Charlotte ct.Sean blog

December 2009

Last month of year 2009...
What have I done? What else I want to do before year end??
Too many things happened, too many changes...
I guess I'm not use to it...not yet...not so soon...

Christmas is coming. KL? Ipoh? Penang?
Where should I go...where can I go...
No matter where will I be...with the same body and soul...I can't escape any from that awful feeling...
I know I know...
but I really love Christmas...
You left...let it be...what can I do...
You took away my heart...but can you please don't take away my favourite Christmas mood...
Don't take away my happiness...don't take anything away from me...since you don't appreciate it...

Trip? Hhmmm...Where to do? Whom to go with?
Or...just stay in Ipoh?
Aww...no internet no friends...will get lazy and boring I guess...
So is holiday a really good thing to have? I wonder...


2010

Plan to stay in school...no where to go...
Teaching is a passion not a job?
Oh well...maybe...but I guess I'm a good teacher...eventhough that's not my ambition anyway...

Online course from Taiwan and Japanese class. Yeb, both in plan...

Can I cope? Will I be able to take up that much?
Never try, never know.
Give it a try then!

Anyone want to join me?  :)

hhmm...year 2010...get a car?
but im pennyless...   :(

Plan pLan plAn plaN sss...Plan for the future!!!




-xian-scratching head-

I will not write any bad things in this post
I will not complain
I will not say a single word bout the mistakes

I would say that it's a memorable day
A memorable concert
For the kids to remember the rest of their life
And for me to remember all the smiling faces as well
And a touching heart
With hugs and loves

We're in a team
It's not your concert and it's not mine either
It's OURS
We work together, it's a teamwork
That's what I keep repeating to my kiddos
I hope they'll remember this 

MJ said :
We're the world
We're the children
We're the one to make a brighter day
So let's start giving...

I used to be the kiddo who always raise up the hand and said : I wanna join teacher!
I love to be on the stage, and I love the mic
But today, I'm not on the stage
The feeling isn't the same as I'm not the performer
But I felt touch for my girls & boys that they gave out their best
I gave out my best to be with them
And I felt really happy that they did well
It's okay that my name isn't in the list
It's okay that no one knows I'm with them
Cos I know, my kiddos will remember me
The time we practiced together
I'm sure they'll remember the whole process
The happy and hard time that we gone through together
And I'm glad that I'm with them
We made the history, together

I really love your thoughts my dear MJ
You'll always be in my heart no matter where you are now
You'll always in everyone's heart
And we will remeber what you said
mmmwaaaaah!

I've been thinking of you lately
Thought it passed
but I was wrong
It's just that I cry no more
but the heartbreak is not recover
not yet
maybe never...

Could not stand the feeling of imagining you kissing another girl
You hold her hands, you hug her tight

...just like what you did to me...before...

Holding my mobile in hand
I really wish to call you and listen to your voice
How I wish I can chat with you...just like before...

No...I can't call you...I shouldn't call you...
Even your name makes me pain...

Yet...I'm stupid...
I will say yes if you come back to me
I will I will
still...

我们终于去了PITSTOP。而我，又去了PITSTOP.
这是个好地方。怎么好？

第一好  ：  靠近我家
第二好  ：  食物好吃
第三好  ：  饮料好喝
 第四好  ： 招待员友善
第五好  ：  不会太贵
第六好  ：  有游戏玩



士乘吃黑白鸡排
纪豪吃麻蜜鸡排
子岚吃碳烧蒜头牛油鱼排
我吃黑白鸡排
（我乱翻译的……哈哈）

士乘喝蜜瓜奶茶
纪豪喝草莓奶昔
子岚喝可可香蕉冰砂
我喝黑加仑奶昔

我们有说有笑
玩着扑克牌和UNO牌
战略如此刺激紧张
分手前还依依不舍
哈哈



我们还玩多连拍！
真是不亦乐乎！


那天晚上，所有的压力与疲倦，似乎被笑声给赶走了。
我很快乐。

我们再来再来再来，好吗？

>> On 3rd of Nov, I went to FRIM (Forest Research Institute Malaysia).
>> It was a school excursion with primary 1-3 students.
>> It is a nice place.
>> Jungle treckking side is similar to Penang Hill.
>> I love the canopy walk very much.
>> It was a memorable trip.
>> I love the trip, and my students.



>> I took some photos.
>> I think I'll just upload some scenery photos.
>> I hope you like it.

>> I miss the canopy walk.

I'm feeling lazy...
After my dinner...i sat on my bed thinking what to do next...what should I do tonight?
Hhmmmm....hhhmmmm....zzzz....there i fell asleep....zzzz
"It's too late to apologize...it's too late", woke up by a call from my friend...talked with my sleepy tone...

