Kingdom Of God's Blog

passion?passion!!where is my passion in study???why i become not passion anymore in study especially this few days??is it too tired??is it have to rest for few days??everyday oso feel so sleepy and tired!!!when only my passion being backed to me??i need the passion in study...1more month will be final exam!!i cant even get a sup paper right now le...i have to be strong and fully utilise my time!!


Faith--pls stick with me!!Confidence--pls back towards me!!i need the component of faith and confidence when doing thing...before i do something,i will pray it b4 i do...coz i need faith to do it...without praying,i lose my faith and confidence edi!!sometime when feel tired...jus hope can lean on in somewhere...but only GOD can be the one who let me rely on!!i only can pray with everything i do...jus leave everything to LORD!!!i wish after today....my assignment finishes edi!!presentation gone...jue left final year project...i will totally concerntrate on the thing tat i wana do!!wana find back my pAsSiOn from GOD...GOD,please strengthen me..!!

A singapore pastor comes again FGACYC 2nd time le....i still remember when she came to FGACYC is Feb before chinese new year smth....that time she came i still not been a christian and i not yet accepted christ!!eventhough that time i got touched but i still stand firm with my own decision and which is not accepted christ....but however,i had been accepted christ at March wich means after 1month...hehe..!!when i think backward,i feel so funny..hehe!!i wish i can let圣灵充满de...but only calling guy and who those dunno speak in tongue!!erm...i am desire to let holy spirit fills towards me...coz i never been tried b4...but i still wish someday i can have the chance!!

"Serve Others As How I Serve GOD"....i wann remember this phrase forever...GOD had gave me the gift of SERVING ppl...erm!!serving people is not a big thing but...if v can serve others as how v serve GOD in the kingdom of GOD...GOD will treasure the small thing that v done 4HIM...i am SERVING type...!!must serve everyone with all my true HEART!!i cant even rejected to do thing 4GOD...becoz HE is GOD...bcoz HE is the 1st priority in my life....bcoz HE had safed me..bcoz HE brighten my life...i have to follow the ways HE want..and NOT follow my own style!!i should faith 4GOD..GOD will not order us to do thing for HIM which is exceed our capacity and ability...

Thankz for my leader-likfong who told me a lot of thing with GOD's wordss!!!thankz that he always support me and emcourage me!!feel so warm at the moment that let people support around!!thankz 4everything...=)

Thankz GOD for letting me know what is my functionsss....thankz god for it..i will really fully utilise with what functions that god gave me..i am training myself to become useful in the workplace or maekrtplace!!!without knowing our own function...seems lose directio to do everything!!GOD is really amazed...HE can easily use his own ways to let me know everything....thankz GOD...=)

This few days i am quite lazy...especially wif my study..tmr is taxation mid term test but seems not much passion towards my study leh...dunno why oso!!i seems got manything to do but dunno how to handle all thing well well in the short time...so i just pick smth that i really feel interest one!!i am someone who r responsible de..and i dun hope anything i cant do with what i had promised others!!so i am trying to handle thing in better way with the short period...however,i trust that everything will be getting better soon...hope GOD can give me extrassss wisdom and strength on tmr taxation midterm....i will try my best towards this paper tmr one!!

hopefully all the assignment and mid term test and presentation finish soon....i need my own time to do my own thing!!i will be stay strongly in the life that i desire..i wish GOD will reply me and let me know everything soon...however..GOD,i will wait for you...

who say uni life is relax one??who say uni life is comfortable one??i totally cant get this means....i jus feel numb,tough,wana give u and i got no alternatives ways and i jus waiting to be graduate soon..i am really tired with this kind of life ler...everyday only rushing and rushing!!ya..i do admit its really learned a lot of thing..but i really hate rushing life...pack schedule!!tired untill i cant breath edi!!!

Feel like need a home to LEAN ON..not to wake up 4ever...i need a home to rest...i need a comfortable home to stay too...i lose my passion in study...GOD,can u change my mind rite now??can u let me be positive again??i seldom be negative one but i dunno why at this moment....my brain is blank and blind..cant see anything in front of my eyes...i jus need a rest ya GOD..i wish i have!!tmr pass up asignment and this saturday mid term test again...so tired witht the exam life ahhhhhhhh......i have to shout out loudly edi la!!!!!!!!

