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i'll be back..

after my final exam first...


coursework?

assignment?

final exam??

sigh..

kill me please...

my BIRTHDAY over dy lur~~~

even though not that special lah...
but...
i realized something...
i love abel more than anything leh...

the day before my birthday,
we ate our dinner at italiannies..
after we finished our food he had ordered a cake for me..tiramisu..
he put a candle on that cake, and i asked him to sing~ alone~~ 
i dont need other staff to sing for me, i just want my bf sing~
lolx...

kinda sweet..
hehe...

well, after dinner, i went club with my friends,
some of them from my hometown, kuantan..
while others from klang, (if im not mistaken...)
we went barcelona,,

where's my bf?
hmmm..
he went to his friend's house after he sent me to the club...

around 1.30am i left..
went to find him..
coz i miss him..
xp

we never sleep on that night..
party and play all night long...
and then we left in next morning 8 am...
went to sepang circuit..
for some car event...

i feel damn damn tired when i was there...
sleepy + the stupid sun fucking hot wei..
i think im gonna become a malay chick soon~
zzzz.........

we left around 3om~
coz beh tahan dy..
we need to sleep...
zzz

anyway...
my bi promised to help me celebrate again after he finish his exam..
so, im waiting for that day..
i look forward on it..

i called my mum on that day, and my mum gave me a big kiss leh..
she kissed through the phone...
my sister slyvin she called me after i finished chat with my mum..
my present? mcd... ==
nervermind, better than none...


even my birthday was not that special,
but.. i feel quite happy...

thanks to my friends,
thanks to my family, my mum and my dad...
thanks to my dearest too, abel wong...

i did a lot of good things today..
i had escorted 3 people to go back their hometown..
all lenglui-s ~~

yeah, they reached homely safely...
but i wasted my time, my money, and energy..
im totally exhausted...
i am a girl!!
why i need to do guy's job??
full with responsible, take good care of them this and that~
escort charity??
zzz....

anyway..
i still thinking whether i need to go college tomorrow onot..
for the boring lectures~
2 lectures wei~~

i feel like truancy..
because i am lazy..

but hor,
i feel damn guilty if i skip lectures..
what if i fail my papers?
if i have failed my papers, i still got a excuse for myself..
" i did go to the lectures, i did listen to lecturers, and i had tried my best, but, only god will know that why i failed my papers..."
LOL
at least, i not need feel that bad with this reason...
LOL

another anyway..xp
i miss my family,
i miss my dad, i miss my mum, i miss my siblings a lot..
and my dog miko too..
hehe...

actually i damn wish that i could spend all my day with my mum,
every single minute,
even she sleep beside me, i will also feel satisfy.. xp

last time, i was a bad, disobedient, stubborn girl...
i always disobey my parent's orders...
always think that they were wrong, and i was right..
and i did run away from my house..
(sorry lah, i know i am a bad girl...)
at last, i made my mum cried...
i feel damn heartache leh..
and start from that day,
i have swore...
if i make my mum cry again oh, i curse myself go and die suen lah~~
aikss...

another anyway again,
is getting late,
going to sleep lur~~~
night~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

my bf's friend's friends had some accident yesterday midnight...
after they went barcelona,
and. they injured, kinda serious...
six people involved..
got one fella his skull cracked, can see his brain wei..
next one, his face, from leng zai turned to be a monkey face, xp
third one, his facing short-term memory lost..
another one, his leg dunno what what happened...zzz..
another 2 fellas... hmmm.. i'm not sure about it...


anyway..
im going to start my class tomorrow onwards..
kinda sad wei...
have to face the stupid stress again...
study study study...
sienzzzz...

luckily there is another thing to make me happy..
my birthday coming soon...
this sunday, 31st of may,..
but..
i still haven figure out how to celebrate my birthday lah..
and i got no idea where am i on tat day..

going to sleep lol...
tired...
everyone goodnite..
^^

sorry for being late update my blog..
recently, kinda busy... xp

i have finished my exam..
and now my location --> kuantan
my hometown..
haha..

i still same like last time,
i will only step out from my house after sunset..
this is because of..
i afraid my skin colour will getting dark..
since my skin colour now not counted as fair~
lolx...