End of the year, end of the semester...with loads of stuff to do...
finished one by one and a little unhappy with some actions by the school...
they wanna go their way without saying a word to us...fine...go ahead...just pls dont bring up the problem and blame us later on...
I slept on my desk in the staffroom...yesterday and today...lazy lazy...bad example...

I'm lazy to shower...lazy to move...
basically, I'm lazy to write and do blogging here...
it's just that im lazy to move and go shower...so blogging can actually delay my time to do so...to continue my laziness in my room...

laziness is happiness...awww...just let me enjoy it k...

突然感觉满得快要溢出来了
你是故意整我还是有心隐瞒我也分不清楚了
是谁给信息拨电话关心对方了

难道把话说清楚有这么难？

我真讨厌你这样

我也讨厌我自己这样

Somewhere Out There

written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil
from the movie An American Tail (1987)

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

寂しいね
一人で　御飯を食べる
何人も　ここに　ある
食べ物もう　おいしいじゃない

最近は　彼方だけ　思います
彼方の電話が　まて
彼方のメせトが　まて
時々　嬉しいね
時々　がっかりします
困ったなあ…



今晩？
今晩は　私に　会いたいですか？
今晩ですか？
いいえ？

暗い空を　見る
もうすぐ　雨が　また　ふります　

彼方は　恋人が　あるですか？
悲しみですね…

天気は　いいね
鳥は　空で　自由に飛びます
新鮮な空気
花も　きれいね

彼方は　私に　電話を呼ぶから

全部の会話
忘れじゃない
毎日　彼方に　話したい
いつか　もう一度　会う

どう　しようかな
よかったら　毎日　おしゃべりしたいね
イ君に　私は　好きだよ
知りますか

大丈夫
ゆっくり　ゆっくり
時間が　もう　すこし
私たち　会いましょうかね

风
把我带走吧
把我随你而去吧
把我所有的情绪全都吹散吧

雨
把我浇湿吧
把我过去的洗净吧
把我们的衣裳和想法都透明化吧

阳光
把我晒干吧
把我领向你的方向吧
把我的笑容给照得灿烂迷人吧

你
把我救起吧
把我引到身边去吧
把我的所有都占为己有吧

我要出门了
我要出去打包饭了
我一个人拉长了身体要走到饭店了
我一个人拖着背影要回到小房里了
我要孤零零地咀嚼了
我要默默地把食物吞下了

你忍心了
竟然还不约我

那时细雨纷飞
窗外的景物不断往后退
朦胧的城市
瞧着那水珠里的微笑

脸颊通红温热
瞳孔无法立位
欲望又止
似个不曾踏出闺房的少女
语言中如此娇羞
彼此似生似熟

吾想君
  君亦否？

我总是告诉自己选择就在自己手上
无论是被受影响或是自己的决定
最终的决定乃是源自于自己

我很幸运有一班好友在身边
很愉快能够深处于一个快乐的环境中
然而若我选择了成长
我将离开这一切
会后悔与否没有人懂

the road not taken
留下   还是离开

其实你没有错她也没有错
爱情它说来就来说走就走
既使你抗拒你心不甘情不愿
它还是管其娘之我行我素
如今相爱的是你们
而我无辜成了多余者
何谓第三者而其实我已成了第三者
多余的第三者
谁对谁错谁先谁后谁在乎

其实过了那么多个月我还是很想他
既使一个话题一句言语一个文字都总是令我陷入其中
我无法摆脱你的影子
甚至发觉已忘了你的长相还是想着你
我怀疑自己想念的是一种习惯还是一种爱情
当你越走越远的时候为何我还不肯放手
是舍不得放弃这段感情还是害怕改变

我无法了解自己的想法
甚至痛恨自己的颓废生活
我夜深外奔喝酒狂欢滥交无限放荡随便无所谓
我为我自己感到无耻
该怪你还是该说自己不懂得珍惜自己
有理由去放肆而其实全是借口

没有你的日子我尽量让自己不去想你
往往反之更让自己无法自拔
人生路上人多得很
或许以后我会有喜欢的人也有别人喜欢我
可是怎么没有了你都不对

当前方的路一片模糊时
谁可以牵着我的手前进

当情绪像天气般不定时
谁可以安抚我使我平静

当我沉默寂寞难过之时
谁可以为我把眼泪擦拭

你可以吗
你会是谁

First of all, Happy mooncake festival to all of you who is reading this!