Friends??what i want to ask is what is FRIEND actually??sometime i may not understand why there are so many different types of people around our environment.Really dont understand...

These few days,our assignment group and thesis group had happened a lot of thing and problem...1st of all,is i done a mistake towards my frens,so sorry to do that..i felt guilty at first...but after 1day,its not reall my own problem!most of the problem is from my fren...however,this issue is ended up so far....dun look backward and i learned from this mistake!!LOOK FORWARD & LEARNED FROM MISTAKE is what my frens told me!!

Why some of the people must face with black an emotional towards their frens?really dun understand why they want to do so...YA!i admit i oso got emotional sometime but cant too over and i will not emotional in front of my frens and i will act it in front of my ownself...frens is not the ways and not the one who let u show emotional face!!frens is sharing,chatting and not emotional...

Listen others advise--this is one of the sentence that deepgoing inside my HEART...i jus would like to thankz GOD changing my worse mindset,changing my bad attitude and character!!i still remember i am one of the person who not listen others b4 that...during secondary skul and year1..i am the person who cant lose and i firm with all my own decision!!i dun like to listen others advise bcoz i cant been lose anyway!!i hate this kind of attitude when i thinking bakward of myself!!but now,i got changed edi by GOD..i am totally different compared with b4!!i like to listen others opinion and advise..and i always seek for others advise watever it is good or bad bcoz a person who willing listen others opinion and critical thing,means u r a person who are willing to learn!!

ATTITUDE is meant for me in everything...nothing is imporatnt than ATTITUDE...wishes one of my frens can get this means later!!hope she can listen others advise and can accept critise too...no one is perfect forever..every1 should try to learn from mistake,learn from others and learn from critise!!

Thankz GOD u changing me and i am not this kind of people anymore!!LOVE U SO MUCH..=)

Feel like so manything to do beside study,beside assignment,beside thesis....i have to so much of thing 4GOD....!!!This few days,i am desire in listen of GOD's words,watch video about GOD one...read bible,listen song!!my life feel peaceful when i do much thing of that!!dunno why...this few days,i pray quite a long time...i am waiting 4GOD's replying and calling...i wishes someday i can listen what GOD wana tell me directly and not from third party....

Dunno take how long only can become spiritual enough....i wana become someone who R follow GOD's road and GOD's way watever i do...and i wish GOD is supporting me watever i do...and i get the permission from GOD b4 i decide smth..i wish someday i can be this....no matter how long....may take so many years...BUT...i will WAIT...wait for this day coming!!bcoz of faith,walk by faith..i believe that GOD will listen my prayer someday...=)

GOD...i am proud for you!!thankz you gave me a lesson today....appreciate what u had done towards me....even i am upset and tough at the moments...but i would like to give u a thankful with all my HEART....bcoz of u...i learned that!!bcoz of u...i become stronger...bcoz of you...i become smarter...GOD..LOVE YOU MUCH...

thankz yaojian,wyjain,yitming,choyfoong and who those are understanding on me...i really feel so touch at the moment when u console on me eventhough i had done wrong!!sorry to my frens tat i had bring them trouble...especially yaojian!!feel so bad and actually he is not involved in this matter!!however...i believe that GOD has HIS own plan on me..and HE is trying to mould me become mature enought uin watever i do...thankz GOD 4give me such a understanding frens....

yitming...i would like thankz u with all my HEART...without u in my life...i feel i am unable to live with strong...cant live with mature and growth more without you beside me...feel so touch when u spend time with me and jus listen on me and smtime u may feel sleepy...but i really appreciate your accompanying for this half year...so comfortable with you every moment...and u let me growth and growth....mature and mature..strong and strong..thankz ya my dear sister....

GOD...i am waiting for your reply when i pray..i am waiting for your helping and guiding and leading every seconds...coz i cant even do anything without the power from GOD....LOVE YOU JESUS...!!

stability is one of the word to describe my feeling now...i am become CONFIDENCE again...and no stress again!!bcoz what i pray 4GOD,HE fulfill what i want!!my confidence level is back towards me again..so happy!!

