evelyN @ her purple r00mie

很清楚的下定决心了…一切回忆会是我最幸福的事。 我不会难过，因为不是我错过！ 我也不为难你。让你继续对我冷 对我淡。很高兴上天让认识你。也让我曾经对你认真起来了。再荣，谢谢你！still frens

觉得自己的决定很喜傻。可是却很无助因为除了逃避，我已经无法再面对现实了。因痛得很，因伤得深，因知得多，因爱得很，因傻得太…我累了。看到太多关于他的事…见到太多关于她的事，却要装傻！好了…放手了！伤口会慢慢复原，想念会慢慢淡化，爱情会慢慢消失，眼泪会慢慢干掉…而他，会很好的！我尽力了！自问是否确定…是！你会和她很好的…！心照

stupid ian and drunk me @ fireball ~ =)



终于在今天划上句点
一整夜翻开过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋

走一步又一步 我才发现转了个圈
走了好几年 又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远 习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年 难免会有污点
就像每段爱 总会有终点

世上最残酷的 恐怕是时间
困住人 一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界

走一步又一步 却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了 为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远 习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年 难免会有污点
就像每段爱 总会有终点

你说做自己吧 我们都做回自己 哦...
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物 原来是一场劫
终于分别 宿命一样准确
可笑到想要 你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光着脚我一路奔跑 鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲 承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号 只有你能明瞭
过了这一夜 我就全忘掉



i noe u not long..nt consider as long nor short...

but the memories we had...thank you..

as wat id told u... im used to life with u...days with u...

but i tot i could change everything by not meeting u everyday...

i really tot i success treating u as fren by treating u cold...

but i failed doing so from the day i noe tat u're sick...

i realised how much i care bout u n wanted to be with u wen u need someone...

guess what, i noe something clear tat 缘分尽了...

i shouldnt be so silly for such a long time...

and here i clarify, im gonna let go everybit of ur details from my life for this period of time..

when the wound recover, if we ever meet, we could still be good frens...=)

i'll never forget the place we went.... xmas of 09'... every single memories we pass by...

let u noe someting, the love i've put in u is enuf silly but it shall nv reduce...

i noe i'll have hard time for now, but tat's the only way to stop from being so silly for ntg....

thank you...take care alwaz... 心照



    
-evey 
 

simple life could it be?

hope so.... i don 1 anything now....

标题上的歌曲是首很悲的歌…han juin 之前介绍我的。今天，终于听回了。

had my 3 days in kepong and damansara.... Watched juon and it sucks... Lol... I miss kepong's abc... But miss silly guy more... :) blek

i swear by my tattoo, i wont care and no fuck anymore! 玩卡！i'll be.. Sorry evan again

找不到人說 心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一個人過生活
愛 只有簡單筆畫
卻比想像複雜 恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人 也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下
愛 是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信 它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人 在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
用不完身邊 氾濫的自由
開始怕孤單 是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人 為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到 愛情那個枷鎖
愛 只有簡單筆劃
卻比想像複雜 恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人 也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能 將幸福留下
愛 是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信 它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人 在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
我在等一個人 在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
我在等一個人 在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 相信它




fcuking cute pic xD
me with kenn wong's doggy... =)













im waiting now.. waiting for the time to get off from IT
someone asked me... "what i really want?"
conversation in real life like this...

he: do u noe what u really want?
me: as long as ppl besides me happy den im happy lo. im not greedy.
he: tat's y u will get HURT more than anyone. coz u nv noe wat u really wan. u nv voice out.
me: but wat is the use for me to be so greedy? happiness for a while is satisfied for me and i heal easily
he: coz everytime u're hurt then ngam ngam there's another new 1 appear to pull u up and u just replace the feeling oni.
me: diam diam....=="
he: it's time for u to tink nicely wat u really wan n need...


-end-


wa lao...seriously, if i really voice out watever i wan.. i guess i'll be damn greedy...xD

in the past, i used to be greedy... i wanna get watever i wan from anyone i request
i did suffer...from everyone leaving me alone...
except for my sk kor..
he's the one who gave me everything i request...

this is a new year... not a nice beginning...
but sincerely, i hope to tell someting...
if i really voice out watever DEMAND i want.. i wonder wat's the ending...
or really should i stay silent and sees ppl happy around me?

i demand for IT...the ENDING of IT...

can god gif me tat request? stop the pain from me...
i wanna get my butt off it....

sry evan.... if u're seeing this, seriously, i don feel good last night...
not even a bit good... 
couldnt acc u in the phone as im really tired...
but i promised u... i'll inform to u wen im ready...

take care everybody...


-evey

爱要多聪明才能逃得过哭泣？不要给我伤心…因为其实很开心

there're lots of hopes outside in de world. Choose de one tat make you happy and never choose de one who make you sad. I believe everyone would hope to have a happy life than a miserable life. I, myself, love to see frens happy beside me. I love to smile at their happiness. I guess i've found de best medicine in de world. For them, i'll stay strong.