From left:
Wei Kai, me, Jian Feng, Ah Dee, Mandy, Lai Yan
Photographer: High Lee

[3rd Oct 2009  Saturday night]

We walked from sec17/43 to Tropicana Mall.
On the way met some new friends.
(...with the laterns and a stick, and a half turn around,
with the laterns and a stick, and a new friend found...)
Took a photo, keep as memory.
I think it was kind of cool and fun.
Espeacially with a group of friend.
The more the merrier, that's the point.

P/s: I'm the greedy girl...I got 2 laterns on my sticky :P






After a long walk, we chilled at home.
We had 6 mooncakes with tea.
This 黄金桂 tea is really nice. Thanks to Jian Feng!

P/s: I have one mooncake left, anyone want to share with me? hehe...





Atfer tummy full, it means we gotto start the next activity...
else we'll have spare tyre huh?  :P
We played candles, of course. It was everywhere.
On the floor, the gate, the wall, and the trees!
(Of course some in laterns...)

The tree looks so cool.
It look more like a christmas tree.
I like it.

Oh yeah, forgot 'bout poker!
We played poker after our eating session.
Jian Feng, Wei Kai, Ah Dee and I.
Whenver I got Wei Kai by my side, it will always be poker time. haha...

P/s: we just play for fun, no $$



Beautiful candle
to light up the beautiful life ahead

smile

xoxo

I've been thinking of a friend of mine for some time...

We use to chat a lot in msn, through the webcam, we were like chatting face to face, althought we're actually seperated far away.
Our first met was 31st Dec 2008. It was a new year party. We didn't talk much, but I think he's cute and good looking, I remember him. And he did, too.
It was through the Facebook that we both get connected again. It was because of the damn suck Facebook chatting room that lead us to msn.
It was really awesome to have him chatting with me during my exam period. It was my final exam before my graduation.
We can chat for 6 to 8 hours non-stop. Of course, I study in between the chat. (or else I can't get through my exam ya?)
Most of the time we chat during the night as both of us always stay up late. It was exam period, like I said, so I normally stay up till 6am to study and slept in the morning. (that's my bad habit to study. Night time is cold and quiet, I can study better.) Sometimes we chat in the afternoon.

We shared a lot of things. Our life, our feeling, our thoughts, our opinion...we made jokes, we laughed, we teased, we discussed...
He can always make me smile and laugh. I really enjoy chatting with him.
"cheeky little devil" was crowned by him. I really like this name.

                             
                                                                         Charlotte di-record
                            (He drew me dancing on my pyjama with the so called "innocent look" hair style)
                                                                   (Nope...I wasn't dancing...)
                                    (Im holding pen and notes cos I was studying, this is the evidence...)

After I move to my current rental room, we chatted for a few times. However, since the day I start working, we chat no more. As I need to work in the morning, I can't stay late anymore. Somehow, we lost contact. It was quite sad for me, as I think this friend is really great. I really enjoy the chat and all the things we shared.

So I started to look for him again. I stay up late just to wish that he'll go online. But nope. I sent him message in Facebook, but no reply. I sms him, yet still no reply. I seldom log in my friendster, but today when i logged in, I saw a friend request from him. His page shown his last log in was 2 weeks. I wonder the page is reliable. I sent him a message in friendster. Hopefully he'll reply me.

The feeling to lost a friend is really awful.

I miss you, ZoOm.

昨晚中秋节玩得不亦乐乎。

夜深时分，和朋友聊起了他。我说，他总是说他很忙，没时间。
朋友说，当一个人不停地用“忙”字来应酬你，那也就是心亡了。忄+ 亡 = 忙。

是的。分手前的那半年来，他总是很忙。分割两地，连通电话的时间都没有。他说他工作忙，忙得喘不过气来，忙得连自己的时间都没有了。我试着体谅，毕竟我不在他身边，我不了解他的工作，有多忙……我一直试着体谅，做一个体谅体贴的女朋友，试着不要作无谓的要求……

如今，他有新的女朋友了。所谓的“忙”已经不成立了。他对我总是说忙，没时间，而其实他对我早已心亡。所谓的“忙”其实也就在于一个人所在乎的事物。要是某事物对你而言非常重要，是你很在乎的，既使再忙，你也一定能够抽出时间。

忙 =  忄+ 亡，如果你在乎我，请别对我说“忙”。我太害怕这个字了。

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I bought the Burnished Amber, which allow me to match with any colour outfit easily. Love it's smoothness so much which makes me have the desire to grab all the other home.

All the babes out there, you should try it on!



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I love to play some small games once in a while. Especially cooking games... (sound stupid huh?)
Anyway, try this when you're free  http://www.cooking-games.biz/sushi-restaurant.html  
I think this is quite cute and fun ︿(￣︶￣)︿

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Happy mooncake festival 中秋节快乐！