GOD,i got so manything want to tell you..but i not even know how to start!!first of all,i wana growth rapidly with my spiritual life and touched by holy spirit everyday...i pray 4it everyday..GOD,someday u will fulfill my prayer..and I WILL WAIT...I WILL WAIT untill GOD reply meeeeee!!!GOD,u r my ALL,u r my EVERYTHING...no one can instead of you..and i dun even know how to thankz you that bring me to the kingdom of GOD..lead me to the right track in my life..moulding my weaknesses and problem...YOU are my almighty GOD..i can not imagine someday u leave me away...and i wont leave u forever!!

PRAYER LIFE,FASTING,and READ BIBLE is the ways to growth in spiritual...i am searching GOD's way!!searching what GOD wan me to do 4HIM...i will agree with everything that GOD want me to do...GOD,i need you every seconds...whatever in my study,family,future,life,frenship,r'ship and serving of GOD..i need you too...

SORRY,LORD...i would like to apologize here that i never use my true heart and confidence to pray 4you that our final year project get smoothly...what difficulties v had meet in this few weeks..i give u LORD the thankful that remind me walk by faith again..thankz you LORD....=)

ex<x>pressionless...can not express my feeling now!!totally not express...not angry,not boring,not tired,not everything...feeling jus cant express easily even with writing or speaking!!i oso dunno wat the feeling now...COMPLICATED...!!=,=

"Messy,not passion at everything,worrying,inefficient,lack confidence...etc" the words that express my feeling now!!this semester seems not passion than last semester even in my study,assignment,entertainment,chit-chat or else...jus cant have the strong passion feeling from my inside heart!!i cant pretend myself in passion ways coz i am not actually!!dunno why oso...is it so call "steady and stable period?" i think last semester i am in the toooo high peak period!!thats why become not passion edi compare with rite now!!BUT...BUT...BUT...

But,i wishes this period can move faster and move smoothly everything!!i wishes to become someone passion again LORD..i need your help,need yr healing!!i dun wan those kind of feeling again coz its so uncomfortable~~LORD i need you more to change me!!i wana serve u with using all my passion HEART towards 2u GOD...GOD,please HELP me more!!i need u so much....

i'm now seems become someone quite quiet edi...dunno why oso!!with my skul frens,good frens,seems i become not talkative as previous...i dun wan!!i wan become more talkative and reality!!GOD,please..please..please..i am just try to using all my HEART to put inside my study...eventhough week5 rite now,i seems still blur what i had studied in this 5 weeks!!totally no idea...GOD,i wana glorify your name,hopefully can score a good result edi!!although it is so hard,i will try my best that lord give me....GOD,i am waiting 4u everyday...i am waiting that what u wana tell me....i am waiting that how u gonna used me...i am waiting that what can i do everyhtng 4u...i am waiting that and become patient to listen on u and to wait you...GOD,i need u muchhh...><

GOD,sometime i feel confusing!!sometime i feel useless when i cant do anything 4u...but i should not think this ways...i should walk by faith wit GOD(seems i forgot wat my leader told me b4 that walk by faith..)!!i wana walk by faith and not give up again!!i wana glorify your name and live in the kingdom of god...GOD,i wishes i can give u everything to let u decide 4me eventhough my study,love,family,growth,spiritual,potential,patient,faith and everything!!i prefer god decide 4me rather than i decide by myself...FEEL so comfort again after released this blog!!=)

Long time din update my blog edi....almost 20 days ler...its time 4me to update again lor!!if not will get mushroom here...hehe!!anyway....got mood to write my long long blog now!!

i had been acccepted christ 3months+ lor...seems so fast!!eventhough just 3months,feel like 1year edi..dunno why oso!!may be always stick with GOD....and GOD is strongly appear in my life and remind me what i should do and what should not do!!my family problem had been solved 100% edi i think!!thankz GOD 4the worked inside my family....thankz GOD 4giving me the chance to get closer to him...thankz GOD...