anyway..
i facing some problem..
my skin damn damn sensitive..
and i feel itchy if i apply lotion on my skin, 
no matter which part of my skin..
same with the stupid perfume..
thus, i only can put on the lotion on my shirt...
zzz~~

before i know about this,
i went guardian and i bought some lotion...
now? i got no idea what can i do with the lotion..
put the there?? what the?? wasted my money!!!
kinda pissed on..
 
more 15 minutes i will go out with my family..
going to have dinner with them at some place~
i don't know what's that place..
and i still don't know where's that place even though i already went there many times...
sorry..
i'm not good in recognize road..
haha...

but..
my skin still damn damn itchy..
feel like scratching it..
but..
i must not do that..
because im wearing dress..
if i keep on scratching it,
my skin will become red and red...
how do i go out later?

anyway..
got to go..
miss u all...

and happy mother's day too..

last thing..
i love my mum..same to my dad..
muaksx!!!

hehe..

别以为女人是你肚子里的虫，  
你爱不爱她？ 
你什么都不说， 什么也不做， 
她怎么知道？


不要让她感觉你在冷落她， 敷衍她，
除非你先有交待她你等下可能会有点忙，
否则， 她会问自己， 
“你还爱我吗？ 在你心中，我还在吗？”


性关系对女人来说，
远远没有男人想得那么重要，
不要以为他爱你，
当你需要的时候，
她就得满足你，
这样她会觉得，
你在乎的是性， 而不是他。。。


别动不动就说，“这是男人的事， 你懂什么？”
有时候不是我们八卦， 而是出至于关心， 想帮你，
还有， 女人有自尊心的，
就算在新爱男人的面前， 女人依然还有自尊。。。


她一定有男性朋友， 甚至是知心朋友，
别担心，女人对爱情和友情往往比男生分得清楚。


吃醋是女人的专利，
如果她不再吃你醋了，可能她不在乎你了，
但如果醋吃得多了， 女人会伤心。。。


当女生发脾气的时候，
迁就一下， 让她骂一下不就好咯？ 就算骂也骂不多的。。。
前一秒她可能还在生你的气，这一秒你低头， 下一秒她就会对你温柔起来。。。
不要硬对硬，这样会的更加僵， 结局无法收拾。。。


女人对爱情的需要和男人对性的需要一样多，
不要责怪他对爱情的追求是多余，是奢侈。。。


能容忍自己男人去偷吃的女人少数，
不要期望自己的女人是属于少数派，
其实她真的是，也很有可能他也找到了平衡心，也去偷吃。。。

gonna have exam on Monday lur..
kinda worry..
because all the subjects in this semester are theory subject / papers..
thats mean..
i have to memorize everything..

damn sad wei...
left around 24++ hour only..
and i still haven finish study...
oh my god..
fucking stress...
feel like crying oh..
wuwu~~~

蓉姐，

拜托拜托！！
不要无端端告诉我你不要住我这里了，
我真的可以去死的哦。。。

之前你都 confirm 我会住我这里，
所以我已经预好了你是我的roommate，
我也没有找人进来，
如果你现在无端端和我说你不要，
很迟了叻。。。
在这个时候，
我无法找人代替你，
我真的不懂该如何和人家交代，
我也缴不出那笔钱来。。。

所以，
please... 
你不要吓我或则反悔。。。
我真的会心脏病发的。。。

please!!!!!!!!


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

然后，
要考试了，
很压力。。。

再加上如果我的蓉姐突然和我讲不要，
我真的会烦死的。。。

please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

要是上天真的要我死的话，
我想现在你们见不到我了。。。

虽然现在安然无事的坐在家里写部落格，
可是每当想回那个景象，
还是觉得很恐怖，
因为那种感觉是真的会让你心寒的。。。

我怕这个感觉， 多过怕好兄弟，
你永远都不会懂这种感觉若你没有亲身体会过。。。

在生死门走了一回，
想想，
做人？ 其实也是一个空而已，
何必那么计较， 那么执着？ 
死了， 也不是乖乖躺在棺材里。。

生气某某人？ 因为他冒犯了你？
怎么不干脆自己默忍吞一切，
当做没有事情发生，
人生？ 我们不知道长还是短。。。
能过的一天就一天，
干吗不要好好利用？

我也不想这样讲话的，
只不过，
这次， 我体验到的，
只是这些。。。

要是你们觉得我说错了，
就当我吓傻了吧~

不过有一句是真的，
好好珍惜每一天， 每一个人，
因为今天不知明天事。。。
失去了， 有时真的是没有机会了。。。

不是我的错，
谁给钱先， 谁就拿到房间，
1st come 1st serve!!!!

