... Ain's bdae was fun, fun, and fun... hope she loves all the presents... I believe she enjoyed her first singing performance in a cafe... hahahahaha!!
Ok... need to get back to BKK trip research now... and uploading HK trip pics....killed me...
There's a pair of shield and sword in everyone.
Shield to protect one's heart
And Sword to attack other's
Some love to use their swords more often, in terms of words and actions.
To challenge, to hurt, to invade...or defend?
Some prefer to protect themselves using their shields no matter what.
To hide, to be a coward, to be in their safe zone.... or because they don't want to harm others?
Whatever it is, it's always hard to strive the balance between the use of both....
However, never use your sword blindly... not only you will hurt others... you will also never get the real picture
behind that shield....
The person you are hurting, might have a sharper and longer sword that you can ever imagine.....
This is definitely one of my fav songs that i will love for life... the first time i heard this song was in pri sch and i couldn't really understand the meaning totally, but as i grow older, these words really mean lots...
In case you all wonder who's Mary hopkin, another famous song by her is Que Sera Sera.

Above is the worst pic that i ever seen... a time where we REALLY tuck in our shirts, we put on badges, we comb our hair neatly (with no fringe and wear hair bands)... eh even put tissues in shirt pocket... We all changed like mad... can't rmb what were we thinking last time, haha.. I REALLY hope this pic can be burnt... but it's soft copies can never vanish from my life... AH~~~~
Imagine this:
You're at your 20s, you have been living in ur country all your life and now you meet the man of your life. BUT, if you want to spend the rest of your life with him, you got to leave your hometown... to a total new environment... and you got to learn how to speak canto fluently...... and adapt to new cultures.
You're at ur 30s and you got married for 7 yrs. You've got 2 daughters with the age of 6 and 1. One fine day, for the future of your kids, your husband and you decided to migrate to another country... Ok, the fact is you and your 2 daughters will be living in a new environment but your husband will be staying here for his job. After 7 yrs of marriage, you won't be able to see your husband everyday and maybe only 8 times a yr? Moreover, the only languages you know are canto, mandarin and hakka. How will you feel?
This story is from a wonder woman in my life. To me, she's more important than many other things. She might be naggy, ignorance to certain things, blur, unreasonable sometimes but that doesn't affect how important she is to me.
She taught me how brave, patience, kind and selfless a woman can be...
Maybe other mums can do the same things, but she's unique to me......She won't be seeing this, but i still want to say: Mummy i love you : ) Happy mother's day!!

[HOW TO BE]
Director: Oliver Ivring
Robert Pattinson ......... Art
Rebecca Pidgeon ....... Mother
Jeremy Hardy ............... Jeremy
Powell Jones ............... Dr. Ellington
Mike Pearce .................. Nikki
Johnny White ................ Ronny
Michael Irving ............... Father
Alisa Arnah ................... Jessica
Michael Williams ......... Gareth

Watched "How to be" with the greatests today... well... i won't say it's super inspiring...eh... not with Art's hairstyle, but i believe that there are still some messages that the director wanted to bring across to the audience with this indie comedy...
Art did every single thing to change himself, hired the expert, bonding sessions with his parents and even wanted to abandon his dream, but ultimately.. sticking to and believing in what you like the most will give you greatest self confidence and satisfactions. Self help books are useful only when you really help yourself....
Can't wait for the soundtrack and watch again online......Went to marina barrage... and damn it... i nv bring my camera... i will be back!!!!
Love this song, cos the lyrics is too realistic.
日出而作
农夫
作曲:DJ Galaxy
填詞:C 君.6 Wing
返工放工 幾點至夠鐘
Sick Leave要點用 開會有乜用
打卡打卡打記得打卡
日出而作 搏一搏 我架單車都變摩托
睡眼惺忪九點鐘 記得起身返工
九個鐘九個鐘每日返九個鐘
個個都要返工 返工先唔使窮 證明你有用
份糧月中已經唔夠用
第一個鐘輕輕鬆鬆 等第二個鐘
第二個鐘去Site Visit 順便去埋Game Zone
第三個鐘打電話 打成個鐘至接通
之後嗰四個鐘勁多野做喺公司四圍中
入廁所沖吓沖吓 又釣魚中吓中吓
攞杯咖啡沖吓沖吓 沖吓沖吓沖吓沖吓
咁又沖到最尾嗰個鐘
個個睇住個鐘 個個等放工
放工去玩又驚第二朝早起又驚糧尾
返工係一個得閒死唔得閒病嘅遊戲
你老闆唔鍾意你 你唔鍾意份工
鬼叫你鍾意份人工 咁就冇嘢需要理
返工放工 幾點至夠鐘
Sick Leave要點用 開會有乜用
打卡打卡打記得打卡
打卡最型 打唔停 打少一成會雙目失明
大部份嘅老細會低估員工嘅能力
大部份嘅員工會低估老細嘅智力
大部份嘅老細會挑戰員工嘅耐力
大部份嘅員工會問同事攞零食
番工放工 幾點至夠鐘
Sick Leave要點用 開會有乜用
打卡打卡打記得打卡
日搏夜搏先發覺 最鍾意讀書返學
永遠就嚟遲到 班地鐵一定趕唔到
好彩第一個返到 老細又睇我唔到
成個朝頭早已經有鬼咁多嘢做
臨放工終於做到趴喺度
有人冇嘢忙又要扮忙
女同事化完妝又要補妝
係Pantry入面嘅Pantry黨扮開會同一個
Project講完又講
掃把話唔夠數 出嚟捉人去跑數
跑極都係唔夠數 份人工又唔啱數
最唔抵飲完酒晚起唔到身返唔到工
詐病請病假 又要付出代價
好彩呀邊個有醫生紙明碼實價 仲要做緊特價
請夠四日都唔怕
費時返到公司 好似隻死屍
放工去開P 點知要OT
打卡打卡記得打卡
唔係O咗T有邊個知
返工放工 幾點至夠鐘
Sick Leave要點用 開會有乜用
打卡打卡打記得打卡
(喂 今晚我要早走呀 你可唔可以幫吓我手呀)
番工放工 幾點至夠鐘
Sick Leave要點用 開會有乜用
打卡打卡打記得打卡
(尋晚我都冇走 點打卡嗻)
一辈子的孤单
我想我会一直孤单
这一辈子都这么孤单
我想我会一直孤单
这样孤单一辈子
天空越蔚蓝越怕抬头看
电影越圆满就越觉得伤感
有越多的时间就越觉得不安
因为我总是孤单过着孤单的日子
喜欢的人不出现
出现的人不喜欢
有的爱犹豫不决
还在想他就离开
想过要将就一点
却发现将就更难
于是我学着乐观
过着孤单的日子
当孤单已经变成一种习惯
习惯到我已经不再去想该怎么办
就算心烦意乱就算没有人作伴
自由和落寞之间怎么换算
我独自走在街上看着天空
找不到答案我没有答案
天空已蔚蓝我会抬头看
电影越圆满就越珍惜伤感
有越多的时间就越习惯不安
因为我总会孤单过着孤单的日子
我想我会一直孤单