nowadays,dunno why i become someone who r quiet!!doesnt means i edi out of this world...i still as previous..but i become someone like to learning thing from others..like to listen from others...like to gain knowledge from outside people..and i try to become someone who r mature...!!i trust that this all thing is the process that GOD want to train me up from my weaknesses..!!thankz GOD....am i a new believer in the kingdom of GOD??i dun really know..why seems GOD treated me as a special person in kingdom of GOD??why GOD let me taste so much of thing??why GOD let me know so much of thing from HIM??why GOD let me become a person who r keep on improving??is it GOD have wan to mould me to become someone HE wants??

GOD,u r someone who r SPECIAL in my life...when u appear in my life,i feel like i no need worry anything and i jus give all that what i had 4u...i no need worry my studies,my financial,my result,my family...and everything!!i jus give all of them 4u GOD...u r the one who care me the most..!!GOD,i jus put u and treat u as the 1st priority in my life..bcoz u r someone i respect the most,i LOVE the most and i NEED u the most...whatever i want or watever i face,u oso around me to help me...thankz JESUS...

this is the final year in university life..feeling like have to learn as much as knowledge that i can..not really desire to earn so much money 2become richer when graduate...i just put this all thing 4GOD..coz i am someone who GOD created me!~~GOD edi got HIS plan on me..however the plan is so tough but i believe that GOD will want me close on HIM watever problem i had faced...!!

GOD,i need u everytime...i need u everyday...i need u every minutes...i need u every seond...=)

these few days keep continue sick,sick n sick....so tired and so painful..cough,flu and sore throat...sometime throat itchy!!can not sleep well oso..haiz...=(

seems long time never update my blog edi due to sick make me tiring N tough...

new sem started and week2 rite now...time pass so fast but wishes to graduate soon...wana work in marketplace ah...wana graduate..hehe...

wana sleep edi lor..so tired when eat pills..ZzZzZ,,,>

GOD is so real and lively to stay inside my life...watever problem i had,god is still blessed me there!!support me there!!wishes me there!!i scare i cant go 4alor gajah camp due to i didnt bring any new frens but GOD gave me the chance and finally i can go there..thankz almighty GOD..

During the whole alor gajah camp,god's work is so strong!!spiritual n can feel god is working there...GREAT is our GOD..so many ppl cried when bo sou gor preaching at the last day morning...i can feel that it is god's working...really a successful camp that i had been there 1st time...thankz god to give me such a good chance to attend this...

band,preaching,worship,games...really had a good memory inside my heart...all the working members are so great and fire 4jesus!!wishes GOD continue work on them and let them accept christ someday...GOD,love u so much that everything u had give me..=)i love u..

VeRy VeRy HaPpY tat got u all wishes in the birthday card....

thankz god let me knew u all...
thankz god let me knew NORTH cG...
thankz god let me knew FGACYC...
thankz god let me knew JESUS...
thankz god heal me and safe me up..
thankz god let me walk in the right track...
thankz god let me live in peaceful...
thankz god let me live in a kingdom of god...
thankz god wishes me anytime....
thankz god blessed me in everything...
thankz god listen on my prayer....
thankz god 4 everythingggggggg.......

JESUS,i LoVe u...

i am really touch from all yr birthday wishes...NORTH--let's glorify n fire 4jesus 2gether...this is not only my job...this job is 4all NORTH CG members..LoVe u aLL...mUaCkZ..GoD BlEsS Us N LeAd uS MoRe!!!=)

different emotion combine 2gether will be what feeling i had nowadays....*happy,sad,tired,scare,bitter....*sooo manything had happened nowadays in my life,my family,my study...and the attitude of myself toward GOD...

sometime i will feel guilty when my famiy happened those kind of thing....sometime i will feel unfair compare wit others...sometime i will feel lonely when i do nothing...sometime i feel useless when not get the good result...sometime sometime....but i positive enough...i think that its god challenges me in my life....god wan to test how much of faith n believe toward him!!

my family--almost broken le but finally god worked inside of it!!i duno how to express my feeling rite now..so complicated n not to explain!!!!!!!jus complicated untill i unable explain...

