阿嬤
這個月初 阿嬤生病住院 我去醫院顧阿嬤...
晚上都沒什麼睡...
沒過幾天病情就惡化了 阿嬤進了加護病房...
用最好的藥最多的醫生顧問 大家都盡力的想讓阿嬤康復...
每次進加護病房 看到阿嬤身上大大小小不下20根的管子 我的心就揪在一團 好痛...好痛...
從一開始醫生說有80%的機會康復 到 病情惡化 再到 病危通知...
那種長時間的奔波和內心的折磨讓人真的好痛苦...
難以入眠...
在醫生說要有準備還剩幾天的話結束沒過多久...
當晚的半夜2點多...
我被電話聲嚇醒...
第一次覺得怎麼電話聲響可以尖銳到心在刺痛...
第一個念頭就是不要...
我實在沒有勇氣把電話拿起來...
讓給了爸...
沒多久親人都來了...
阿嬤也接回來了...
當護士要拔管問幾點幾分的時候...
大家都哭的分不出涕淚...
看著爸脹紅的臉 阿嬤走的那一刻...
爸跪著抱著阿嬤的腳哭了...
這輩子活這麼大 再痛苦再難過的事情 沒看過老爸掉眼淚...
連我媽我姑姑都沒看過我爸掉眼淚...
阿嬤...去做神仙了...
而我的兵單愛來不來 偏偏在阿嬤走的那天晚上來...
真的很想發飆...
這些天所有人都在忙阿嬤的事...
晚上我守靈...
白天大家都在忙 家裡的小狗又剛好生病需要照顧 ...
事情好多好雜...
阿嬤的事家族裡一堆意見...
我是晚輩沒資格說話 很多事情聽的頭好痛 心好疲...
家族到底是牽掛還是負擔?
阿嬤 我好累...
阿嬤 明天頭七你要記得回來看我...
阿嬤 今天晚上又是孫子陪你...
阿嬤 那天晚上在加護病房我接到兵單跟你說我要當兵了 你說我當兵你要來看我喔...
阿嬤 過年少了你我怎麼跟你拜年拿紅包...
阿嬤 每次我看電視在笑的時候 你總會在旁邊說 憨孫 瞎咪代誌笑嘎阿捏 看著我笑 也跟著我笑...
阿嬤 以後我看電視的時候怎麼辦...
阿嬤 每次看到我都叫我要吃胖一點 多吃一點 以後誰會跟我說...
阿嬤 你還沒拿到孫子賺錢包的紅包給你 你怎麼捨得走...
阿嬤 我好想妳...
阿嬤.............................

勇氣?
1樓
1樓搶頭香
Words are not enough
For you to say how much you miss her
She flew away too soon
You felt so alone not with her
But when you close your eyes
Every night
You heard her voice like an angel
You heard her words
Singing through you
And you are back where you belong
She is here even though she is gone
She is here everywhere you go
Deep inside your heart forever
One sweet day you know
That you will be back together
2樓
2樓頸推
(((它跟我說超過1千個字了-.-我只好分開打))
I feel your pain and long to touch
the hurt and make it melt away.
Yes, I know that I can’t really see
the breadth and depth of this dark
valley you’re in.
I can’t truly know just how sharp
the knife is in your soul – for it
is you in its path, not me.
But I have known other valleys and
in my heart still bear knife-wound
scars.
Even so, I would walk your road and
take your pain if I could I cannot.
And yet, perhaps in some way I can
be a hand to hold in the darkness;
in some way, try to blunt the
sharpness of pain.
But if not – it may help a little
just to know I care.
thx 4 ur concerned , it really works...
even though it's so hard to accepted the fact at this moment...
but i'll try...
anyway...
thx N a hug...
3樓
3樓坐沙發
因為這個時候我覺得對你來說,說在多好聽的
話,安慰的話都沒有用^^
像這樣默默支持你,讓你知道其實有人關心你,
會比較好? ^^
老爺加油^_^
4樓
福樓
兄弟 別傷心惹 哭完之後把眼淚收起來哦 奶奶
在天堂會看顧你的 一起加油嘿
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