做么要骂我！！！！
做么要上门找我！！
又不是我想的！！！

我也是夹在中间的！！
我也很难做人！！！

妈的， 很无辜酱紫给人家骂！！

对对对！！
我不能靠！！ 我不会做事！！
以后不要叫我做事了啦！！

刚刚放了新歌哦，
从朋友那里知道这首歌的，
感觉不错噢！
嘻嘻。。。

不过，


不懂为什么突然感触起来，
可能听到 Leona Levis 的 yesterday 吧？
应该咯， 我超喜欢这首歌的，
听多了还是不会感觉到厌倦，
这首歌还是我每天起身闹钟的铃声叻！
哈哈！

不懂为什么突然很怀旧，
想回以前，
对于件件事情的发生， 都会问自己为什么叻？
或许那时候还小吧？ 什么都不会想， 要怎样就怎样。。。
就是小孩子的思想啊。。。
那时在爱情中的我？ 你惹我不爽哦？ 我们完了，拜拜~ 
现在哦？ 不能这样了咯， 不然的话， 注定一世都是老姑婆的咯~


现在？？
会想很多了咯， （不是在赞自己啦，哎哟~）
迁就？忍让？忍忍忍~~
凡事都要忍~
事事都问自己， 是我开始做错先的吗？ 是我吗？
不过， 其实就算是， 也会安慰自己， 或许是我的行动让你们误会了，
但请你们相信我， 我没有冒犯你们的意思， 如果有的话， 小妹说声对不起咯， 没心的~
如果有的话啦~  
当然我也没有特地去得罪人啦~ 
就算不是我的错， 就当作是我的错吧~ 
我不是扮大方， 只因为我不想吵， 我也很讨厌吵。
宁愿自己默吞一切， 也不要吵。。。
委屈一点罢了吗？ 有没有什么损失。。
aduixxx

以前到现在，
我变了很多叻，
当然包括我肥了， 我丑了。。。
哈哈。。。


没有变的就是，
减肥还是不成功， 经痛还是那么得痛，
真得很不明白叻，
为什么男生不会有月经？？
我宁愿出门做工养家啊~  条件就是男生一定要知道来月经的痛苦， 哪怕只是那么的一次？
哈哈！！


现在不懂为什么，
身子越来越差了，
咳嗽都会咳到头晕叻？！  oh my god~

还有哦，
不懂为什么， 有心事， 都不想和人家讲，
自己收埋收埋。。。
真的害怕自己会有一天的忧郁症叻？！
哈哈！！

i left my phone at home..
so...
i missed the chance to go club..


seriously....
im fucking bored...
i don't know what i can do..
other than blogging...

facebook??? arghhh... signed in dy..
friendster???  zzz.... damn sien...
msn?  im using my friend's pc.. and his pc only have the old versiom msn..and i got no idea why i cant sign in....


zzzzzzzzzz........

help!!!!!!!!!!

im bored!!!!!!!!


somemore..
im going to have the stupid courseworks on next week..

and i haven study yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck!!!

i aim to score A or B  for all the subject in this sem.....
only A and B !!

but..
i got no confidence on it...


because...

I AM LAZY!!!!!!

LOLZ

everything is over...

hahaha....

my fault, my bad...


thanks for you love, 

thanks for the sweet memory,

thanks for everything...

you are the best boyfriend  that i ever have...

and, i love you so much, love you like no one..

but, 

i still choose to end everything...

i'm not afford to control my tempered...

i am so sorry for scolding you...

and

you didnt owe me anything,

thats why you not need do anythg for me..

not need to tolerate me...




i am not that worth for you to appreciate...

i am so sorry if i hurt you...



sorry for highly demanding for my bf...

sorry for sticking my bf so much...

i cant even stand a minute without you by my side...

sorry for owning you from your brothers...



now i realize,

yes they own you...



hahaha....

i am a bad girl!!!

hahaha...