i wish i wish...not a good result eventhoug i nv had a good result b4...
i wish i wish...not a rich family eventhoug i am not...
i wish i wish...not a perfect person eventhoug i am not oso....

but i jus wish HOLY SPIRIT can be with me n strongly with me anytime any minute...i wana be the one who believe on GOD edi...wana be the one who strongly live inside wit GOD,dun wan leave him any time!!i wish i can..sometime so easy to change mind..not strong enough!!i wana pray more 2do that...i wana pray more n close to lord...wana pray more to strongly wit god...i wan be wit u every minute LORD...

thankz god let me go city harvest church at singapore...i felt like in dream...but listen lot of god's word from pastor kong hee,from god..there are many factor!!relasionship factor,family factor,financial factor,frens factors...this all can have can none..but spiritual factor can not be less!!since this lose in our life,will get death soon...!!A-MEN...i wana pray more to get close with holy spirit...!!

thankz god,thankz holy spirit fill around on me today!!thankz holy spirit safe me up from down,from sadness,from tiring,from weak on me...u told me so manything 2night!!u console me with yr holy spirit,you encourage me wit yr holy spirit,you support me and help me with yr holy spirit!!the strong feeling tat holy spirit inside on me...thankz god so much!!

cant control the feeling...cant control my soul...cant control my tear from my eyes!!but because of god,bcoz of holy spirit,i get safe,i get released from my mind,from my body,from my problem...

sorry god,i only use 1 hours not enough to be wit you everyday...but today i got to know what should i do edi...start from today,i will listen anf follow by god's plan,speak with god's word,use for god's way,do for glorify jesus!!God,thanks u told me so manything!!thankz u let me know so manything!!i will close to you and follow u everyday...i will learn from you day by day...hope god give me more knowledge on my vision tat god use me in evangelize to the whole world...i saw a picture when holy spirit fill around me!!i saw that fgacyc someday can be the philip pastor that make a lot ppl believe and accept christ!!is it god gave me some hint in this??=)

God,thanks you a lot that let me know what should i do,pass the gospel to my family is what u wan me to do..God,i will follow it,pls lead me more,pls give me a wise n smart skill in speaking,pls give me more wisdom to pass the gospel...i need u wherever i pass the gospel!!thanks you god...ALLELUIA..Praise The Lord!!=)i feel peaceful and happy now...pls blessed my family more n more...thankz tat listen on my prayer!!i wan to follow you god forever and ever....till the end of the world!!=)

好辛苦噢。。。
我想休息。。。
我想放弃。。。
可是不能。。。
时间快转。。。
时间快过。。。
我要坚强。。。
我要加油。。。

Eventhough exam paper only left one more subject...but i din feel any relax feeling...i din feel any confortable feeling at all...feel so pain,feel so hard,feel so bitter!!i wan a shoulderrrr....i wan a shoulder to lean for!!pain..pain...pain...

i dun wan a broken family,i dun wan a arguing family,i dun wan any war happened on my family!!why??why??why??why this everything happen on me??why???i dun wan...eventhough fact edi in front of my eyes...but can i change it??can god restore everything 4me??i am so pain when dad talk wit me..my heart not feeling well when i knew everything....i never blame anyone...i never hate anyone...i jus feel PAIN,PAIN,PAIN...

God,what can i do in this moment??i feel like i am useless in this moment...cant take any money to help...cant do anything towards them!!God,what i had promise you i will do this...but can u give me more power??can you give me more energy to live...i am so painnn...cant explain the pain!!

God,i know you wana use me in somewhere but can you restore bak everything tat i wan??!!!i wan a normal and peaceful family...nothing much tat i wan...i jus need peaceful and healthy!!can u listen my prayerrrrr....huh!!i seems wana give up i know i cant....be strong...give me more power and safe my family...i will be strong because of you GOD!!:'(

one paper had gone finally!!audit practice is one of the subject i scare the most!but finally,today finish..can i pass it??am i able to pass it??i dunno lar...i dun have much confidence...wat i pray now is hope a good marker to mark my paper,if my paper marked by some strict lecturer or tutor then i sure get sup la...but sorry god,i really try out all my best in this paper!!hope god wont blame me if i got sup paper,hope god dun blame me tat cant glorify yr name!!if i can pass this audit practice paper!!i really should thankz god a million that gave me luck and wisdom to do the paper!!anyway,GOD:i wana say thankz too that give me such a good challenging!!