Images from Gettyimages.com
Finished my brunch with my mum today and was walking towards the lift... 3 little boys were running ard and playing catching... They were shouting, running and sweating like tt's no tml... one of them fell down suddenly and the other two just left him behind.... This boy who fell down, stood up quickly and ran towards them... He didn't cry, didn't throw temper and was determined to con't the game... no matter wat...
I really envy him... When we were young... we had the guts to run, to fight and to achieve things that we wanted, no matter what it takes... We didn't really care if there were any hurdles or obstacles ahead of us... We didn't need to care about what others will say and the consequences of being naive..... Our parents, teachers and pple who cares for us will forgive us no matter what...
Now that we are grown-ups... words of others becomes too impt... views of others can be killers... we need to be consciences of every single thing we do.... We are always tied down by moral values and rules that were set by our ancestors.... But, how come what they say are always correct? Why do we use the same set of rules to judge everyone? How do we actually judge how much a person worth? Pple who are richer worth more? Or if they are more beautiful that makes them priceless?
Sometimes, I really wish to run, play and laugh like a kid ....and go back to my precious childhood....
Vincent
Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land
Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps, they'll listen now
Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand
Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps, they'll listen now
For they could not love you
And still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
on that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you, Vincent
This world was never meant
for one as beautiful as you
Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty hall
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged man in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
Then how you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they're not listening still
Perhaps, they never will...
===[中譯]
文森 唐麥克林
繁星點點的夜裡
調色盤上只有藍與灰
在夏日裡出外探訪
用你那洞悉我靈魂幽暗處的雙眼
山丘上的陰影
描繪出樹與水仙花
捕捉微風與冬天的冷冽
用那如雪地裡亞麻般的色彩
如今我才明白,你想說的是什麼
當你清醒時你有多麼痛苦
你努力的想讓它們得到解脫
但他們卻不理會,也不知該如何做
也許,今後他們將會明瞭
繁星點點的夜裡
火紅的花朵燦爛的燃燒著
漩渦似的雲飄在紫羅蘭色的霧裡
映照在文生湛藍的眼瞳裡
色彩變化萬千
清晨的田園裡琥珀色的農作物
佈滿風霜的臉羅列著痛苦
在藝術家憐愛的手下得到撫慰
如今我才明白,你想說的是什麼
當你清醒時你有多麼痛苦
你努力的想讓它們得到解脫
但他們卻不理會,也不知該怎麼做
也許,現在他們知道了
因為當初他們無法愛你
但你的愛依然真實
當燦爛的星空裡
不存一絲希望
你像許多戀人一樣,結束了自己的生命
但願我能告訴你,文生
這個世界根本配不上一個美好如你的人
繁星點點的夜裡
一幅幅的肖像懸掛在空盪盪的大廳裡
無鑲框的臉倚靠在寂然的牆上
配上一雙看遍世事且永不遺忘的雙眼
就像你曾遇見的陌生人
血紅的玫瑰閃著銀色的刺芒
橫臥的壓著且破壞了這場初雪
如今我想我明白了,你想說的是什麼
當你清醒時你有多麼痛苦
然而你努力的想讓它們得到解脫
他們沒理會,至今依然
也許他們從來沒想過