人生难以避免难关 只要有心就能解决一切
一切如常 带着平常心来面对问题就不成问题
有口此言来之有问题之人

之人问题唔大。只是厚脸皮佐点…因此难怪问题一直存在。但唔是之人没能…只是天唔给提示之人。之人好想平平淡淡的过日子。因为之人知道生命的重要。唔好再令之人不知如何是好…之人走头没路就会变回 -玩卡-。再不会理生死如何，再不会理身边人如何，再不会是 “惜”花之人。

b4 leaving.... this shall be my last post

窗外的天氣 
就像是 你多變的表情 
下雨了 雨陪我哭泣 
看不清 我也不想看清 

離開你 我安靜的抽離 
不忍揭曉的劇情 
我的淚流在心裡 
學會放棄 
聽雨的聲音 一滴滴清晰 
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡 
真希望雨能下不停 
讓想念繼續 讓愛變透明 
我愛上給我勇氣的 

久違的雨滴 一滴滴累積 
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶 
真希望雨能下不停 
雨愛的秘密能一直延續 
我相信我將會看到 
彩虹的美麗 

冷冷的空氣 
很窒息 我無法呼吸 
一萬顆雨滴的距離 
很徹底慢慢消失無形 

離開你 我安靜的抽離 
不忍揭曉的劇情 
我的淚流在心裡 
學會放棄 

聽雨的聲音 一滴滴清晰 
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡 
真希望雨能下不停 
讓想念繼續 讓愛變透明 
我愛上給我勇氣的 

窗外的雨滴 一滴滴累積 
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶 
真希望雨能下不停 
雨愛的秘密能一直延續 
我相信我將會看到 
彩虹的美麗 

屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶 
真希望雨能下不停 
雨愛的秘密能一直延續 
我相信我將會看到 
彩虹的美麗


a very nice song indeed...picked up from a drama named Hi, my sweetheart... taiwan idol movie...
yesday wen i watched tat drama...i realised wat's de *xing fu de zi wei*
i straight sms HIM....
missing someone is some kind of indirect happiness

but now, guess things couldn't turn back...
i nv noe i could be this hurt...
tears could just hang around my eyes but wouldnt fall down...
im sorry tat last night im de reason he's drunk...
i took care of him due to guiltiness and responsibility...
i tried my best d..
the moment he left my car, i left my heart with him..
tears rolled down lik nobody's business...

but truly...i lost my heart since i meet him...
and so, wish him all de best he could be...
i noe, he'll be happier without me interrupting his life....

 -evey

edited: thanks to my frens tat acc me...and try to cheer me up... im sad but im alright...

 
 silly us in gord's POOL xD













today is xmas day....
but something bad happen...
now he's out from my life....
wat else could i say? as long as he's happy...?
i miss u....






 

看不清一切…只知道痛的感觉并不好受。我心里不停有他的声音…好痛

loving my yesday wit kyo... Enjoy myself in genting.... Haha.... Thank you sincerely from my heart... And thanks to ppl tat text me wishing me happy 23rd... Especiallly to hex.. He's just so sweet for me.... I'm clear on wat i wan... But i'll give myself a limit till 25th... A chance for myself... But if everything still de same, den i need to forget someone d...

after coming down from genting i swam wit my gals sab and zeng... In mr gord house.... Loving it so much

haha... Hex delivered his xmas present to me b4 he go italy... Thanks mr hex... I love it very much.... :)

hex said something to me tat cheer me up immediately. His everything really very considerate and passionate. Although he noe my heart is lost but he still do everything for me. It makes me remind of isuka badly.

sk kor: merry xmas. Mui miss you badly here. I hope tat every xmas i could celebrate wit you. I guess up in heaven, xmas celebration is very pure right? Love ya

isuka: this year xmas i did not receive your sms anymore. You noe me most well even more than kor. You always noe wat's de best present for me. You noe xmas meant a lot for me. You noe tat i love being wit de special one during xmas. If there's a wish tat will be granted, i wish tat time turns back for me to hug you b4 you go away from this beautiful world. My world here had became grey. Come back to my side and sing song for me pls. I miss you

this 2 person are the one i wanted to share such wonderful xmas wit. But who noes, god took them away from my life. But i noe, they'll always be wit me. May god bless you all!

a post on my favourite day. 其实很简单，过去了就让它过去。不该留下一点点遗憾…我清楚我自己的决定。

现在的我…只想好好的过每一天。带着微笑的我…渐渐消失了。还记得…之前我只要有他的一秒我都心满意足。我会试着不依赖任何人。我不想再受伤…因为…我怕了。痛的感觉不愉快。曾经的回忆…让它随风飘去。

he gave me my favourite perfume as xmas present and a purple souvenir from china. Should i say tat it's de best xmas present i ever get?

there's something in my mind, i shouldn't eat tat apple...

tell me what i gotta do to please u
baby everything u say i'll do
coz' i only wanna make u happy
from the bottom of my heart is true... =)


-evey 

trying so not to be missing him too much...
though i alwaz waited for his msg everyday...xD
today i called him... at last got thru his number...
he told me he's in thailand...
will be back on fri evening...
OMG! damn happy la weii...
i waited so long for tat day to come...
=="

by de way, am having a bad toothache today...
gt fcuked up badly...
tml will be leaving my dear's house and heading back to daddy's stomach...
is my daddy thinner coz he missed me? xD
hope nt...