4more paper to go...biz finance,performance mgmt,company law and taxation!!i think i not such stress compare wit audit practice gua!!coz all calculation,and comapny law i wishes i can memories wat i want too...other calculation jus practise more the pass year paper la!!GOD,pls continue blessed me more and more....give me wisdom more and more...i need u be with me watever i do...thanks you lord=)

2more days will be final exam edi...
first subject will be Audit Practice...
dunno why my stress arond me edi...
so scare,dunno why oso...
scare i get sup paper and not glorify jesus name...
scare i disappointed my family...
scare i cant accept any sup paper this semester..
scare i have to pay sup paper money...
scare,scare,scare,scare....
but yesterday service GOD told me that should be confidence....
and he said that whoever put effort and he will not let the one get any sup paper..
i am touched,i am happy,and my confidence gain back again...
but now!!i scare again...why i always no confidence on myself??
i am not lazy,i am not stupid person oso,i am not rely on the tips...
i put much more effort compare with last few sem...
i work hard so much that i never had b4...
i follow the way that wat is right&bright...
why i still scare and stress??dunno leh..
is it i put a too high level in final exam???may be...
what i wishes is not only pass all subject...
its score as high as i can....
but when i telling myself,i wan score as high as i can...
then i seems be lack of confidence again...
i....i.....think that i am the one who get sup paper...
i should not let go the confidence that GOD give me all the time...
but i always breach wat he gave me...especially CONFIDENCE...
i wan be strong,be confidence,be power than b4...
coz CONFIDENCE is GOD give me everytime..
i cant let go it easily...add oil and all da best 4myself...

Jesus,i love you...U R always the one who gave me a lot of thing...thanks you lord!!i will cherish and fully utilise the wisdom and confidence u gave...i wont be weak and lack of confidence again!!=)

suddenly miss baba mama so much....
not only miss baba mama....
oso miss gorgor,jiejie,nephews,god dad n god mum...
how long i never back to my sweet home ler??
almost 2 and half month ler....since chinese new year ended..
not only i miss them all,they all miss me much oso!!><
sorry ya,due to my exam,i can not back so frequent...
but when i heard a song call baba mama from 'jue dui super star'(wee)
suddenly miss them so much so much and i start to love this song...
this song is talk about a child long time never back home...
and he/she desire to back too..... and v should listen on them..obey on them...love them too..
dear dad,mum,god dad,god mum,gor,jie and nephews....
i will be backing soon after my exam....
i study hard and study smart rite now....
i will back home with all my confidence without waiting any sup paper..
when i finish i will back home to see u all...=)
bcoz jesus is beside me,i wont get any sup paper coz i wan to glorify his name!!
trust myself and trust god...thanks you all encourage me always..
thanks u all never give me any stress to score the result...
thanks u all always support me by my side...i love u all so much...
nephews...waiting my present ya...muackzzzzz....i love you!!!

~~~continue my studies lor..~~~miss u all...=)


爸爸妈妈的歌词

恨不得快点　长大
天下父母都这般期盼着我们啊
我们已健康　成长
快来祈祷父母长命百岁啊
请记得要常回家看看爸爸和妈妈
简单的一顿饭他们也开心很久啊
随便聊一些话
或随意呆在家
父母的伟大是从不要求我们报答
生活的压力　真大
爸爸妈妈多苦也撑起了一个家
我的一点点　挫败
说历经沧桑仍微不足道啊
请给我多一点时间证明给你们看
请原谅我的能力有限再要努力啊
偶尔我没回家或工作到天亮
偶尔你慰问的电话让我充满力量
父母的伟大穷我一生也难以报答
我们要把握时光来疼爱爸爸　妈妈