----   over   ----

今天开学了噜~ 
第三个学期的开始。。。

虽然，
这个学期只是有三个科目，
不过，
好像都很难叻。。。

由于这个学期只是七个星期而已，
所以，
讲师教书，
好想快到象火箭那样。。。
每个科目一个星期教两个chapter。。。
三个科目一个星期总共六个chapter。。。
拿我的命咩~

然后，
今天去上课，
我，
好像还不懂它在讲什么哦，
哈哈！！

你告诉我， "can't you just look like my girlfren?"

我到底是你的谁？ 真的是女朋友吗？ 

现在我才懂， 原来女朋友不能有权利懂自己的男朋友在那里， 在做什么。。。

什么都没说，

也不理人，

我找你， 你说我烦？！

我鬼知道你几时得空， 几时不得空？

我不给你时间？

你要时间，

我一定会给你，

但是请你交待一声！

只要一句就够了，

就算几个字都好，

可是你有吗？



我这个人不会无端段发脾气，

但要是你踩到我的尾巴，

是谁都会生气。。。

你不懂为什么我会生气，

那我告诉你那里做错了，

但你却说我小气，

我干你的！



所谓知错能改，

你错了，

你很不甘愿的认错，

也死都不会去改。。。

只会一直重复犯错，

我次次告诉你哪里出现问题，

但你说我爱吵架，

拜托！！
 
换做是谁， 谁都会生气！ 



要求你改，

你只会告诉我一句，

“ 长大了， 我改不了。。。”

我顶你的肺！！



我不想再被你说我不给你私人空间，

我也不知道你何时得空，

因为你永远都不会交待你要做什么，还是要怎样，

找你的时间找错了，

被你说我烦？



好啊！

我赖沛宇发誓，

从现在开始起， 

我再也不会烦你！

你不懂我怎样想！

你不明白我的处境！


每一次我们吵架，

我都感觉心痛。。。

我哭了，

但你却不懂。。。

现在， 我让步了， 我好声好气和你谈，

你还想怎样？！


还有，

我知道你不会看华语，

所以，

我特地写华语！

好让我自己发泄发泄，

不然的话，

我真得会心理不平衡！！

i don't want quarrel with you anymore..
i feel damn tired to argue with you..

you always doubt with me..
what else i still can say?

from couple until now,
how many times we have been quarrel for this topic?
can't you just believe me?

i swear, i got nothing with them!
no matter what i do,
i hope u can trust me..

but if you still choose to not believe me...
ok..
stop blaming me again..
my fault..
and i won't repeat a same mistake again..
because everytime we quarrel,
sure you will treat me cold..

and, i hate being treated cold by you..
so..
i choose to admit, 
ya, is my fault..
and i'll change.........

wow wow...
i just read some articles today..
some articles about chris brown and rihanna..

well, i'm not good in memorize...
thus, sorry!!
i'm not able to tell you all the story..
but.. i just know that chris brown is going to the jail for nine years..
( if im not mistaken )
all because of he assualted his superstar girlfriend rihanna..

i wonder why chris brown is so.. erm.. cruel..
( am i using the correct word? )
how can he hit his girlfriend rihanna's face with his fist..
until his lips was split, n bla bla bla..
( not remember, xp )

he can also can say as... STUPID...
up to his action..
he lost his career, he lost his superstar girlfriend rihanna, he lost he face, he lost the chance to attend grammy award (if i'm not mistaken) , and he also lost his money..
and last...
he going to the jail!!

hmmm...
i damn hate those guys who hit girls..
no matter what's the reason that you girlfriend make you on fire..
please!!
never and ever try to hit you girlfriend!!

this is an advise..
if not, u going to face the same situation like chris brown..


but..
if my boyfriend hit me,
i will say bye bye to him immediately.. without any doubt!!
lolx...